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Saturday, May 31, 2008

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"Tom Kaulitz, stand up this instant!"

A fourteen year old boy; with dreadlocks stood up lazily and stated, "Ja?"

"Don't ja me; do you not realize that you are failing math with a nineteen percent?"

Nobody laughed; well one girl did, his enemy, his rival. Her laugh was loud and rude.

"You need a tutor!" His teacher finally stated.

The same girl laughed even louder; she loved when the womanizer got into trouble.

"Ah, and I know just the right person for it who is sitting in this very room," His teacher continued; "Bethann you will tutor Mr Kaulitz everyday after school four days a week."

Bethann stood up from her seat; "Why should I waste my time tutoring a dumbass."

"I'd rather fail then have that stuck up smartass," Tom glared at her, "Tutor me."

"Would you two like detention after school today?" Their teacher threatened glaring over his glasses.

"No!" They stated in unison.

"Excellent, then you will do as I say; or else you will wish you never took my class." Their teacher stated with finality.

Once the bell rang Bethann quickly walked out of the classroom cursing under her breath. She met up with her friends in the cafeteria and started mumbling and whining about how unfair life is.

"Bethann; what exactly is wrong with Tom?" Her friend Hailey stated as she took a bite out of her sandwich.

Bethann and her other two friends stared at Hailey as if she grew three heads.

"You haven't known Tom for long, like me and Ritienne have." Bethann finally mumbled after two minutes of silence; well there was the faint sound of chewing.

"Exactly, trust me ten years of knowing that idiot will drive you up the wall." Ritienne added, with a nod.

"He's kind of hot," Hailey weakly stated.

"I agree with you there," Ana mumbled softly.

"Our friends have fallen," Bethann began.

"For the Tom Curse." Ritienne stated finishing off her best friend's sentence.

"We did not," Ana and Hailey stated in unison.

Bethann laughed and then glared when she saw Tom walk into the cafeteria as if he owned the place; a few moment's later his twin brother Bill walked in.

"I'd rather tutor Bill," Bethann sighed before grabbing her stuff from the floor.

"I'd tutor him too, if I was any good at math!" Ritienne exclaimed getting funny looks from other people.

***

The next day after school Bethann was sitting at a table in the school library; she was waiting for Tom, unwillingly. Her teacher threatened to drop her mark if she didn't tutor the stupid Tom.

When she saw Tom walk up to her she groaned; she had hoped that Tom would skip. When he sat down in
front of her he gave her a glare.

"What did I do to you?" Bethann questioned.

"You just had to be smart in stupid math," Tom spat.

"Hey, math is not stupid, you are."

"Ah shut up, and do my work for me." Tom stated throwing her his notebook.

"Excuse me." Bethann growled, "I'm not your slave Kaulitz."

"Do you want to be?" Tom asked with a smirk.

Bethann clenched and unclenched her fists under the table; she wanted to punch the smirk right off his face.

"I'm not going to do your work for you," Bethann stated as she tried her best to keep her control, "Plus the teacher would know that I did your work for you."

"You're such a goody-goody. " Tom sighed as he reached and grabbed his notebook back.

"Oh stop complaining," Bethann finally muttered, "If you don't want help then why the fuck did you come here?"

***

"Miss Bethann, could you help me tie my shoes?" A little girl of four stated as she hopped on one foot.

"Sure, Sammie." Bethann replied as she bent down to tie the girl's shoes.

"Excuse me, but is this Mrs Terrance's class?"

Bethann stood up and turned around to gasp; there stood Tom Kaulitz holding a little girl's hand.

Tom must have noticed Bethann to because he stated, "What are you doing here?"

"I could ask you the same thing," Bethann replied, "Seems to me the famous Tom Kaulitz is a father."

"I am not a father," Tom stated in shock, as he looked at Bethann in shock.

"Sure, I've heard about your one-night stands," Bethann stated as she walked up to them.

"Some one got stupid after four years," Tom smirked, "I would have had to be fourteen when Kasterina was born."

"I'm not stupid; I know about your pathetic doing all girl's in elementary motto." Bethann snarled; how dare he call her stupid?

"Uncle Tom what is she talking about?" Kasterina stated as she pulled on Tom's hand.

"Uncle?" Bethann muttered confused.

"She's Bill's adoptive daughter; he adopted her two years ago." Tom stated with a smile, "And don't talk dirty in front of children."

"Ah, shut up." Bethann muttered.

"Is there a problem?"

Bethann turned around and saw her host teacher before saying, "We have a new student, her name is Kasterina."

"Hello, Kasterina, would you like to join the other children in playtime?" Mrs Terrance questioned, smiling down at the four year old girl.

"Okay," Kasterina stated as she let go of Tom's hand and ran to the other children.

"Our day ends at 3:30, please make sure to pick up your child on time." Mrs Terrance stated.

Tom nodded before saying, "Alright. Thanks."

He turned to Bethann, gave her a smirk and left the room.

Bethann sighed and turned back to the children; she was almost eighteen and Tom had to barge back into her life after three long torturous months of tutoring him.

She knew all about Tom and Tokio Hotel, she wasn't stupid; she hated the fact that Tom got what he wanted, he always used to brag about becoming famous. Bethann never believed him, until she saw his face on posters and in magazines just one year later.

"Life is so unfair," Bethann mumbled to herself before she walked over to a pair of fighting boys.

***

Over the next three days Bethann started organizing the children's work for the yearly annual Writing Fest; she was surprised that they forced little children to write sentences just for show.

"Bethann could you please take these pieces to the gym so they can start sticking them up?" Mrs Terrance stated as she walked over to Bethann holding a handful of large colourful construction flowers with the flower poem written on it by the children.

"Sure." Bethann stated as she took the flowers from the teacher, "I hope I don't fall," Bethann muttered to herself before exiting the room.

A few weeks ago Bethann had tripped over the three small steps that they had through the hallway doors.
She was glad that no one saw her fall. She pushed the doors open and started walking down the staircase to get to the gym.

After going down three steps she felt her foot slip from underneath her, "Oh shit."

Instead of tumbling down the stairs she crashed into a body. She looked up to see Tom smirking at her.

