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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

One shot up. The best one I've ever thought of since Together Forever?. I'm porud but I don't it's as sood as the one Ritienne made for me bt I hope she likes it :) And from now on, my post will all be centered :)




This night
Walk the dead
In a solitary style and crash the cemetery gates
In the dress your husband hates...


The drive was a peaceful one but many voices were heard in my head. I didn't recognise any of those voices. They're driving me insane.

This wasn't suppose to happen. It was just a stupid to piss Bill's ex-girlfriend off. None of it was meant to be real. This definitely was not suppose to happen... Wasn't it?

"Please rit! Please please PLEASE! Just help me! Be my girlfriend. A pretend one! Just to piss Samantha off. Please. If you're my bestfriend, you'll help me. Please...." Bill whined while jumping up and down like a ten year old.

"You have officially gone insane right? Give me one good, and resonable reason why I should risk my butt to be your pretend girlfriend? That's incest Bill." I laughed as I shook my head at Bill's ridiculous idea.

I mean, what the hell? Be his pretend girlfriend? That must be the craziest idea I've ever heard! He must be joking! He's my bestfriend for heaven's sake. I would never go out with him. Be it real or pretend.

"Well, for starters, Samanthat cheated on me and you saw how shitty I became when I found out! I want revenge you know and I'm sure you want to mess with her a little judging that you hate her guts."

"Ok... I'm listening." I said while reconsidering Bill's idea.

Come to think of it, it's not a bad idea at all. Yes. It's incest but not bad. Samantha is a bitch and I'm ready to take that boob down.

"And well, since she hate you and I recently found that she's still madly in love with and wants to get back together, what a better way than for us to pretend to be together and rub it in her face! Think about it! She loves me and hates you! She'll be fucking pissed to see someone she hates dating me, someone she loves!" Bill smiled, clapping his hands.

"Hmm. What's in it for me, besides seeing that bitch burn off like a dog?" I asked, cocking my eyebrow.

"I'll do anything you want!"

"Anything?" I asked again, a smirk slowly forming on my lips.

"I hate the sound and look of that but yes. I'll do anything you want. I promise." He said, looking very hasistant.

"Ok. Deal."

"Deal but!"

"But what?"

"You must promise to be my girlfriend and do exactly as I say. Even if it means you kissing me." He smirked before I slapped him on the head.

"Fuck you. Don't ever think that this precious lips of mine is ever going to touch that foul thing on your face." I sneered, pointing to his oversized lips that were used to kiss Samantha back then.

"Then how about sex?" He laughed before I stared at him and walked away.

"Aww come on! Don't bail out on me now! I was kidding!" He shouted before running towards me as we made our way out of the cemetary.


I regretted making that deal with Bill because now, I'm fucked up. Everything inside me is a mess. I don't know who I am anymore. I'm confuse. Everything I see is cloudy and the tears welled up in my eyes is not helping in this oh so dramatic situation.

I immeaditely put the car to a stop upon seeing a shadow running past it. There was nothing.

Stupid eyes.

I wiped my eyes with my sleeves before pressing play on the CD player.

I miss you
I miss you so far
And the collison of your kiss
That made it so hard...

"How long are we going to do this, Bill? I'm getting tired of always pretending." I complaint before Bill sat down beside me and patted my back.

"Don't worry. Take it easy, Rit. It'll be over... Sooner or later." He chuckled before I rolled my eyes.

"And when's that? When Tom decides to be a priest?"

I scanned across the packed living room but didn't recognise any of the one million faces except for Samantha and the guys. Her glare was glued to me and I swear, that if her eyes were to bulge any bigger than they already are, her eyeballs would drop off. I guess me pretending to be with Bill is working out.

"Okay. guys and ladies. By my request, we'll be playing truth or dare." Tom annouced as I groaned, joining the other twenty-nine souls on the floor.

Okay. So I lied. There was only thirty people present but it feels like a million when you don't know twenty-four of them.

"Easy rules. Spin the bottle. Truth or Dare. Alternate. For example, if I choose truth before, the next person which the bottle lands on must pick dare. No chickening out. Easy? Okay. Let's start." georg explained, making the rules short and sweet before Bill interrupted.

"No sex involve please." He stated before looking at Tom, who only shrugged his shoulders and pouted.

So the game started and so far, it's boring but I'm grateful that the bottle hasn't land on....

"Ritienne. Dare." Gustav smiled before my jaws dropped.

I noticed Samantha whispering to her plastic before averting her gaze back to me and I didn't like the eveil smirked that was plastered on her boob face.

