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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

I just read Fani's blog and I'm just... I don't know.

I don't care if I hurt the others but hurting Irfaniah, Atikah and Syuhadah is just a bad as taking a knife and murduring my own parents.

I'm sorry Guys. I really tried to keep it together. I wanted this Workforce to last, I did. You don't know how much I loved you guys. I would do anything for you guys but I just cracked.

Sometimes I think that I'm just thinking about myself. Maybe I'm not good enough to be in the Bladders Workforce becoz I'm not like that.

I'm not smart.
I'm not clever.
I'm not nice.

It didn't bother me at first but it slowly burned my skin and I snapped.

Sometimes I wonder if I've gone too far in what I had done.

I'm sorry if I hurt anyone, especially Iraniah.

You guys don't know how much Irfaniah meant to me.

I love her like crazy. I would do anything for her.

She was there for me all the time but somehow, I felt that I didn't do the same for her.

Sometimes I think that maybe all of this happened because of me...

Maybe my impatience blew everything into bits and pieces.

Maybe my attitude caused this volcano to errupt.

Maybe my selfishness destroyed everything...

I appreciate all the times we've shared but it kills me to say this.

You don't know how many times I've fought with myself when the thought of leaving the Bladders came up in my mind.

You don't know how many times I've fought with my mum over Faiziyyah.

I don't know who I am anymore.

I don't care what the rest say about my decision but I care about what Irfaniah says.

I don't want her to get hurt. I never did.

I don't know...

I hate the voices in my head!

I hate them for always telling me what's right and I hate it when they're right!

I hate the voices for not letting me hide my feelings and lie to the ones I love so that they'll not get hurt!

I hate myself...

LEAVE ME ALONE...

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