"You almost died over there," Tom stated as he tried not to laugh.

"Shut up, your presence cursed me." Bethann mumbled; she felt awkward in Tom's arms.

"That hurts after I risked my life to rescue you from injuring yourself." Tom huffed as he let Bethann go; she fell on her ass at Tom's feet.

"Uncle Tom, that wasn't nice," Kasterina stated as she walked up the stairs to them, "Miss Bethann what are you doing with our flowers?"

"I'm taking them down to the gym, so they can be shown in the Writing Fest." Bethann replied as she stood up. She found herself close to him; a little too close for her comfort. She was surprised at how much taller he was than her. She immediately bent down and started to pick up the flowers that had fallen on the stairs.

"Uncle Tom, help her."

Tom sighed and also bent down to retrieve the fallen flowers; he didn't want to, but he had to set good examples for his niece. After two minutes both Tom and Bethann stood up; at the exact same time.

"OUCH!" Bethann exclaimed rubbing her forehead.

"Damn, you've got a hard forehead." Tom stated as he rubbed his head.

"Ja? And you've got a hard head." Bethann retorted.

Kasterina started to laugh Tom turned around and stared down at her and said, "What is so funny?"

"Y-you, and M-miss B-Bethann." She laughed.

"Thanks," The teens both stated sarcastically.

Instead of getting an answer all they got was more laughter from the young girl. Bethann shrugged and Tom bent down to Kasterina and lifted her up above his head. Bethann gasped, she was worried that Tom couldn't hold Kasterina's weight.

"Tom be careful!" Bethann stated.

"Of course I'm careful." Tom responded with a laugh, "I'm always careful."

Bethann breathed a sigh of relief when he placed the young girl on the landing. The bell rang and Bethann mumbled a curse.

Tom gave her a funny look and stated, "What?"

"Class just started and I still have to bring these down to the gym." Bethann groaned.

"Relax, Miss Goody-Goody, I'll take these down to the gym, you just take Kasterina to class." Tom stated as he grabbed the flowers out of Bethann's grasp.

After a minutes hesitation Bethann stated, "Fine, the gym is through the doors downstairs and once you turn to the right it's right there."

"Alright, I hope I can trust you will this lovely angel over here," Tom stated smiling lovingly down at the child.

"Uncle Tom, you are so funny," Kasterina stated with a laugh as she grabbed Bethann's hand.

Tom nodded and walked down the stairs to the gym while Bethann and Kasterina walked to their classroom.

***

The next morning Bethann woke up in a bad mood; she didn't sleep well at all that night. The main reason why is Tom Kaulitz. She for once in her life dreamed about the famous guitarist of Tokio Hotel; what scared
her the most was that she saw him in a different light.

"I must be going insane."

"Well if you're talking to yourself then I agree you are talking to yourself."

Bethann turned around and screamed like a girly girl.

"Dude, that was so not the Bethann I know." The person laughed.

"Ritienne, how are you?" Bethann stated with a smile as she went up to her friend and gave her a hug.

"Bethann, you know I hate hugs."

"I know, but I haven't seen you or talked to you in almost four fricken years."

"That's true."

"What are you doing here?"

"Well, you do know that your birthday is today, right?" Ritienne asked arching her left eyebrow.

"Oh shit, I almost forgot." Bethann laughed sheepishly.

"You're crazy, anyway, I got to go, so have fun with the children."

Bethann nodded but then stated, "Hey, how the hell do you know that I work with children?"

Ritienne coughed and stated, "You were sleep talking."

Bethann nodded, but she really didn't believe Ritienne. Once Ritienne left she got dressed and went to school a little happier now that she finally met up with Ritienne. Ritienne and Bethann went to different high schools, so they somehow lost contact; especially when Ritienne moved.

***

"Tom what the heck are you doing here?" Bethann stated when she saw Tom walked into the classroom during lunch. "You're not supposed to be here."

"I know, I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday, and to give you this." Tom stated as he tossed a badly wrapped gift.

Bethann caught the gift in surprise; how the hell did Tom know that it was her birthday? She never told him and he never knew.

"What's wrong?" Tom question with laugh as he saw Bethann's facial expression.

"How the fuck did you know that it is my birthday today?" Bethann stated once she found her voice.

Tom smirked when Bethann stated the word fuck. He sat down across from her at the small mini-table.

"Answer me or I'll throw this thing at you," she threatened as she pointed to the badly wrapped gift.

"First open the gift and I'll tell you." Tom stated like a stubborn child.

Bethann sighed and ripped open the gift she stared at the calculator in confusion; after a minute she looked back up at Tom who was smirking. "What the hell am I supposed to do with this?"

"It's something that helps a person with solving math equations," Tom replied, "It seemed that you needed it a few days ago.

"You're an asshole do you know that?" Bethann stated as she pushed the calculator aside.

"I know, you always made sure I knew that in elementary." Tom laughed.

Bethann gave him a small smile before stating, "So how did you know that it is my birthday today?"

"I asked Ritienne," Tom replied as if it was the most obvious answer in the world.

"Ritienne would never tell you or even say anything to you."

"That was four years ago, sweetie she and Bill are like best of friends, it's quite annoying actually." Tom replied with a roll of his eyes, "She treats Kasterina like her own daughter."

"How the hell did she get the courage to talk to Bill?"

"On the streets actually, something of Bill's fell out of his bag; he was shopping if I remember properly. She noticed this and ran up to him and stated, 'You dropped this.' At first Bill was afraid that it was one of his crazy fangirls; but he was relieved that it was only Ritienne." Tom paused and sucked in a huge breath of air.

"Bill was very happy that Ritienne returned his item because that was a gift for our mom, he decided to treat her as a reward; but they got caught by girls and let's just say that Ritienne turned into some monster of some sort. They became friends after that."

"Ritienne is not a monster she just hates girls like that, who act like they've never seen a man before in their
life. Anyway, thanks."

"For what?"

"For saving my sorry ass yesterday."

"It was my pleasure, you smelt good."

After Tom stated that everything got awkward. Bethann didn't know what to say so she continued doing
whatever she was doing before Tom entered the room.

