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Friday, September 5, 2008

Just bored and my mum lupe nk bangun sahur tadi so yeah... Could already feel my stomach growling but nah... I WANNA PUASE!!!

So now, I don't know what to type so... Uh... Yea..

Ouh!! N I BOUGHT THIS NEW STAPLER!!! AND IT'S BLACK!!!

I dunnno... I still feel down and don't mind me if my next post are stories becoz I write alot when I'm feeling all shitty...

"How do I look? Do you think my hair is alright? Maybe it's a little flat? Maybe I should comb it back with gel. Yeah. What do you think?" Bill asked looking at me.

I just sighed before going up to him and taking off his bowed tie, his black tuxedo jacket and his weird belt before pushing him down the bed.

"What are you doing? Samantha likes those things!"

"Shut up Bill!"

I took a red skull t-shirt, a normal black jeans, a studded belt, a choker and some make-up before walking back up to Bill.

"Take off that lousy, ugly white shirt and that stupid pants and put these on."

"But but--"

"No buts." I stated before Bill shrugged and took off his clothes.

"Are you sure you don't mind me changing here?"

"Nein. I've seen you naked since we were 3. Just go change." I said to Bill who slowly took off his clothes before putting on the ones that I gave him.

"Now sit down here and close you eyes." I instructed Bill, who only gave me a sad face, after he changed.

I look at his flawless face and smiled before putting on the necessary things on it.

"Now open."

"But Sky... You know how much this date means to me. Samantha doesn't like me looking like this."

"If she likes you, like she says she does, she will accept you for who you are. You're handsome, kind and wonderful. It's her loss if she turns you down." I smiled before stroking his fringe.

He returned my smile before hugging me.

"I don't know what I'll do if you're not here with me right now." He said before kissing my cheeks.

"Yeah. I don't now what I'll do either if you're not here." I replied pulling away from, trying hard not to show him 'me'.

"I better get going. Wish me luck alright." He stood up before walking out of the bus.

"Good luck..." I whispered before sitting down on his bed.

A moment of silence took over as I started thinking before Tom decided to break that silence.

"Why don't you just tell him? I don't really like seeing you like this Sky... It's been like what? 5 years?"

"No. 6 years. It has been 6 years..." I replied trying hard to blink the tears in my eyes away.

6 years of hoping and 6 years of waiting. It has always been the same.

6 years... How many months is that? 72 months?

Many things had happen during that period of time. Especially because Bill had hit puberty.

Bill started dating girls and it all turned out the same. None of his relationship lasted long. Most of the time, well, not most but all of the time, he'll come back from a date, sad and frustrated.

It's sad just looking at him like that.

"Why don't you just go tell him how you feel?" Tom asked as he stroke my back.

"I can't... I'm scared."

"That's the thing about you girls. You all are just afraid to get rejected."

"Easy for you to say... You never got rejected before." I chuckled before Tom hugged me.

"Correction. You remember Kim in school?"

"That popular Kim? Yeah."

"I got rejected by her." Tom smiled as he yawned.

"Haha. Oh yeah. I forgot about that one. You're tired huh?" I asked, pinching Tom's cheeks.

"Yup. I'm going to bed. You go tell him ok."

"I can't promise you that. Nacht."

"Nacht."

After watching Tom tucked himself into bed, I wondered if I should tell Bill about how I feel.

Maybe Tom's right. Maybe I AM afraid of rejection. Maybe I'm afraid that Bill wouldn't feel the same way about me.

Maybe this is the right time...

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A loud thud awoke me from my slumber.

"What time is it again?" I thought to myself before checking my wristwatch.

3.23am

Bill should be back by now.

I slowly stood up and blindly made my way to Bill's bed in the dark.

"Bill?" I whispered before I notice his hair through the dark.

"Hey. How's the date?" I asked softly before sitting down beside him.

There was silence.

"Bill?" I asked again, this time, I placed his hair behind his ears only to find that he was crying silently.

"No. Not again..." I said as I hugged him.

It has happen again. De Ja Vu for Bill... Again.

"I don't get it. Why do some girls just don't like me for who I am?" He sobbed silently.

"They're just stupid."

"It's either their stupid or I'm just not good enough for them."

"Look. There's still other girls out there. Let me tell you something about girls like Samantha. They suck because the only reason they like you is because you're a famous rockstar. They also suck because they always try to change you. You are who you are and you don't need to look or be stupid to be Romeo." I stated, wiping his tears away.

"I guess I'll never find a girl that likes or loves me for who I am..." He sighed before I smiled.

"And that's when you're wrong... You're handsome, kind, funny, smart and stupid. Anyone would love you for who you are."

"So? No still loves me."

"I do."

Bill turned and looked at me with shock painted in his eyes.

I couldn't help but turn away. It was embarrasing telling him how I really feel and at the same time, fear was instilled in me too.

"You... do?" He stuttered with a questioning look in his face.

"Always did and always will... You don't know how beautiful or how talented you are. You keep saying that you're not good for anyone but the truth is... You're too good for anyone. Even me..." I softly confessed before Bill placed his index finger on my lips.

"That's not true. Do you know how much I've dreamt to hear THAT coming out of your mouth?"

There was a moment of silence before Bill hugged me.

"I love you Sky. I fucking love you."

I couldn't but smile back before laughing softly.

"I love you too, Bill."

"Oh and Sky? Please don't ask me to dress up like Draco Malyfoy. Please. I beg of you!"

"Oh! So that's why you were wearing that stupid tux today! Haha." I laughed, pulling away from the hug.

"Together?" Bill asked, the phrase that me and him used to make fun of when watching All That.

"Forever." I smiled.

Together Forever. That's nice.

Well, that's it. Not bad luh. Actually I wanted a different ending but.... Nah!! Ich liebe this one!!! Weee!! Kk. Byez :)

Haha! Yes! I going Geylang later so can go on Char Kway search!! WEEE!

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