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Sunday, September 14, 2008

Today was fun but I can't tok much. It's like 1.02am and my mum nagging so yeah.

Here's a one-shot I wrote for Ritienne. I hope she likes it :)

A girl once promised me that once she got her license, she was going to take me for a ride on her bike.

But, that was 6 years ago.

Her name was Winter Thorn. My neighbour and my bestfriend.

We did everything together, just like typical bestfriends do and I wouldn't trade her for anything...

Well... Not exactly.

We fought, for the first time in history and it all ended there...

"I hate you!" She shouted, anger in her voice.

It was the first time I've seen her so angry before.

"Why are you being so difficult?" I snapped, pushing her unintentionally.

"No! Why are YOU being so difficult? You say I'm your bestfriend but why are doing this to me?" She replied, pushing me back.

"But you must understand, Winter! I can't bring you with me!"

"I don't care if you can bring me or not! Wait, I don't give a shit if you want to bring me along on your stupid tour! But why must you bring that stupid slut of yours?"

That was her last words before my right hand met her left cheeks.

"Winter. I'm soo sorry." I apologised, trying to hug her only to be pushed away.

"Stay away from me Bill. I don't know who you are anymore... Who exactly are you? You're not the Bill I used to know." She said, looking at me with her green eyes.

I couldn't help but shrugged my shoulders, avoiding her gaze.

"What happened to you? Has all this fame made you selfish?"

"Winter, I--"

"Save it. The Bill I knew died a long time ago. Go be with Ashley for all I care... Do you know how stupid I feel right now? I thought that maybe if I wait, you'll come back to me and be my friend again. Maybe if I have more patience, the Bill that I used to play with will come back. How wrong was I to think like that." She smirked before turning her back and walking away.

I grabbed her arm before she turned again, this time, tears were threatening to fall.

"Wait."

"What?"

"Does this mean we're not friends anymore?" I asked, hoping that she would say no.

"That's for you to decide..."

Then, she was gone.

That was pretty much what happened.

I turned my back on my bestfriend for fame, fortune and for my first girlfriend, Ashley. We broke up in the end though.

I just wished to see Winter again... I miss her soo much.

*Screeeenchhhh*

"Watch where you're going!" A woman shouted, immeaditely stopping her black bike in front of me.

"You could have been killed! Didn't your mom ever told you to look left and right before crossing the road?" She shouted again, before taking off her helmet.

For a guy who almost got hit by a bike, I sure am stupid but I couldn't help it. Her eyes, her hair, her lips. I must be dreaming!

"Hello? Are deaf?" She asked, getting off her bike.

"Winter?" I asked, shocked, amazed, whatever you call it as I took my sunglasses.

"Bill?!"

"Omg! It's Bill!"

"Omg!"

"Bill!"

"Oh shit..." I mutteres under my breath as the sound of screaming girls filled my ears.

"Hurry. Come on." Winter said as I hurried onto her bike, wrapping my hands on her hips as we sped off.

"Remind me to thank you later." I said, in between breaths.

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"Thank you again for just now." I smiled as Winter tied her long black hair.

It didn't use to be long. Her fringe wasn't highlighted white like before.

"No problem. So what are you doing here?" She asked, no averting her eyes to meet mine.

"We have a concert here and I was just walking around."

"I see." She replied as she sat down on the grass before I did the same.

"Nice bike."

"Danke. My dad bought it for me 3 years ago."

"The exact one that you wanted huh?"

She turned her head and smiled, "You still remembered?"

"Of course I did. Why wouldn't I?" I smirked before the smile on her face was wipe off.

"Ouh... I thought you didn't remember at all." Her voice down and weary.

"Winter... I--"

"So how's things going on with you and Ashley?" She caught me off guard as if she knew what I was going to say.

"We... Broke up a few years ago. Things wasn't working out. Especially when you left. Why did you go anyway?" I asked, remembering the awful incident 6 years ago.

"I got a scholarship from America. That's why I left..."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I wanted to but then that happened and I don't know..."

She bowed her head, not wanting to look at me.

"I'm sorry. I should have listened to you. I wanted you to come with me on that tour but I was afraid."

"What were you afraid about?" She asked, finally looking at me.

"I... Don't know... I was just afraid that maybe I would lose you."

"You losing me? Why would you even think like that? You know that you mean the world to me."

"I was afraid that you'll reject me..."

Her eyes became wide, not believing what she was hearing.

"Re-rejecting you?" She stuttered, obviously wanting to hear what I meant.

"I love you, Winter. I really do but some part of me was telling me that you don't feel the same way about I do... That's why I backed out. I didn't wanted it to turn out that bad."

I was waiting for her reaction and part of me was telling me that she's going to stand up, turn her back on me like I did to her and walk away.

I guess that part of me was right when she stood up, turned her back and walked back to her bike.

I sighed as I stared at the green grass. I guess it wasn't meant to be then.

"Are you coming?"

My head shot up, shocked when I saw her smiling.

"Vas?"

"I said, are you coming?"

"Coming to where?" I raised my eyebrow, confused.

"You forgot? I promised you that once I got my license, I'll take you on a ride on my bike."

I smiled before getting up and walking towards her.

Before I got up the bike, Winter took my arm and spun me around, kissing me and catching me off guard.

"And for the record Bill the oh so famous Kaulitz. I love you too." She smiled before putting back on her helmet.

"Ready? Hold on tight." She smirked before starting the engines and letting the wind comb my hair.

"Aren't we going a little too fast?" I asked, worried about the speed she was riding at.

"Chill. You still the sissy aren't you?" She replied in between laughter.

"Yup. I'm the sissy whom you are in love with."

I couldn't help but smirked at my last comment.

The speed of the wind is nothing compared to the rate of my heart was beating as I hold Winter close to me.

I promise you, Winter, I'm never going to let you go this time.

I hope that was nice.

Ouh and for Kak Nat, I promised you that I was gonna record Monsoon acoustic rite?

Well, it's finally here :) But... Before that :) Here's Cristina with Spring Nicht :) Hers is sooo much better than mine :)

Gail huh? Well, I see if I can re-record mine coz I finally know how to adjust my pedal :)

Now... Dun laugh hor!!!

Kk. guten nacht aite :)

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