Tom stood up and went over to grab a sheet of white paper; he grabbed a red marker and walked back to his seat, when he sat down he hit his knees with the underside of the table. "Fuck."

Bethann silently laughed at him and continued correcting the children's homework book. She agreed with Mrs Terrance about starting homework earlier so the children would be ready for the first grade.

Seven minutes later Tom stated, "Miss Former Tutor, I need your help."

Bethann looked up to him and gave him a weird look. Tom ignored her and handed her over the sheet of paper. When she looked at what was written on the paper she gasped. Tom hand written.

Tom & Bethann =

Bethann stared at the paper before slowly grabbing a permanent red marker from her blue pencil case. All the was going through her mind was: What should I do; what if this is a joke?

She uncapped her marker and wrote something; before sighing. She folded the paper up and stood up; she didn't say anything to Tom. All she did was walk out of the room close the door and slip the paper under the door.

She then walked away and went down to the steps where Tom had saved her life. After a few minutes she stated, "What the hell did I just do?"

"I'm not entirely sure; but thanks." Tom stated as he embraced her from behind.

This time Bethann loved the feeling of being in Tom's arms.

"What does this mean anyway?" Tom asked as he let go of Bethann. He opened the paper up and pointed to what she wrote.

Tom & Bethann = ~ <3

Bethann laughed and stated, "This is a math equation right? So I gave you the solution in math language."

"Ja. But, what does it mean in Tom language?" Tom whined.

"I've never heard of Tom language."

"Well now you have so tell me," He stated clasping his hands together, "Please?"

Bethann bit back a laugh and stated, "The arrow part symbol means less than; the number three is the number three, those two together make a heart. And the swirl symbol in front of the heart actually means approximately; but right now it means maybe."

"I understand the heart; but why maybe?" Tom pouted.

"I don't know if I can trust you." Bethann replied softly.

"Give me a chance to show you that you indeed can trust me." Tom replied.

"Maybe, just one."

"That's all I need."

"Fine."

"Thank you." Tom stated as he embraced his former math tutor.

Nice huh? I read this 3 days ago and it's been stuck in my head ever since. It'll be nice if something like that were to happen to me. Haha. Brangan je aku but really, this story is really touching. Haha. Written by my favourite Quizilla writer :)

Her stories are amazing, all her stories are. Her imagination is just sooooo wild and free and her ideas are different. So different that they're so original and just.... WOW.

If you were to read her stories, you can really imagine the scenes happening in your head. The way she describes the story plot is just amazing that even me myself couldn't think of such things. Haha. But I'm gonna peservere :)

Haha. Nutin much to write XD

Today... Wasn't really in the mood today. Malas to smile or talk even when meeting them just now, I'm just tired to smile at any one of them and that last smile was a forced one. Just not in the mood today... Haha. Then we go pasar malam and the Char Kway was nice :)

Haha. Kak Nat, congrats for finally getting ur gaji and now you got all your stuff. I'll lend you the Zimmer 483 Live Cd as soon as I meet you aite :)

To Baby and Cicak, I'm gonna miss you sooo much when you guys are in Sarawak. Jangan naughty2 eh. Cayang2 :) haha. kk. All the best aite :)

Haha. Kk. Dunno wad to write oredi. I think go write my story ah :) Nacht

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10:22 PM

Friday, May 30, 2008

Watch CONGKAK Haha. Fun sia. Bt a bit weird coz like I was laughing for about 98% of the movie and I only terperanjat at the part when the guy opened the door and the atok appeared behind the door. Haha. Fani sia. Then beside me is Irfaniah and her jacket screaming and on my right is three girls with their bags on their faces. Funny sia when they all laugh. U hear ppl scream and one girl laughing her heads off which is.... MEEEEE!!!Haha. I dunnno why bt Congkak not scary ah.

Then just now me and Irfan walking at Banquet and in my head I was like Janganlh jumpe sape2. Eddy ke. Skali kite nk gi mane entah, aku terserempak dengan die. Die ngan matahair die. Haha. Dh tinggi seh. Haha. Then the first words that came out of my mouth was Sial ah Haha. Din mean anything bad but I was abit shocked that I was actually thinking about not terserempaking with him there and there he was. haha. Gail

Kk. Dunno wad to write oredi. I think I go post the story. Kesian Kak Nat. Tertunggu tunggu story aku. Haha. Kk. I post the Bill and the Tom one ok :)))

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8:57 PM

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Gosh. So long nvr update. Wanna noe why? My com got virus tats why. haha. Long story.... Bt I'm glad I got rid of the viruses. I'm in love with the song "Emergency" by Paramore. I don't know why. It's very nice. Haha.

You know. Actually just now, I sat and think to myself for a while. Maybe if I had just made a band with Ramadhan, at least we'll make something out of it... Haiz... I regreted my choice last time... Nvrmind... Haiz... Den got still brangan sikit ah. Haha. I becum singer then he becum guitarist. Haha. Prasan banget ya aku. haha.

So just now I begged my Dad to send me to the electric guitar course at Bras Basah there then he was like "Haha. See first bt I think can alh but the only prob is the place very far then you got alot of activities." I kep saying no sia but he say he see first. Let's pray he let me. Hehe.

Ramadhan!!!! I wanna make band with you!!!!!!! Haha. Like he want like tat sia....

Kk. A vid from Paramore. WONDERFUL!!! WEE DUU!!!

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11:32 PM

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Made ammendments to my blog... Cnt stand the hatred... I mean yes, I've forgiven ppl, told them I can no longer be friends with them but I think I've been lying to myself all this while... I kept thinking that I'd dropped them because I thought that I wasn't good enough for them and that I'll make my life miserable but I think I know why I did that now... There's hatred scarred deep in me. Hatred that's so deep that it can never be erased. It never can and it never will... I think that's why. So instead of going through the pain everyday seeing the things that tapped into that hatred, I'd figured that I'll erase things that leads to the seinng the things. Haiz...

