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Sunday, May 18, 2008

My ear pain!!! Ok not pain but it feels as if it's block like i'm in a cave like tat. Weird feeling sia. Just now ah, was praying and I yawned and snap! Got this sound and now my ear feels like shit. My dad say he got it before so he say just ignore bt then my mum say if tomorrow still not well then off to the doctor we go...

Haiz... So bored lh... Dunno wad to do this few days. Bt I think I have a crush on David Cooks from American Idol. His voice AMAZING!!!! Haha. I had goosebumps when I heard him sing lh!!! I'm glad he made it to the top 2!!! GOOOO DAVID!!!! THE ROCK VERSION NOT THE OTHER DAVID!!!!! Haha.

I think I'm gona start on 2 stories. Been thinking about the stories in the ~~toilet~~ for the past 1 month or so and I think I got some ideas from the book TWILIGHT and I can't wait to write it later.

You know, yesterday, I got angry at my dad coz he asked about my band and I just snapped lh. Then he say why I nvr make another band and I was like I'm sick lh. I made like wad? 2 bands and both crashed and burned to the ground. One wasn't serious enough and the other was just pushing all the work to me. I mean WTF? I feel betrayed that both bands played with wad I was chasing ah. Then when my dad asked summore I just plugged my ears and just ignored him and he got the message and stopped asking.

But really, I'm mad that both bands crashed and burned but I got over that. I'm just damn frustrated tat they make me feel tat chasing my dreams wasn't worth it. Tat's why I'm NOT making another band until I'm fully sure tat the band tat I'm about to make is going to break the industry. I mean, try be in my spot, you'll just feel like you got slapped in the face.

I cried because of this fucking issue and it sux thinking tat I might never be able to live my dream to be in a band and make history in the music industry. It just sux and I can continue with tis topic and dawn breaks and guess wad? I FUCKING WILL becoz now I'm fucking pissed.

You try ah having ppl crushing your dreams and they still can say Oh. It's my dream to be in a band. or Oh. It's my dream to make a band with you. I dun fucking care who the hell reads this. Whether you're Teik Wei or Caleb or Meril, for all I care becoz you ppl ruined my mood to make a band. Thx alot and I blame you ppl for wasting my time and hopes becoz guess wad? I've been hoping all this while tat mayb our band will make it you know. But I guess I was WRONG. Fucking WRONG.

You know, now I feel very selfish becoz now I'm thinking that I deserve a better band mate than you guys becoz I put my heart and soul into this but you guys? You think it's just play time. You push all the work to me. Can you help me find the tabs? My coms down. or Can you help me make a tab coz my hearing sux. or Can you help me do the tabs coz I can't find the tabs on Ultimate Guitar. or I don't know. You go ask them when wanna jam ah then you tell me. or I tired to jam ah. Besides, I go there oso do nothing.

Fine. Be tat way. I got one question though. If I can make my own tabs by watching ppl play, or listening to the song, why can't you? Isn't it obvious that YOU'RE taking advantage of me becoz you know that I'm serious bout tis band. I mean, giving excuses saying you're hearing sux or the com's down is just disgusting in my POV. If you're not interested then just say it to me from the start tat you dun wanna make a band becoz you're not interested. It's just easier tat way, rather than having me typing all this shit that will make you angry.

I dun care if you hate me for typin tis but try to be in my shoes. You'll hate it. So I'm not gona say sori for what I just typed unless I feel tat I should, which I dun. If you can be sad, cry, cut yourself or be EMO becoz your dreams were crushed, so I see no reason why I can't act like tat so if you read this and you dun tink it's true then go complain to god.

Ok... So I guess tats over. I think. Haha. So much for that. Now I lazy to type my story. Fuck lh. I tink I wanna go learn Emergency. Go vent my anger out. I watch tis guy play and I got it abit. See. If I can play a song by watching ppl play closely. Why cnt you bitches do the same fucking thing. Maybe go learn how to sing the song. Haha. Ok. I tink I'm being a bitch over here but wad do I care? Haha. Kk.

1 hour later...

FUCK YOU BITCHES!!! I just learned how to play 'Emergency"!!! WEEE DUUU!!!! N i fucking love it! See. If I cn watch ppl play and try to follow, then why can't you shits do the same?? Oh, I know why. Becoz you are pigs. That's why. Ruin my mood only. Bleh. Only Natalia understands me.

Haha. Just now cool sia. Natalia smsed me and I smsed back and she suddenly was like U ok or not? U dun sound ok? n I was like How you know then she was like The way you sms like tell me. Haha. Cool right? Like Bill and Tom like tat. No need to say I'm angry, she knows. Haha. Not like some ppl who dun even bother to give a shit about what I'm feeling. Go die you ppl. Haha. Natalia!! Ich liebe dich!! And Tom liebe dich!!! Haha. Kk. Nacht :)

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