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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Au Mein God!! Bill! What telah happen to you HAIR??? Okok. It's CUTE, like always, duh, but I miss you white/blonde highlights!! Haha. But I'm glad you're actually talking again and you just spoke in this video which is like sooooo awesome!!

Yay! Bill has his voice back!! WEEE DUUUU!!

Haha. Gosh. I can't stop ~~giggling~~, ~~squeling~~, ~~smiling~~, ~~laughing~~ (i am soo sorry Bill), just plain crazy! Haha. WEEE!!!

So today was English and Chem paper. I couldn't care less about English. Duh. No wonder u failed English during CA1.. Whatever. But I was excited about Chem. I only din manage to do 2 questions I think. 2 to 3 lh. The rest was quite ~~easy~~ for me. I think. Haha. Kk. Now tomorrow is Physics and SS. Din bother studying SS. I ~~HATE~~ SS!!!! Then the stupid answers thing at the school website couldn't be access coz Mr Pu used the newer version of Microsoft Words so I think not many can access. I know Wayne can't. Whatever. I guess I have to study the book then. Haiz. All die ~~best~~ fur die exam zu mich... can't wait till exams are OVER but I'm gonna miss the going home early part. Haha.

Kk. I still love that NununununununununununuunNAANAA video up there! It makes me laugh all the time!! WEEE DUUU!!!

Kk. Nacht ppl! :)

Es wird gesagt und getan
7:41 PM

Monday, April 28, 2008

Haha. I read this interview with Tom about Bill. It was like abit long ago but I just scanned and scanned and read this and I find it really funny. There's this one part but you just read aite :) Dankeshen :)

BILD am SONNTAG: Tom, your brother Bill will be operated today or tomorrow. How is Bill spending his time at home?

TOM KAULITZ: Bill is in bed most of the time watching videos. We piled him up with a lot of DVD’s just so that he can shut up. He’s currently absorbing in the complete season of “Prison Break” as he really digs it. Once in awhile he’ll drag himself to the fridge dressed in training-clothes to get himself something to eat. Now if he were to would grab a beer and sit down in front of the TV to watch soccer, then I’d be really proud of my little brother. I think one day he could really be something. He’s slowly getting there.

Who cooks for Bill?

Tom: At the moment I make him spaghetti with my special sauce everyday. The sauce is just awesome if I do modestly say so myself. But I think Bill’s getting sick of it, but since he has no voice, he can’t complain. Although he should be quiet even if he had a voice. Bill cooks even WORSE than I do. Now and again our mom visits us and you can see Bill’s happy for when she takes over the cooking.

What’s it like to be so long at home now?

Tom: We’ve been on the road almost every day since years, and from one day to another, we’re only hanging around at home. It’s a really extreme change. You totally fall into a hole and then you suddenly miss being on the go. Not to mention Bill misses singing. Bill doesn’t just sing on stage or in the studio, he also sings the WHOLE day at home. No wonder his voice is so groggy. For now he’s been put quiet - I think the peace and quiet is rather pleasant.

Is Bill in pain? How do you cheer him up?

Tom: Ooh, I don’t think he has any pain. And even if he did, he can’t really whine about it with no voice. Normally Bill talks constantly till no end like a waterfall which can really be annoying. I have the most relaxing time of my life at the moment. And if someone does the talking, it’ll be me and Bill can’t do anything about it - that’s just really super. Yesterday he wrote “Shut the fuck up” on a piece of paper with his EYELINER. And when I get too much on Billi’s nerves, he holds that paper up.

Will you be going with Bill to the hospital? How long would he have to stay there?

Tom: Bill wants to stay there little as possible. He’ll probably only survive one or two days there. I’ll be going and staying there with him the entire time. Our family, close friends, Georg and Gustav and our crew team will obviously be visiting him as well.

What are drummer Gustav and bassist Georg doing at the moment?

Tom: Well, everything has stayed the same for them. What can they do? They don’t do anything anyway. [laughs] Georg is probably playing with himself the entire day and Gustav is doing a bicycle tour. But in all seriousness, I think all four of us feel the same at the moment. The forced break is calming us all back down. Maybe that isn’t a bad thing.

Are you afraid that “Tokio Hotel” won’t sound the same like before after the operation? Does Bill fear his voice will sound deeper or higher after the surgery?

Tom: To be honest, we’re both shit scared of that happening. Our asses are pressed down on ice about that. Bill explained and made it clear to me with HAND SIGNS that I’d just have to go the mic after the OP. Oh well, Phil Collins was a drummer before he started singing.

So you have an emergency plan. Your fans are also really worried. Bill must be getting a lot of gifts, right?

Tom: What the fans are doing is incredibly sweet. Bill is currently buried under fan gifts. Most inspired by his neck. Least we know he’ll be equipped for the next skiing trip. He received a lot of neck scarves, shawls, not to mention we can now open a pharmacy. Never ending amounts of throat drops, multi-vitamin tablets, vitamin C, zinc and a lot of homeopathic stuff which will strengthen your immune system and make it more stable. If you take everything at once, you’d probably be on good trip.