"I dare you to kiss Bill in front of all of us and prove to us that you guys are really dating."

Seriously, if I could just jump on her and scratched her face out, I will and her plastic friends are not making it better with their pathetic giggles that can kill King Kong.

I looked at Bill nervously as he returned the same look. In our two weeks of pretending, we have never kissed and I mean NEVER.

"Come on. Unless you're a chicken. Cluck. Cluck." Samanthat tease, followed by another round of giggles from the plastics.

"She's right Ritienne. No chickening out." Gustav said, giving me an apologetic look.

Stupid! I know this was a bad idea! Why did I even agree to go steady with Bill and it's fake for heaven's sake! I can't kiss Bill! He's like my own flesh and blood! I can't do th-

"Urrrghhh. Let's get this done and over with..." Bill groaned before pulling me by the collar and sealing that kiss.

I didn't move nor did I flinched. I just stood there as his lips was pressed upon mine. It felt good and right. It fitted perfectly like a jugsaw pu--

Fuck! No!

I pulled away, receiving the same look that on I had on my face from Bill.

"I'm sorry. I got to go." I shook my head before making my way out, ignoring the calls that were thrown from behind.

The moment I reached my car, I got in and sped off.

What happened?


I've been asking the same exact question for the pat four hours. I didn't know what was going on with me. Had I always been in love with Bill but didn't realise it?

My head hurts as I just sat in my car as Cemetery Drive blasted from stereo. Evevry single word from the song fits perfectly with my situation.

It was only a kiss and now everything seems so hard. I don't know what to do. I just want everything to go back to normal. To old times. Before Bill created this dumb idea. If only I said no!

I groaned and hit the steering wheel before stepping out into the cold wind. I stared at the tombs before supporting my back on my car.

I feel so fuck up.

I kicked the small pebbles as I wandered around the empty cemetery.

The sky was clear and the stars and moon shined their light upon me. How I wish everything was as perfect as them. No worries. No troubles...

"How did we get here... This sucks..." I mumbled as I sat down beside a random tomb.

When I think about it now, maybe I did have feelings for Bill. I used to like him when I was nine. I thought I washed that feeling out a long time ago? I didn't expect it come back and it was strong. I thought it was just a mere crush but I guess it's not...

"Urrghhh!!" I groaned before shutting my eyes.

I've been groaning alot haven't I?

It was only a stupid stunt to piss Samantha off and I guess we pissed ourselves off!

"Ritienne?"

I cringed upon hearing the voice that I didn't want to hear. At least not now.

I felt him sat beside me but I just kept my eyes closed. I didn't want to see his face. I was embarrassed. I didn't want him to look at me. I'm not like Samantha or all those other girls that he dated. I'm not worthy of him.

"Listen. I'm s-"

"I'm sorry." I apologised before facing him.

For the first time, I was start-struck by how clear his brown eyes were. Tom had the same eyes but it was never as clear as his. Why didn't I notice ths before?

"Ritienne. This might sound insane but I think I'm in love with you. I don't know. The kiss was just--"

"Amazing. Wonderful. The best one I've ever had but I'm not worthy of being love by someone like you. You're beautiful and perfect but look at me. You deserve someone better."

"Shut up. You're an amazing girl. You have a great personality and you're the only girl that understands me. Don't say you're not beautiful because you are. In my eyes right now, I'm seeing a person that looks like she was sent from heaven. No one can compare to how beautiful you look."

"Yeah. You sound like my mother." I laughed before he joined in.

"I don't know what happened but I think I want to give us a try." He suggested before my luaghter stopped.

I thought for a while. There and then, I made my decision. Maybe it won't hurt to give his a try.

"Yeah." I smiled before Bill kissed the top of my forehead.

"But I swear. If you call me sweety or honey or babe, I'm going to skin your face off and bath you in oil." I warned before he gave me a silly smile.

"Only if you don't call me Billy-kins. I hate the name that Samantha gave to me." He groaned before the both of us burst into fits of laughter.

"Deal." I said, in between laughs before we headed back to my car.

Wonderful.

This night
Walk the dead
In the solitary style and crash the cemetery gates
In the dress your husband hates

Way down
Mark the grave
Where the searchlights finds us drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

I miss you
I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss
That made it so hard

Back home
Off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun staring down a loaded gun

So I won't stop dying
Won't stop lying
If you want I'll keep on crying
Did you get what you deserve?
Is this what you always want me for?

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