PTM on fri. I thought I got 97?? Haha. I got 94 lh. Ok lh. Then Ms Dianah found out from my Dad that I always have alot of things going on in my mind and she asked me wad wad wrong so I told her There's part of me that wants to do well for studies and get to NAFA. There's part of me that wants to do well for Choir. There's also a part of me that wants to achieve my dreams. She din asked any further but yeah, my dad's right when he said there's a million things that's going through my mind right now... I feel like my mum is lying on top of me and suffocating me to death... Haiz...

Alot of sighing ah?? Kk. The good news...

Tokio Hotel won 4 Comet Awards!!! Best Band, Best Video, Best Live Act and.... The Super Comet!!!! Wonderful right?? They actually got nominated for 3 but then they were shocked when they found out they were also in the running for Super Comet. Haha. Geil. And Bill's hair was straight and it was black bt no highlghts!!!!! Aiya... Where got handsome like that.... Haha. Kidin. Very handsome lh!!!

Then right before they got back to Oberhausen for the Comet Awards, Tom kana tahan at US airport coz drugs. The police thought he is trying to bring out drugs as he has those bad boy look with the dreadlocks. They search his bag but din found wad they though they will find. They found 20 baseball caps and.... A WHOLE BUNCH OF CONDOMS!! eeeee. Kak Nat. Eure Tom ah... So die disgusting... Unlike meine Bill. Haha.

Fani lh!! haha. Tokio Hotel ist der beste!!!! Haha.

Oh ya. Then now I want to thank a bunch of artistes for unreasonable things that are important to me.

Ist - My Chemical Romance

Thank you for getting me addicted to you. Thank you for teaching me that life wasn't just a boring road to heaven. Thank you for consouling me when I was still dwelling on my Grandma's death. And also thank you for getting me hooked on guitars and believing in music!!!

Gerard - Thank you for teaching me what love feels like. Thank you for being so cheerful and funny. Thank you for always making me believe that no matter what I do, if I just believe and don't give up, I will get them.

Frank & Ray - Thank you for getting me hooked on guitars and making me addicted in playing them. Thank you for teaching me my first song on guitar 'Demoliton Lovers'. I love you guys!!

2nd - Tokio Hotel

Thank you for getting me addicted to you also. Thank you for making me realise my dreams. Thank you for evrything. I also wanna thank you guys again because if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be good at guitars. MCR got me hooked and you guys evolved me into a better guitarist. I also learned a bit of German becoz of you. Haha. Dankeshen. And also thank you for helping me find wonderful friends that truly loves me as much as I love them. Especially my cuzin, Kak Nadira!!! I love you Nat!!!

Bill - Thank you for making me believe in love again after it was crushed into pieces. Thank you for instilling faith in me again that I'll achieve my dreams and make it big. Thank you for making me truly understand wad love is. Thank you for motivating me in my stuides. Thank you for EVRYTHING!!! I'm kinda speechless now...

Tom - Thank you for the wonderful riffs on wonderful songs!! I'd learnt alot from you!! Thank you for making me brave and to tell things straight to the point. I've never felt so brave and free all my life!! Now, I'm more confident in wad I want and I'll say it if I don't like something. Thank you for motivating me also in my studies! You proved that excellent results can be achieved and it doesn't depend on how the person's personality is and wad he looks like or wad he does. :)

3rd - Paramore

Thank you for making me brave enough to try your songs, which are difficult in my point of view. Thank you for making me feel happy everythime I listen to your wonderful songs. Who knows? Maybe one day, I'll get addicted to you guys next. :)

Hayley - Thank you for making me brave to sing again. Thank you for giving video tips on how to sing! I love your voice! And you write wonderful songs!!

Josh - Thank you for evolving my guitar skills again. From MCR to Tokio Hotel and now to Paramore songs. You play wonderfully! I learnt Emergency and My Heart and it's all becoz of you! I might be learning Miracle! next. Thank you!!

Ok... I guess that's it... So long sia my post today!!! Wonderful!!! haha. Haiz... haha. Now dunno wad to say....

I addicted to my PSP now sia coz I buy the game Sims 2 and Silent Hill The Origins and I can't stop playing them!!! I nvr play my guitar for 2 days sia. Better play today!! haha.. Kk. Wanna watch youtube and go to quizilla!! IMEEM SUX!!!! byez!!

Haha.

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12:17 PM

Friday, May 23, 2008

Haha. Im kinda happy since yesterday. Wanna know why?? Becoz.... I got 5th in class and I got 97th in the whole level!!!

WEEEE DUUUU! I'm sooo happy! Haha.I wanna say congrats to Wayne for getting 1st in class. Beatrice for getting 2nd. Hui Wen for getting 3rd. Someone whom I dun noe who for getting 4th in class. Haha. Then Irfaniah for getting 1st in class and 3rd in level! And Atikah, Faiziyyah and Syuhadah for doing well for their studies I dun noe their position sooo hehe. Haha.

I wanna tank Allah for giving me the strength to study and perservere. I wanna tank my Bladders for supporting me, being there for me and slapping me in the face to do well everytime u ppl tok bout ur studies which is very good... Like duh... Haha. I jealous u noe. I wanna tank Kak Nat for believing in me and always caring for me and tellin me to do well for my studies. I wanna tank my Parents for always scolding me for playing my guitar soooo much that I get mad and just study and for always treating me everytime I do well for my studies :). I wanna tank my Teachers for pushing me to do well and to always scold me everytime I don't do homework. Last but not least... I wanna tank Bill und Tom for motivating me after you got back ur exam results which is like soooo good ah. Like a 4.1 sia... Tats like wad? 8 points for O level ah. So I wanna tank you guys in every way possible becoz if it wasn't for you, I think I wouldn't make it this far with my studies. Haha.

Wad? It is the first time in many years I've gotten such a wonderful result sia... Haha. So I happy ah. Haha.

So yesterday had choir and we got to know the position. Haha. I'm the secretary, along with William and.... Izit Limin?? Haha. Cnt remeber but then Chean Pin cried like long time inside the toilet.