Haha. Cute right the interview! Tom is like soooo sweet and funny ah! Especially Bill and that paper which says "Shut The Fuck Up"!! With his eyeliner summore!! Haha. CUTE!!! Gail!! Ich Wie!!! Haha. Gosh, if only I can see the big book which Bill wrote in when he couldn't speak. I'm SURE Syuhadah wants to see it too. Am I right? Haha.

Kk. I know got lots of crazy colours in my blog but what do I care? Ich LIEBE it!!! Haha.

Today is MT paper. Yes. MOTHER TONGUE PAPER 1 & 2. It was ~~easy~~ hard. I think... hehe. But ok lh. I can do.

I was thinking about Bill and Tom alot. Especially BILL. It helped me alot coz there were some point of time which I almost give up thinking but Bill manage to encourage me. WWWEEEE DUUUU!!!

Then studied with Diyana and Irfaniah! Fani giler especially wen me and Irfaniah was walking home and I sat on the pavement coz she like cabar me like that. It was HILLARIOUS coz her classmates and Pokai saw and they were like giving those king of Is she crazy? look. Haha. Then reached home and that's when things got boring. Just played guitar, ~~eat~~, ~~sleep~~ and now ~~play~~ com.

Walau... Tomorrow ~~English Papaer 1 & 2~~ sia... I DON'T want to do!!! UURRRGGGGHHH!!!

Kk. Better go study Chem. Scared later forget the formulas. Hehe. Guten Abend ppl. :)

Es wird gesagt und getan
6:02 PM

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Haha. Second post in less than 1 hour. I think. Haha. I'm just bored. I fixed up my blog a little and just look at random blogs. Nutin to do... I wanna edit my stories but I'm just lazy and tired. I LOVE my blog. Yes. I've said it a million times!! WWWWEEEEE DUUUU!!! Haha.

You know just now. I saw this pic of Tom and it is sooo cute. Then my bro was like "Eh? He got misai ah?" and I laughed like shit coz in my mind I was imagining Bill and Tom with misais. Haha. It's CLASSIC. I'm sure they have misai. DUH . Bt they shave lh. DUH. Haha. Weird and guess wad? Kak Nat, I think you'll be happy about this... hehe... Bill and Tom don't have KETIAK HAIR!! Haha. Seriously. Haha. Ok. Weird weird ~~weird~~ weird weird Syafiqah.. Haha. :)

And I love my red book. I've written like I think about ~~seven~~ pages on it. Oklh. But I can't wait to read it wen the pages are all full. It's bee a while since I kept a REAL diary. The last time I had one was... Pri 5 I think. Haha. WEEE DUUU!!! So far no interesting entries but I'm sure one day there will be. :)

And I LOVE Bill Kaulitz!! Haha. WEE DUUU!! Kk. Guten abend zu mich und ich liebe Bill Kaulitz fur immer zu die unendlichkeit! :)

P.s I wrote that without using any translation on the internet or book. Wow. I'm impress with myself. Haha. Ok Ok. Kembang ah nie. Kembang ah nie. Bt really. I think my German vocab grew abit. I only knew like two to three words last time. Haha. WEEE DUUUU

Es wird gesagt und getan
4:27 PM

Nutin much happened today. Just stayed at home. Eat, sleep abit just now and ~~studied~~ for Chem abit. ~~Kinda~~ nervous bout exams. Ok. Not kinda but VERY nervous. My heart's pounding like crazy and it's just plain crzy lah. I can't stop thinking if I'm gonna do well for this exam... What if I don't sia?? I'm like sooo gonna let Bill and Tom down... Haiz. Must really study... Must Must MUST!!!!

Haha. Kk. And I still love my blog like crazy!! WEEEE DUUU!!! Haha. Dunno wad to write oredi lah...

I think I'm gonna re-write the story for The Letter Says Don't Jump. It's been one month since I've updated it though. And I have this wonderful idea. Haha. Kk. I think that's all I'm gonna write for now. Gona see whether I can find links and put them on my blog :)

Es wird gesagt und getan
2:52 PM

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Haha. Finally!! I can freaking watch youtube!! WEEE DUUUU!!! Haha. And I'm so happy that I can watch the funny quotes video again!! Haha. I'll put it here. :)

And Bill was kiddin wen he made that speech. He is NOT ~~gay~~ and he DIDN'T suufer from anorexia and he din ALMOST ~~die~~ from fucking aneroxia. He was just being really sarcastic about the whole speech. Those are just rumours. Haha. So I guessed Tom DIDN'T fucked 25 girls or did he...??

Haha. Kk. I think that's all. My hand feels better and I can play my guiat and lift my hand up with ease.
Monday is MT paper. AU MEIN GOD!!! So fast!! Haha. Must be mentally prepared. Haha. Then got Chem on tues along with Eng. Tomorrow MUST study for CHEM!! Must Must MUST!! WEEEE DUUU!!!

And the song works!!! Weeeee!!!

