Photobucket
<body>
all about
that girl


Syafiqah/Syafiqueh
Facebook Fanfiction Mibba
Myspace Quizilla

tell me anything
you want



Free shoutbox @ ShoutMix

Fruende Bleiben
Fur Immer

Liebes
Atikah Batrisyia Batrisyia Dyra Ezabel Faiziyyah Fana HuiYun Irfaniah IzyanSyahida Maggie Mardiah Nadira NaurahIzyan Saiful Suchi Syuhadah

4E5 '09
4E5 '09 Afifah Anira Beatrice Brenda Diyana Emellene Eunice Huiwen JingYi KaiXin Limin Luqman Priscilla TeikWei

Not Forgotten :)
SitiSyahidah

Live.Love.
Music


the past
that haunts

||2007|| ||2008|| ||2009||


and the credits
go to...
Layout & Coding (c) Milla
Content (c) Syafiqah9622
Steal and DIE. Simple as that.

updates
to make your day
Monday, June 9, 2008

Today was ok I guess. Followed my mum go to Polyclinic and I guess it was ok. Haha. Bt today, it was pretty scary for me. I mean since this morning, I've been thinking of him and the scary thing was that it wasn't Bill who I was thinking about.

I mean, I've never seen him for almost 3 years and he never crossed my mind during those three years but today, I was thinking of him. Hoping that I'll meet him at the Polyclininc or at the bus or just meet him. It's weird and scary... It really is...

And I even heard his name being called at the Polyclinic but I think that maybe it's just my imaginations... Maybe it is...

Gosh! I just wanna stop thinking of him! I don't want to think of him because when I do, memories from my past starts to flow back and I don't want to remember what happened. It was a bitter past. A very bitter one judging that he was the first guy that I've ever liked...

And you still know what sucks...

Well just now, my mum terlepas cakap coz we were talking about studies and she suddenly bursted Kau tengok Yah. Tiap2 tahun dpt scholarship. Tiap2 tahun dpt first in level. Klau die bleh pandai gitu, asal kakak tk leh? Mcm die kan bagus. Dpt duit. Bleh tlg mama sikit2. but she stopped though when she noticed that I was quiet... I would like to thank her for that.

I mean who wouldn't be. I worked my ass off to prove that I can make it and i did. I thought that maybe after knowing that I got 5th in class and 94th in level, she would stop saying her name and stop comparing me to her. I thought that maybe I could be proud of myself without feeling that my mum wants me to be like someone else... But maybe it'll never stop because... I dun noe... I just feel fucked up today...

Maybe Tokio Hotel would cheer me up...

Es wird gesagt und getan
8:39 PM