Chean Pin, I know how you're feeling. I know yesterday alot of crap tat wasnt understandable was cuming outta my mouth but wad I'm trying to say is I understand. I know wad it feels like to have someone close to you since GOD knows when suddenly throws you aside for new friends. It's just how you face it. It's either you hold on, hoping that she will change or you just let go. In my case, I'd let go because I find that it's not worth it to wait for someone that will only hurt you over and over again without that person giving a ~~fuck~~ about wads happening. So just take time to think about it ok. Dun stress to much. You'll find the right answers one day :)

Haha. Kk. My brother say he wanna learn drums and guess wad I say?? I said... GO FOR IT!!! THEN WE CAN MAKE BAND TOGETHER AND I DUN HAVE TO RELY SO MUCH ON TAT CALEB WHO HATES TO PLAY 16 BEAT SONGS WHICH LIKE SUX. HAHA. GO GO! bE AS GOOD AS GUSTAV AND WE MAKE A FAMOUS BAND!!! LIKE BILL AND TOM!!! And my parents was shocked when I said tat. Haha. Wad? It's cool. Haha. Kk. Later got PTM and I cant wait to see wad Ms Dianah says to my dad. haha. I nvr go skool summore today sia. Haha. Malas... Kk. Byez! :)

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12:17 PM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Went jamming with Nira and the rest yesterday. My dad offered to play for 2 hours. Cool huh? Oklh. We gt to play My Heart for a million times. Haha. Fun lh. Then Afifah recorded us play usin NIra's fone and it was cool to hear the playback back.

I think this band might work bt I still have doubts every time I look at my last post. I'm not taking it down. I told you. If you don't like the post, you can go complain to god. The last post wasn't an emotional burst post like most of the posts I had. Tat was really written by me, myself and I. Tat was my heart speaking.

Bt wadeva. Haiz... Duno wad to do oredi ah. Bt one warning. Play with my dreams and I'll don't care who you are to me. My friend, my bestfriend, my cuzin, my boyfriend (if I hav one), my classmate. I'll promise you tat I'll write things that'll make you hate me or find me unreasonable. I will write Fuck You on each of your faces if I have to.

Byez :)

Oh and watch this girl. I would love to have her in my band ah!!! She play like so good sia. Wish Caleb could play like this. It'll be easier to cover difficult songs... Haiz... Must be saba Syafiqah!!!! Must must must!!

Haiz. Better go learn how to play When You Look Me in The Eyes. Then can play with Nira. Haha. Kk. Byez! :)

Some time later...

Haha. Changed song. 1000 Oceans. The english version of 1000 Meeres. Haha. I love this song like mad. I always feel weird and feel tears in my eyes and I'm always smiling when this song is played. I guess this song just reminds me how much I'm in love with Bill.

Call me unreasonable or a dreamer but Bill is the guy that make me believe that Love will always be with you when you need it. Even when it hurts you in many ways possible, it'll be always the one to mend it. I don't care if he doesn't even know me because he makes me feel complete and I don't need him to know me for me to love him. Haha. If I ever meet him, the first words that I would say is Thank You, Bill. Haha. that's if I meet him. Kk. Here's why I loove the song sooo much.

Empty streets
I follow every breath into the night
The wind so cold, the sun is frozen
The world had lost its light

I carry your picture
Deep in me
Back to you
Over 1000 seas

Back to us
Don't you lose
Your trust and your belief
Just trust me

We have to go 1000 oceans wide
1000 dark years when time has died
1000 stars are passing by

We have to go 1000 oceans wide
1000 times against an endless tide
We'll be free to live our life

I know somewhere
We'll find a little place
For you and me
It all turned out a different way

Can't feel the pulse in our veins
So weak today, we'll let you heartbeat
Guide us through the dark
Just trust me

We have to go 1000 oceans wide
1000 dark years when time has died
1000 stars are passing by

We have to go 1000 oceans wide
1000 times against an endless tide
We'll be free to live our life

There's nothing and no one we'll miss
And one day we'll look back
With no regrets

1000 oceans wide
1000 endless years have died
1000 oceans wide
1000 stars are passing by
Passing by...

Please don't drift away from me...
Please don't drift away from me

We have to go 1000 oceans wide
1000 dark years when time has died
1000 stars are passing by

We have to go 1000 oceans wide
1000 times against an endless tide
Then we'll be free

Please don't drift away from me
Please don't drift away from me
1000 oceans wide...

WONDERFUL!!! Weeee DUUUU!!! I don't regret loving Tokio Hotel!!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
2:48 PM

Sunday, May 18, 2008

My ear pain!!! Ok not pain but it feels as if it's block like i'm in a cave like tat. Weird feeling sia. Just now ah, was praying and I yawned and snap! Got this sound and now my ear feels like shit. My dad say he got it before so he say just ignore bt then my mum say if tomorrow still not well then off to the doctor we go...

Haiz... So bored lh... Dunno wad to do this few days. Bt I think I have a crush on David Cooks from American Idol. His voice AMAZING!!!! Haha. I had goosebumps when I heard him sing lh!!! I'm glad he made it to the top 2!!! GOOOO DAVID!!!! THE ROCK VERSION NOT THE OTHER DAVID!!!!! Haha.

I think I'm gona start on 2 stories. Been thinking about the stories in the ~~toilet~~ for the past 1 month or so and I think I got some ideas from the book TWILIGHT and I can't wait to write it later.

You know, yesterday, I got angry at my dad coz he asked about my band and I just snapped lh. Then he say why I nvr make another band and I was like I'm sick lh. I made like wad? 2 bands and both crashed and burned to the ground. One wasn't serious enough and the other was just pushing all the work to me. I mean WTF? I feel betrayed that both bands played with wad I was chasing ah. Then when my dad asked summore I just plugged my ears and just ignored him and he got the message and stopped asking.

But really, I'm mad that both bands crashed and burned but I got over that. I'm just damn frustrated tat they make me feel tat chasing my dreams wasn't worth it. Tat's why I'm NOT making another band until I'm fully sure tat the band tat I'm about to make is going to break the industry. I mean, try be in my spot, you'll just feel like you got slapped in the face.

I cried because of this fucking issue and it sux thinking tat I might never be able to live my dream to be in a band and make history in the music industry. It just sux and I can continue with tis topic and dawn breaks and guess wad? I FUCKING WILL becoz now I'm fucking pissed.