And I'll show you this. I swear that it looks like it's being fast forward!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
1:06 PM

WEEE DUUUU!!! You like my new blogskin?? Haha. Actually right, this is suppose to be a skin that is made for Quizilla homepage tapi entah macam mane entah aku boleh buat sampai blogskin aku. Haha. And it took me fucking three hours!! The colours are crzy but I really loved it so I'm gonna stick to this!! Gail rite??

WEEE DUUU!! Oh ya. Can you hear the music being played automatically when you go my blog?? Answer me ok coz the song like soooo nice and it's jus SOOOO nice. The Japanese version of Durch Den Monsun. WEE DUU!!

So today ok lh. I'm happy. Coz one, I got the red book that I've been eyeing. Second, I got second highest for Bio Enzymes test and for CA1 overall I got highest along with Kenneth and Wayne! WEEE DUUU! I'm soo happy. Hehe. I got ~~kembang~~ ~~abit~~ alot. Haha. I mean who wouln't??

Kk. I think that's all I wanna write about. I'm kinda tired. My arms till hurts. My eyes are sore from doing the skin. Haha. Nacht. :)

Es wird gesagt und getan
12:09 AM

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Haha. Teik. Why would you think I'm leaving the band?? I mean yes... It's kinda Dead and is Dead in my POV but I wouldn't want to leave it. It'll be nice to make a band with you and Cal and Ken even it's like not a serious band. Haha.

Haha. My body like soooooo sore!! Coz yesterday we kana punish coz we late for PE. 15 push ups. WEEE DUUUU!!! HAha. Then went to Orchard with Diana and bought the TH cd!! And we went home toking about taik coming out of the nose. Haha. Lots of crap lah! Haha. Dunno wad to write!! WEEEE DUUUUU!!!!!

I found this one-shot story and it's funny!! I'll post it up!! You'll laugh one! I did and I fell of my chair! WEEEE DUUUU!!!

My body flowed to the music that was coming out of the speakers that hung over all the body's that were grinding against whoever was near.

Steam.Sweat.Lust.

With each hand that groped my body,with each female body that moved against mine, Lust filled me more and more.

Of course every young lady here knew who I was and what I was doing here,but that just made them move against me more. Which I didn't mine at all.

I've lost count of how many girls I've been dancing with. It didn't matter anyways, they were all the same. 'Omg your Tom from Tokio Hotel','wow i love you!'

Sweat was pouring from my body, most people not being able to tell because of my baggy clothes.

Looking down to see what girl I was dancing with I found a mass of black hair.One hand around her waist and the other holding my bottle.

"Hi" I whisper into her ear. Only to get a giggle back.

"Was your name?"

"If I told you....I will have to kill you." She giggles.

I laugh,tightening my hand on her thin body.Taking in her scent.My eyes closed as i felt her thin soft hand slide into my pants.A moan coming from my lips and a giggle coming from hers.

Biting down on her neck a gasp escapes from her as she turns around.......BILL!

A hit pitch scream from my mouth as I grab his hand and yanking it from my pants.

"You didn't have to scream."

Haha. Tom tot it was a girl but it was BILL!! Haha. FANIII!!! Hehehe. I can imagine the scene. Hehe.

Haiz. Kecian Abg OMar. Kene chixken pox. Haha. Have fun with your classical music aite :) Be prepared to have drandruff soon :) WEEE DUUUU!!! Haha. Kk. Nacht ppl :)

Es wird gesagt und getan
9:05 PM

Monday, April 21, 2008

Haha. Gonna put that vid for all of my future blogs!! Why? So that if I'm sad or moody, I'll watch and laugh my ass off!!! SOOOO CUTE!!! Gail!!! Ich wie!!

FANIAH!!!! U dun noe I got 2 bros?? Haha. Fani ah you! Tats why Syafiqah LOVES you!!! Haha.

Din go to school today. Went to poly and got my ear checked out and made appointment at NUH. Bt the date they giv em was 28 April, 10.40am. WTF?? Exam sia!! Haha. Bt i changing it to either Weds or Thurs, depends on my dad's decision. If everything goes well, let's hope that I get it cut by this Fri and can go take exam on Monday!! WEEEE DUUUUU!!!

I'm think about goin to Orchard tomorrow and buying the Th Zimmer 483 live. yay!! WEEEE DUUU!!! Haiz....

You know, this morniing, when I woke up. I got this thought. It's NOT dirty. It's just that, what does it feel like to wake up every morning to see Bill sleeping soundly beside you? I mean.
His messy bed hair on the pillow. His flawless skin. His eyes closed, complimenting his percing on his eyebrow. What about his calm breathing? Haha. Tat's all ok. No extra thing like *ahem* *ahem*. That's like DISGUSTING!!! Sure I love Bill but that doesn't mean I wanna fuck him.

Haha. Kk. Dunno wad to write oredi. Haha. Cya at school tomorrow ppl!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
5:09 PM

Sunday, April 20, 2008

I'm fucking pissed. Pissed pissed pissed pissed.

First, my brothers don't understand the meaning of "I fucking need to spent time with myself with my guitar and my computer without you losers interrupting with what I do by playin the stupid idiotic x-box."

Second, there's something stupid going on with with my fucking computer. Must be the stupid virus who always refuses to leave my computer regardless of what I do. Stupid fucking virus. YOU make my life MISERABLE.

WHY THE HELL CAN'T I FUCKING WATCH A STUPID VIDEO AT STUPID YOUTUBE???!?!?! I JUST LIKE WATCH ONE LIKE YESTERDAY SO WAD IS YOU FUCKING PROBLEM?!?!?! URRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

I hate this computer. Stupid virus. Stupid brothers and stpid whatever!!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
11:30 AM

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Ive never felt this way before... Its soooo weird... This feeling wouldn't go away and its engulfing me in its trap... Wait. I'm already trapped in in... Ive never felt this way before. The feeling has been strong and it still is. The only guy to make my heart beat so strong. Sighs... Bt he's an illusion... He has always been an illusion...

Nutin much happened only that I bought my guitar pedal. FINALLY! But the prob is I tried on my ARIA amp and it sounds disgustig. Haven tried it on my PENVEY amp. Still need time to get use to the guitar pedal though. Abit complicated. Haha.

Haiz... Ok. I decided to combine forces with Mikey to make a band. Me, guitarist and she, bassist. Now we just need a drummer and singer. The singer can wait but the drummer... WE NEED IT BADLY! Why did I choose to make another band with her? Well, the band at school seems dead and really dead and I take it as DEAD. Dead dead over the dead dead. And Really dead. Dead. Do I still need to emphasise on how DEAD it is?? Nein. I don't think so coz... IT's FREAKING DEAD!!!

Sigh. Haha. Ok. Haha. Yay! Me and Mikey have a band! I wonder if she minds playing alot of Tokio Hotel songs? Coz the most song I know how to play is Tokio Hotel's song. Hehe. WE NEED A FREAKIN DRUMMER!!!! HAHA.

Kk. Im crazy... WEEEE DUUUUU! (yes. I still am crazy bout that phrase! WEEEE DUUUUU!!!!)

Haiz. Tinking bout updating my story...

Which I never updated for a nong nong time...

But the thing is... I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT!!! WEEE DUUUUU!!!

Haiz... Thing just beeter search for blogskins... WEEE DUUUU!!!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
8:44 PM

Friday, April 18, 2008

Haha. Got Durch Den Monsun sang in Japanese. Bill sang in Japanese!!! GAILLLL!!! Haha. I'll put it at the end.

Nutin much happened today bt I tick Teik Wei off today and I feel back. I'm not sure if I hurt him or agitated him bt if I did, I'm sooo fucking soorrryyy!!! WEEEEDUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!

Haha. Dunno wad to write oredi lh!!! See Bill sooo excited oredi!!! Especially the Japanese version!!! WEEEE DUUUU WEEE DUUU WEEE DUUUU!!!!!

Here it is...!!! WEEEE DUUUUU!!!

N Seeb playin HELENA!!!! Au Mein God!!! WEEEE DUUUU!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
4:50 PM

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Haha. Sorry ppl if I nvr link you. Haha. Malas kadang2. Haha. Bt feel bad coz ppl like Mardiah read my blog then I link them bt MardiaH!! I link you oredi aite! :)

Haha. One day, I must really sit in front of this screen and betulkn my blog!! Haha. WEEE DUUUUU!!!

Spent $4.20 on myself just now... using my savings summore... *sob* *sob* WEEEE DUUUU!!!!
Bt when I think of it, it's worth it lh. WEEEE DUUUU! Like a treat to all my hard work this one whole month! Dankeshen Bill und Tom! Ich liebe you guys! WEEE DUUUUU!

Haha. WEEEEEE DUUUU!!! Haha. I love that sentence!! Bill sang it when he sang this cursing song in German. Sumtin like "Girl I want your fucking ass to fuck with. This is my dick blah blah blah". Haha. WEEE DUUU!!!

N my band is reviving!!! WEEEE DUUUUU!! Haha.

Kk. Dunno what to write lh!! WEEE DUUU!!! AHHHH!!!! Put vids of Tokio Hotel's Zimmer 483 tour!!! WEEE DUUUUU!!!

P.s Mardiah! The cute, handsome, big hair, talented, beutiful voice, flawless face, wonderful smile and the list goes on... Singer is the guy called BILL!!! WEEEE DUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!

N Kak Nat! This is for you! Let's pray so hard that we meet them aite! Haha. Go Tom and You!!!

An Deiner Seite (Ich Bin Da) - By Your Side

I love this song!!! WEEE DUU!!!

Rette Mich - Rescue Me

I love love love love this song like crazy!!! Tom play sooo good!! N Bill!! WOOOW GAIL!!! The song so meaningful ah... *cries* It's talking about how you feel when you see that relationship of yours crumbles in front of your eyes... Sad rite?

In Die Nacht - In The Night

Another lovely song! It's talking about the bond that Bill and Tom has as twins and that they would be together forever. Even if one goes into the dark, the other will follow. SWEET! I like it when Bill everytime kicks Tom when Tom doesn't look at Bill. Haha. Typical twins.