You try ah having ppl crushing your dreams and they still can say Oh. It's my dream to be in a band. or Oh. It's my dream to make a band with you. I dun fucking care who the hell reads this. Whether you're Teik Wei or Caleb or Meril, for all I care becoz you ppl ruined my mood to make a band. Thx alot and I blame you ppl for wasting my time and hopes becoz guess wad? I've been hoping all this while tat mayb our band will make it you know. But I guess I was WRONG. Fucking WRONG.

You know, now I feel very selfish becoz now I'm thinking that I deserve a better band mate than you guys becoz I put my heart and soul into this but you guys? You think it's just play time. You push all the work to me. Can you help me find the tabs? My coms down. or Can you help me make a tab coz my hearing sux. or Can you help me do the tabs coz I can't find the tabs on Ultimate Guitar. or I don't know. You go ask them when wanna jam ah then you tell me. or I tired to jam ah. Besides, I go there oso do nothing.

Fine. Be tat way. I got one question though. If I can make my own tabs by watching ppl play, or listening to the song, why can't you? Isn't it obvious that YOU'RE taking advantage of me becoz you know that I'm serious bout tis band. I mean, giving excuses saying you're hearing sux or the com's down is just disgusting in my POV. If you're not interested then just say it to me from the start tat you dun wanna make a band becoz you're not interested. It's just easier tat way, rather than having me typing all this shit that will make you angry.

I dun care if you hate me for typin tis but try to be in my shoes. You'll hate it. So I'm not gona say sori for what I just typed unless I feel tat I should, which I dun. If you can be sad, cry, cut yourself or be EMO becoz your dreams were crushed, so I see no reason why I can't act like tat so if you read this and you dun tink it's true then go complain to god.

Ok... So I guess tats over. I think. Haha. So much for that. Now I lazy to type my story. Fuck lh. I tink I wanna go learn Emergency. Go vent my anger out. I watch tis guy play and I got it abit. See. If I can play a song by watching ppl play closely. Why cnt you bitches do the same fucking thing. Maybe go learn how to sing the song. Haha. Ok. I tink I'm being a bitch over here but wad do I care? Haha. Kk.

1 hour later...

FUCK YOU BITCHES!!! I just learned how to play 'Emergency"!!! WEEE DUUU!!!! N i fucking love it! See. If I cn watch ppl play and try to follow, then why can't you shits do the same?? Oh, I know why. Becoz you are pigs. That's why. Ruin my mood only. Bleh. Only Natalia understands me.

Haha. Just now cool sia. Natalia smsed me and I smsed back and she suddenly was like U ok or not? U dun sound ok? n I was like How you know then she was like The way you sms like tell me. Haha. Cool right? Like Bill and Tom like tat. No need to say I'm angry, she knows. Haha. Not like some ppl who dun even bother to give a shit about what I'm feeling. Go die you ppl. Haha. Natalia!! Ich liebe dich!! And Tom liebe dich!!! Haha. Kk. Nacht :)

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8:58 PM

Friday, May 16, 2008

Words I learn today

Alles = All
Allein = Alone I think
Aus = Us
Wir = We
Sonne = Sun

Haven been postin for a while. This week was bad. But not as in bad bacoz I fought or anythin. Just bad in a way that I was always tired when I wake up every morning, my body's in pain, I din get to sit in front of the com coz soooo tired, din get to play my guitar for 4 days Haha. Tis part is hillarious to me :), just some random things...

It's really a rough week for me. The roughest ever for Term 2 and it's after exam for heaven's sake!! Haha. But I'm happy because got back all the papers and I only failed 1 subject which is Maths Duh. It's like soooo expected. Haha. But I'm really happy for my History coz after I failed CA1 History, I promised myself that I'll do well for SA1 History and I did well! WEE DUU!

Kk. Haha. Been ~~abit~~ addicted with my PSP. Oklh. One day play about 30mins to 1 hour. Fun lh kire kn. Haha.

Then the guitar part. Haha. I din touch my guitar for like wad? 4 days? Then today I try play rite then like soooo KAKU seh.... But I got the hang of it and then played a 1 hour concert to my reflection in the mirror. Played about 5 songs over and over again. Haha. Weird. Then tried playing Schrei! on accoustic and it was HARD!!! Au Meinen God!! Like so long never touch the accoustic then like so hard sia the strings. haha.

Kk. Very tired oredi lh. Wanna sleep... See wad I mean?? I just want to sleep!! It's not like last time where I use to spend like 5 hours on the com like crazy but now I think of it... It's kinda dumb spending 5 hours on a com. Haha.

Kk. Goals... Wad I manage to achieve in Term 2... And wad I wana achieve in the days to come... Haha. BOASTING TIME!!!

Goals
~~To past at least 7 subs~~
~~Learn Schrei!~~
~~Learn Ich Brench Aus~~
~~Learn Leb Die Sekunde~~
~~Learn Ich Bin Nicht Ich~~
~~Buy PSP~~
~~Be happy~~
Learn Jung und nicht mehr Jugendfrei
Learn Wir Sterben Niemals Aus

Yes! Must learn tat songs up there and play them well! Must must must! Haha. Kk.

A vid of my fav guy in the planet besides Bill and Tom and Gustav ang Georg and Gerard Yes. I din forget bout him. He's my first love. and Frank which is.... SEEBXTH!!! Playin Jung und Nicht Mehr Jugendfrei!!

He play like sooo wonderful ah and I envy him for his skills and his freaking guitars!! GRRRRR!! Kk. Enjoy!

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9:17 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

Haiz... I have a few things to say... Firstly... E-LEARNIG DAY SUX ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU ONLY STARTED ON THE FREAKING ASSIGNMENTS AT 5+++!!!

Oh. Started at 5 coz went to NUH today and had my ear check and they already decided on a date which is 17 JUNE 2008. Kinda nervous coz I'm gona be asleep when they do the op. Instead I'll be wide awake and they only numb the area... Eeerie. Then finish at 4++ then went to Bukit Gombak and we check out some shops that sell PSP coz my 2 bros wanted them and in the end, I bought them. Din mean to boast but yay! Eh, must use own money ok and one of the games got prob so I'm goin back to the shop tomorrow, if there's no choir.