Totgeliebt - Love Is Dead

Haha. Talking about how it feels when the love between two souls fades and dies. Still trying to get this song right on my guitar though... IT'S SOOO FREAKING HARD!!!

Heilig - Sacred

Hehe. THEY CARE BOUT THE FANS!!!! WEEE DUUUU!!! So gail... Haiz...

Leb die Sekunde - Live The Second

This song keeps me up. It tells me to never give up and enjoy every sweet and bitterness of life as you only get to live this life ONCE. I hope you guys live every secong of your life too!

Vergessene Kinder - Forgotten Children

One of the 2 saddest songs from this band. It talks about the children that silently suffers inside and that their world is crashing but the think is... We're no different from them. We see. We feel. Just like they do. We're laughing. We're crying. Wanna live somewhere that's like a dream with no pain. I always get this weird feeling when I listen to this song. It's true.

Schrei - Scream

We as teens do not like to be told what to do. We hate pretending to be someone we're not. We hate keeping quiet. We hate doing something that we don't like. Then Scream as loud as you can!!!!

Ich Bin Nicht Ich - I Am Not Me

When you're not by my side, my world turns dark. It doesn't feel right. I am not me when you are not here. Then I'm alone. MY FAV SONG TO PLAY!! WEEEE DUUUUU!!!

Stich ins Glück - Stab Into Happiness

To tell you the truth. This is the ONLY Tokio Hotel sog which I have no idea what it is talking about... Hehe. But I know about the hope of a girl that dies and she's taking a step into death.

Wir sterben niemals aus - We Will Never Die Out

About not thinking that it's the end because there's way too much love for music. Way too many limits unconquered. So many thoughts and words not finished. We're gonna ride to the eternity. :)

Wo sind eure Hände - Where Are Your Hands

Bout sticking together. No matter what happens, we must raise our hands together.

Spring Nicht - Don't Jump

Another one of the sad songs that captures my heart. Never give up and never ever turn to death because once you get trap in death. It's not you who suffer but your loves ones...

Intro & Übers Ende der Welt - Over the End of the World

The freaking intro!! Hear Tom's SOLO even though it's little!!! I MELTED WHEN HEARING IT!!! WEEE DUUUU!!!!

Haha. I guess that's it. Still got some vids but then I tired ah looking at the screen... Haha. WEEEE DUUUU N GUTEN NACHT!!!!!!!!!!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
8:19 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

What telah happened? Haha. 20.90. Ok. Haha. Spent $1 at school today. Should do that most of the time. Haha. Kk. I can't wait to strike off some things from the list, especially the Epiphone Les Paul Custom Ebony Gold. I want that sooo DAMN much!!! Haha.

Kk. Today I vry happy coz Mr Tan just told our Maths grade for... CA1? I think. That should be it. At first I see then my eyes like shit like that then I saw that my grades were F9 and I was like "What the hell...". I was SOOOOO dissapointed sia!! Haha. Bt turns out I read the wrong grade. Mine was..... A1!!!! Haha. GAIL!!! WEEEE!!!! My hardword and dedication paid off!!! WEEE! Danke Bill und Tom for being my inspiration to study hard for my maths and some other subjects!!! DANKE DANKE DANKE DANKE!!! WEEEE!!!

Haha. Dunno wad to say oredi lh... Oh ya! Teik say want to go jam. Then I happy coz this means that the conclusion that was in my mind was wrong!!! They do care!! Haha. What was I thinking??? Haha. Kk. Glad that's over!! WEEEEE!!!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
5:04 PM

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Haha. Okok. 21.90. Bt that includes the pocket money for tomorrow. Haha.

Actually, to tell you the truth, I was actually very moody just now. Lots of stuff was going through my mind but it changed with a blink of an eye. It's wonderful how one person could totally turn that frown upside down. Hehe. I'm smiling widely while all of this you know.

Gosh... Bill is recovering and it's amazing. He HUMMED his first tune already and it's just heaven to me. He's getting BETTER!! Haha. I'm just sooo happy! Haha. Even the troubles that I went thorugh just now was completely demolished from my thoughts and my heart just by knowing that he's getting better y the minute! :) Haha. I can't wait to see him performed 3rd May later. His first concert ever since the surgery. :D

Haha. I dunno what to write oredi bt there's one thing I'm gonna write. I'm NOT giving up on the band. I never did (ok. Almost did bt didn't) and I never will. Bt now, I'm just gonna do nothing and see what happens coz I seriously dunno whats going on and even if I know what's going on, I don't fucking know what to do. Haha. Kk. Dun ruin the happy mood! WEEEE!!

ICH LIEBE BILL FUR IMMER DURCH DEN UNENDLICHKEIT!!!

I'll be there for you Bill. I promise fur immer. I'll be by your side durch die unendlichkeit :)

Oh yes. Kak Nat. A vid for you. Seexth teach how to play Schrei!!! WEEE!!! I finally know how to play the intro!! Haha. I sooo happy! Here's the vid.