Haha. 17 JUNE. So long sia must wait... I wanted it to be next week... Haiz. Kk. Nacht ppl. :)

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9:11 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Not in the mood much today... Been coughing and its hurting my throat... Haiz. Absolutely no mood to do anything actualy. Even when playing the guitar just now... It was very... The boring I have to say... Haiz. At least my writtings has continued. Been writting a new series for Bill story. I wanted to make it long but judging that I have the ending and starting but no freaking contet, I'll just make it into a 5 chapters story. Haiz.... Soooo bored...

And tomorrow got check up... Haiz... Kk. Bye...

Enjoy this. At least it made me laugh abit today...

And is it me or Seeb is just getting suckier?? Kudos to the improvisation anyway...

Oh and to Meril. I guess this is the end for the both of us. We've changed and I'm just not like last time and so are you. We're just two completely different person now and we have our own journeys to embark on. Both journeys completely different and have nothing in common.

Thanks for all the wonderful memories but no new ones could be made. I just wanna say that we've grown and the way we think is no longer the same. We just don't click like Ying and Yang anymore. It's just akward when we're together now but we have to face it and I already did. We're just not destined to be bestfriends.

I can't call you bestfriend anymore and I hope that you would treat me the same way too. We're just friends or maybe just neighbours from now.

Call me a coward for not telling you this in your face but I guess this is the best way. I'm not going to say Sorry because I've done no wrong.

And as for the band. I know and both of us could see that it's going nowhere so there's not going to be a band anymore.

Goodbye and goodluck :)

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3:11 PM

Friday, May 9, 2008

Not feeling well now... Been having flu since Weds then on Thurs, after the bladders went home, I had a massive headache n flu and now... I'm ~~fucking~~ having flu, cough, a massive headache and a slight fever. I'm soooo happy that today no school sia. If not I tink I would have died in school...

Yesterday with the bladders was fun but I have one thing to say to Syu... I'm sooooo freaking sorry ok!!!!!! Haha. Please don't hate me!!! Sooooooo sooooo sooooo sooooo sooooo soooo soooo sorry!!!!!!!! I hope you forgive me Syu. But it was fun lh. Watch Mohabbatein (sp?) and we like crazy like that. Aku Ishika tau. Hehe. Then Atikah is Kiran and Fai is Megha and Irfan... She din say wad chracter she wanted so I guess she's Sanjana and Syu is.... MS MONICA!! Monica! Oh my darling!! They were like dancing like crazy ah and my parents was like laughing. I guess they finally know how crazy my friends are. Hehe.

Then we watch the ghost thing and that's when it started. I'M SOOOO SOOOORRRYYY SYU!!! Then we watch Scary Movie 4 instead and we laughed like shit and I don't know how but when I sent them home right, at the busstop, we started toking about Viagra and there were these two malay guys were like watching us weirdly. Haha. But I like coz get to spent time with my beloved BLADDERS!! I really wished we will stay together until the day we die sia!!

Bladders!!! Promise me we will be together!!!!???!!!

Haha. Kk. no mood to type oredi. My head is killing me.

I put a vid of Seeb playing Ich Bin Nicht Ich. His new cover but I like the old one better but he took that out so here you go :)

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5:10 PM

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Haha. I changed song again!!! I just like to listen to Beichte (Confessions) today. It's really cool!! Haha. Bill so cute and the meaning of the song is like so wonderful ah. I post it up and you ppl get to see why I love it soooo much!!!

It begins every morning
The clock rings at seven,
The alarm-clock and I
Are still lying
I’m always so late
and come second in sports
That’s why I write “Fuck you”
on every trophy…

I want you just for the night
and I feel good about it
It’s just too good to be true
And I ask myself
Will I come to heaven
acting like this…

Hey, devil come out
I have seen you
And I hope
that you’ll understand me
Hey, devil can you
hear my confession
and then talk
about it with God

I’m frankly honest
when I don’t need to be,
since my confession
the priest doesn’t like me anymore
I know it can’t go like that
but it was inescapable
And then I took
my brothers’ girlfriend

People believed my every lie
To be true
and in my empty promises
They believed
and I ask myself
will I come to heaven
acting like this…

Hey, devil come out
I have seen you
And I hope
that you’ll understand me
Hey, devil can you
hear my confession
and then talk with God
Hey, devil come out
I have seen you
And I hope
that you’ll understand me
Hey, devil can you
hear my confession
and then talk
about it with God

Please don’t be mean
Give me one more chance, maybe two
or let me be an angel
An angel in hell…

Scha la la la la
Scha la la la la
Scha la la la la
Scha la la la laaaaaaaaaaa

Hey, devil come out
I have seen you
And I hope
that you’ll understand me
Hey, devil can you
hear my confession
and then talk with God
Hey, devil come out
I have seen you
And I hope
that you’ll understand me
Hey, devil can you
hear my confession
and then talk
about it with God

And if you have no will
than let it be as it is
Think about it again

Cool huh?!?! Oh ya and yesterday Tokio Hotel was at TRL but I can't ~~fucking~~ watch it coz they don't air TRL on MTV anymore. ~~Sheisse~~. Haha. I love Beichte!!! So cool! Haha.

Haiz... Dunno wad to do sia. Just now was Chem & Phys papaer 1 and it was easier than expected BUT that doesn't mean it was easy. I'm sure I got the micro screwgage question wrong. Soooo ~~careless~~ are. Then I think the rest is ok lah. I was like sneezing and muscus was like threatening to run down from my nose. Haha. Luckily I had tissue or it'll be really messy!!

And tomorrow ~~Bio~~ paper 1. I doubt it's gona be easy since I'm no longer interested in Bio except for the Nutrition topic. Haha. But must be happy coz tomorrow the BLADDERS are coming to my house to watch movie!!