Es wird gesagt und getan
8:49 PM

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Read her blog and it totally slapped me in the face. It got me thinking like what the hell did I do? Maybe I should have just pulled out of the band in the first place and not even talked to Teik Wei bout what happened and everything would be fine. I'm sorry if what happened made your friendship with Teik Wei turned sour. Ya ya. Fine. If Teik Wei means so much to you then I'm not touching him. I swear. I'm just gonna treat him as a band-mate and a classmate. Not friends. I hope that makes you happy.

I was this close >___< in changing my mind and talking to you but I guess I don't want to ruin your future so i'm gonna stay away. Goodbye Suchi. I hope your life will be wonderful :)

Ya. That's what happen. Life sucks. I mean not really sucks. When it's good, it's really good but when it's bad, it turns as bad as cow shit... I hate dropping friends. I mean who doesn't? But... I don't know what to say... Gosh. My mood's ruin... I just sometimes feel that maybe my life ends here... It's soo frustrating... URGGGHHH!!

It was numb at first
But it felt like it got better
The tears grew lesser
The hatred slowly started to dissapear
The smile that was long gone slowly emerge frome the depth of waters
But it ends here..

Get out of my head!
Wash away with the sorrows
Get out of my head!
I thought that it was over
But I guess I was wrong coz now...
Everything ends here...

Darkness starts to sink in
The memories reveal
That I'm weaker by the second
I'm dying by the sound
Of your voice in my head...

I'm not believing
That the words were true
Because now
It ends here...

The bitterness of one's life
Could be written in words
So now
Let me write mine
With the blood of insanity
That's gushing out of my heart...

It ends here...

Es wird gesagt und getan
8:36 PM

Saturday, April 12, 2008

His first words were a soft but yet clear, "Ahhh..." Then, he started counting "One, two, three." slowly and steadily. Haha. I'm sooo happy for BILL!! He's ggeting well soon and currently at rehabilitation and they're gonna record their third album soon!! Weeee!! Get well soon BILL!!!

WTF?? Only save $0.20?? Haha. Actually saved $2.20 bt chipped in $2 for the black eyeliner and black eyeshadow mum bought for me. Nvm nvm. Starting monday mjst really perservere. Haiz... Actualli cn get the cd by today wan... Haiz... Nvm... Must bear the consequences. Haha. Kk. Nutin to tok about ah coz only TH is in my head... Hahaha. Kk.

I put vids... WEEEEE!!!!

First, ppl playing covers of Ich Bin Nicht Ich. It's really good!!!!

Ich Bin Nicht Ich by K940309

Seebxth took out his cover!!! NEINN!!!! SHEISSE!!!!!! Nvm nvm. Put other covers of him :)

No One Knows (Seeb's Band) playing Monsoon

P.s The singer kinda sucks but the rest is cooL!!!!

Now.... For Kak Nat!!! WEEE!!! TOKIO HOTEL FUNNY VIDS!!!!

Funny Vids, Sounds Episode 1 XD

Funny Vids, Sounds Episode 2 XD

Funny Vids, Sounds Episode 3 XD

Look at Gustav towards the end!

Funny Vids, Sounds Episode 4 XD

Bill Said 'FUCK'! OMG! XD

Haha. I think that's all I wanna post haha!! I LAUGHED LIKE SHEISSE SIA!!!! Haha. Ich liebe TOKIO HOTEL!!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
6:01 PM

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Haha. $14. At least that's ok. Haha. I'm gonna stop sayin WTF?? when I reach $50. haha.

BILL!! YOU FINALLY CAN TALK AND LAUGH LIKE YOU WANT TO AGAIN!!! YAY!! Gd luck n rehabilitation! I'll be praying for you! Can't wait to see you laugh, talk, smile and sing again! Ich liebe dich fur immer!! :))

Kk. So today tried a stunt on my bladders. I "merajuk" but I was still angry though but only like 0.01% only. Haha. It was classic lh. They really thought I was like mad at them when I'm actually not. Haha.

Haiz... Been coughin for the past few days. It got worse today and I had headache and I was like practically trying to hold back all the pain. Wanted to go choir badly but I couldn't. I was on the verge of passing out so I went home instead. Sorry SHUN YU!!! Got home and laid on my bed before drifting to a 1/2 sleep before waking up to my stupid brother's voice... URRGGGH.

Haiz... Tomorrow AAC. End sooo late summore!!! Aiyo! Hope I don't lose my voice for tomorrow. My voice now serak2 seh... haha

I wanna go sleep lh... Wait. hwmrk finish or not?? Um. Malay, yes. Chem, yes. Maths, no. Don't bother to do maths. Couldn't understand a shit of what Mr. Tan teach today. Shit you stupid headache. You made me miss one whole hour of maths!! And I'm happy!! Coz my maths ah like first time get soo high!!! Haha!! Weee!!! One 10/13 and the other one 22/30!!! Yaya!!!! Tank you Bill und Tom fur being my motivation to do my hmwrk and test properly!!

But really. They really helped me. I don't slack like I do last year sia and I'm actually understandin Maths and Phy. Cool huh? I'm startin to love them too!! :) It's just Malay that I'm sick of now. Always got hmwrk and not little but ALOT!!!! I see Malay homework, I feel like pukin. Even just now when I finished my malay hmwrk... I was like forcing myself... Do Syafiqah! Do! Think of Bill! Think of Tom! Think of NAFA! Think of studying in Germany and getting to meet Tokio Hotel there! Apparently it work so YAY!! Haha

Kk. I wanna sleep. SOOO TIRED!!! NEVER been this tired before... This is like worse than 2.4 ah!! Sigh... Kk. Nacht ppl!

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9:13 PM

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Gosh!! Still $12.90!! Why must I used the $2 to buy that stupid char kway?? Even though it's nice... ok... A bit not nice... Haha. But really!! Why?? Tats it! Tomorrow must really start!!! If I keep going on like this, I wouldn't get wad I want!! Urggg!!

Oh ya! N i'm like super happy coz u know I post my story at quizilla and alot of ppl read it and got this user send me this email:

I'm not sure if you know this, but your story pretty much rules.
:)
no joke.

it's one of the most original bill stories i've seen in a long time.
Keep up the good work.

Twiggzies

*blush**blush* Haha. I'm really happy! Haha. Haiz. I'm updating today for that quizilla story but I think I'm also updating the Letter story. Haha. Kk.

Today nutin much happened. I was like a bomb tat could errupt any time and I almost did when Wayne suddenly got agitated at me for no reason and my mood turned upside down. Really sorry if I tick at any one of you ppl today... Was really tired and today wasn't truly my day. I'm havin cough and there's this painful lump in my throat and I'm havin flu and I'm still sore from 2.4... So my apologies!!

Haha. Kk. Dunno wad to write oredi lh!!! Nacht!!!

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7:55 PM

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

OK. Changed my plans. Buy Zimmer 483 Live then buy guitar then Scream and all that. Haha. I love the guitar too much. N the Zimmer Cd important coz got all the songs that they play live so can use it as example on how the live song should be like. Haha. Dun noe lh. May change. Haha. But now this is what I want.

Then the money saved... Haiz... Must really perservere not to spend alot in school. At least $1 per day can. Haha.

Can't stop thinking about Bill today. Haha. Tomorrow is the last day of "Not Speaking for 10 Days" and on Thurs, he'll be starting his voice rehabilitation. Can't wait to hear him sing live again!! Get well soon Bil!! Ich Liebe Dich Fur Immer Fun Unendlichkeit!!!

Today got 2.4... N I FREAKING PASS THE THING!!! 17.30. Not bad lh. At least I improved. Haha. But feel like wanna retest coz I wanna get Silver and it's becoz of 2.4 that I cnt get Silver.... Sad but get Bronze oso ok ah :D

Haha! I want you sooo much Epiphone Les Paul Ebony!! I wanna buy you and play you till the day I get sooo good even my dad couldn't believe it!! Must get it by this year or the starting of next year!!! MUST MUST MUST!!!

Haha. Kk. Nacht ppl! See ya in school tomorrow.

Ps. Sori my dear friends (esp. Bladders) coz I haven been tagging or reading ur blogs. Been vry busy and everytime I sit in front of the com, I just wanna finish everything quickly and go to sleep so reaaaaallllyyyy sooorrrrryyy bout that...

N.... PRIYA!!!! FRANK!!!!! I MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!! CANT WAIT TO SEEE YOU THIS JULY!!!! WEEEEE!!!!

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7:15 PM

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Ok. What am I doing? Easy. This is my goals. Went out with Kak Nat just now to Bras Basah, Orchard and all that shit lh. Haha.

First we went to Bras Basah, go Swee Lee Company and three Epiphone Guitars caught my eyes. I'm sooo gonna save money to buy!! First the Ebony Gold, then the White and then the Black.

Then we went to eat then went to The Heeren and went HMV and saw the 3 Cds. We were like maniacs in the shop, squeling like mad when we saw their Cds and Dvd. Gosh. I can't wait to buy them!! :D

So, my strategi... Don't eat at school. Plz dun promt me to eat or make me hungry coz I dun wanna eat coz wanna save money. One week I get $20 so I'll be able to buy the Cds by the next 3 weeks :D. Then the Dvd.... Not too sure but slowly save to buy it and the guitar.

Aim: Buy the guitar by the end of this year or the starting of next year. :D

Vry high aims. I know but I must be persistent. Must not be weak. Must survive for my dreams and for the sake of Tokio Hotel. Every post, I'm gonna put that list up there. Haha. Crazy. I know but guess wad? I'm crazy!!!

Kk. So today was sooo fun ah! Haha. But the funny part is when we kept squeling in the HMV shop and like this security guard kept looking at us like we going to rob the TH Cd like that. Then we switch shoes. She wore my slippers while I wear her high heels and I have one thing to say and I'm sure it's gona sound sooo prasan luh... MY LEGS LOOK VRY NICE WHEN WEARING HIGH HEELS!!! Haha. Prasan rite? Haha. But the funny part is that my feet was sweatin badly when wearing the high heels. Then when I opened it, there's bubbles on the shoe. Haha. And it was wet with sweat and we laugh laugh laugh till Kak Nat SNORTED!!! haha. Tat was classic.

haha. Nutin much to type about. Actually I wanted to type alot but then wen I in front of the Com screen.. I DONT FREAKING NOE WAD TO FREAKIN TYPE!!! Haha. Kk. Nacht ppl!

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8:42 PM

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Haha. Yay! Bill survived his operation!! Haha. It was held last Sunday bt word got out just a few days ago!! So happy for him!! Tank god!!! Haha. Then he comment alot of funny stuff ah! He look like a gandma lh wearing the patients dress n the green thing over his head. haha. N im happy coz there're are sum ppl in singapore that likes Tokio Hotel. Haha. Aiya. Dunno wad to rite oredi. Im soooo happy for Bill. Haha. He's goin to voice rehabilitation soon. Nxt week if I'm not wrong to train his voice again. haha. Wish him all the best of luck. :) Ich Liebe Dich, Bill!!!

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11:04 AM

Friday, April 4, 2008

Nutin much happened today. My day was... Painful? My whole body was aching becoz of yesterdae's NAFA bt nvrtheless, it was great coz I GOT NO Es!!! Haha. I mostly got Cs and it's all thx to Mdm Fadhilah!! Ich liebe dich!! Haha. At choir, I was dying becoz my body was aching soooo badly.

Then just now, nutin much happened again. Body felt worse than yesterdae... Then we had choir interview for the Sec 3 to know who will take over the Sec 4s position. I wanted to be the vice-chair bt I know that my poor attendance will affect the Leaders choice of who becums wad. Haha.

N i finally touched my electric guitar, DumbiE!! After 1 week!!! Sad rite! One week nvr play! I was sooo busy and tired that I din have time for Dumbie but I had alot of time with Jumbie coz no need to plugg to amp mah. Haha. Bt playin with Jumbie definately made my fingers stronger. It doesn't hurt when I play bout 10 songs, one after another, without stopping. Sumtin like I imagine myself havin a concert and playin all that 10 songs in 1 1/2 hours. Haha. Fun!!! Haha. Only got now audience only. Must imagine! Hehe.

Aiya... Dunno wad to write oredi. I tink better go update a story or sumtin. haha. Nacht!

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8:16 PM

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Ignore the post before. Just a typical parent-child fight. Today I learnt sumtin. I learnt who to trust. I know tat this past few days was freaky and vry the bingung.

First, we finally told ms koh bout diana and obviously, diana isnt happy bout it. But she still got the marks in the end. WTF??

Second, I decided to stay in the band and turn my back on suchi. The band is my life. Lots of misunderstanding occured and I feel bad for letting my band down.

Thirdly, I wanna apologize to suchi for smsing was I smsed just now. Bt u have to understand, you're lying to me. You're polluting my mind. You're makin me think stuff that I shouldn't think of. First teik wei and now caleb. It's like you have a master plan at hand. I don't wan you to ruin things for me again. I noe it hurts but the truth hurts. I cnt trust you anymore. I really cnt. I'm sorry. N plz take care of yourself and watch your back.

Haiz... Dun noe wad to write. I'm just happy that my thoughts are cleared. I talked to teik just now and most of them are just misunderstandings. How could I be so dumb in thinking those stuff?? Haiz... I guess I'm just damn gulible mst of the times... Haiz... KK.

Nacht ppl. Prmise to update my Letter story for Kak Nat and Battery-sia. Really sorry for hangin it for a while now. I'm still brainstormin. I promise both of you that the next post, I'll post at least 3 long long long chapters aite :) Naht ppl!

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9:20 PM

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

I'm tired, I'm worn out. I come back form school late almost everyday and some days even strecth till after 7. And no one gives a damn. I'm pissed, I'm angry. I just want some sleep. Why couldn't they understand that I'm just FUCKING tired??

They scolded me alomost everyday, asking me why do I come back home late. I said school and it's true. It's alwasy school. I nvr go lepak and I mean NEVER. I always stay for a reason. Be it remedial, supplementary, choir, project or just school events, like today.

Then when I'm tired, they will say "Do ratib" and obviously, I'll be angry because my body needs rest. And if I don't, papa will be angry and all my family members will blame me. Sayin that I make papa angry. Wtf?

Like just now, papa wanted to do ratib and I din want to but I still go sembayang wif him then all of a sudden, he just turn and say, "no need do ratib. Go there." And my mum was giving glares.

Wad? They should be understanding and they're not.

They dun hav to wake up at 5 like me. They dun hav to come home late. They say like secondary school is easy. Guess wad? It isnt. Schools nowadays are not like last time. Especially the express. They tok big. Try asking them to take over my place ah. Think so easy. I hate them rite now...

Es wird gesagt und getan
9:04 PM