Haha. Later must go to CD shop coz my parents just got home so I can go out to that shop. Haha. Gail. Must rent... Om Shanti Om, The Nun, and Miss Congeniality. I doubt I spelt that correctly. Haha. Kk. Now want to go check Phys answers at asknlearn. Chao! WEEEE DUUUUUU!!!! Haha. I missed that phrase!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
3:22 PM

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Finally started counting again :)

Haha. Changed the song. Cool huh? I like the song sooooo much. It's called Wir Sterben Niemals. Talking about how much things in life that we want to try and we just don't want to leave this world yet and the passion for music :). My kind of passion :) Hehe. Haha. Maybe I'll put the live one instead but not now. Haha. Bt tis one nice coz it's the unplugged version. Haha. Okok. I changed it to the live version. Haha. I just found out that I'm a VERY undecisive person. Haha.

Today Bio papaer and I din give a ~~shit~~, ~~fuck~~ or whatever coz like my brain like totally dead lh. What cell here lah there lah.... Haiz. Tomorrow Chem & Phy paper 1. I hope it's like soo easy lh. Then on thurs is Bio paper 1. Again. I hope that it's damn easy lh.

Haha. Kk. Haiz. Dunno wad to do ah today... But I like playing Ich Brench Aus though. Gotten better at it.
Ah, kembang ah tu. Menyampah nenek nie.
Eh, my prob ah. Asal? Jealous izzit?
No. Why would I be jealous? I'm you you fughead.
And besides who wouldn't be happy if you just learn an extremely hard song played by the oh so wonderful Tokio Hotel??
You have a point there. :)
I'm glad you understand *blink* *blink* XD
Fuck you
Eeeee. I don't do things like that...
Yeah... But you wish you did... Right?
Eeeeewwww. Disgusting me. And I DON't think about "those" things
Haha. Like real like that. You thoug--
Be gone you crazy, disgusting, I don't know who you are crazy nenek!

As I was sayin, I played Ich Brench Aus like wad? 10 times in a row? Haha. It was fun ah!! Only the verse I haven learn yet. The rest all fun to play coz like very fast riffs. Haha. Okok. I'm boasting. I know. Haiz... I want to learn Wir Sterben Niemals next but got no time to look at the tabs or watch ppl play the covers.

Haha. I hate the tabs at Ultimate-guitar. They SUCK!!!! Haha. But I'm happy the way I'm learning songs rite now :))

Watch Tom play closely and watch good guitar covers on youtube. That worked for me :) Haha. I learnt like wad? Ich Bin Nicht, Schrei, Durch Den Monsun, Ich Brench Aus, In Die Nacht, Ubers Ende Der Welt, Rette Mich, Leb Die Sekunde, Spring Nicht and summore lh. Haha. I'm sure am boasting :)

Haha. At least I'm making effort and not just depending on that stupid website which doesn't even give good tabs lah. Even Seeb was right and he's the most wonderful guitar player I've seen playin coers of TH and MCR and Priestess. Cool huh?

Haha. Kk. Enough of boasting Syafiqah. Ppl are gonna think that you're very action leh. Haha. Kk. Bye ppl :)

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5:16 PM

Monday, May 5, 2008

Seriously, it's getting boring by the day and the weather sure is cruel. It's like sooo hot lh. Haiz. I think I know what I wanna write for my story oredi and I'm gona start working on it right away. Well... At least after I post all my Destiny Stories at Quizilla. Haha.

Today got Geog. Oklh. Not bad but not that easy. haha. Kk. Byez!

And this girl is called Anneliese. She was a German girl who was possesed and died when an exorcism was performed on her. The story "The Exorcism Of Emily Rose" was based on this true story. Here's the video of her pictures and a recording when the exorcism was performed.

But... Before that... HERE IS THOMAS, WOLFGANG, HAGEN UND.... BILL!!!!

And summore TH!!!

Ok... Now here it is... Enjoy

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3:53 PM

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Dun worri. I'm not a ticking bom anymore. I'm just gonna wait until they make their move. I'm gona do nutin. Save energy.

Very bored today. Very bored... Din bother to study Geog coz I left the textbook and workbook in the locker. ~~Smart~~ rite? Bt now I'm really not in the mood to study coz like all the hard papers are gone and the papers for tomorrow onwards are not so hard but still hard.

Haiz. Wad to do... Play guitar... Boring... Play com... Dunno wad to play... Write story... No mood to type... Then wad you wan to do? I dun noe... Haiz... Kk. Bye

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2:28 PM

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Just enjoy the funny vids! I'm not angry anymore! The vids is about wad the words sound like and it happened to me last wen I had no clue TH was a german band and was singing in german so I heard very weird "english" lyrics. haha.

Der Letzte Tag

Ich Bin Nicht Ich (preview)

Bill sounds cool. Big voice in small body and the youger version of this song played live is different from how they play it now. Now sounds better bt this rocks too :)

Rette Mich
The song I was reffering to was this and the some of the "english" lyrics were also tot by me when I listened to the song the first time. Malunye. Bt it's funny!!

hehe. Fani sia. My sadness all gone! Oh got another one!! Bill sooo cute!! Like angel like tat without makeup! Especially all his pics while wearing the orange jacket! Ich WIE!! Haha.

N ich liebe this one!! Especialli the middle finger one! Soooo cute!!!

Yes people. This is wad I do when I'm feeling down. Think of Bill and Tokio Hotel or watch some vids of them or just do anything that has to do with them and TADAAAAA!! I'm smilling and laughing! WEE DUUU!! Dankeshen Bill und Tom und Gustav und Georg!! You make my day always!

N The Black Parade Dvd is cumin out on the 24th of June!! WEDDDUU N it Angeline's bdae oso!! Weeeee!! Haha. KK. Wanna watch more Th vids or.. Go bath coz I stink and it's like 2.42pm rite now. Ok. I dun tink you ppl need to know that anyway... Hehe

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2:27 PM

Live with my blog people. I don't care if it's messy. I like the crazy colours n the messyness. If you hate my blog then just click the red-orange box with a cross inside at the top right hand corner of the screen and bye-bye! :) Isn't that just easy?

Not really in the mood today... Coz I finally figured out why my bands are not working out...

You know. For a band to work, you gotta have this common dream. This special dream that makes you determine in wad you do. I know wad I want and I'm sure a million of you know what I want. I'm not going to stop until I get it but right now I can't get it... You wanna know why? Because my bandmates do NOT share the same dream as I do. We have different goals. One wants to be a cardiologist, one a pilot and one wants to travel the world. It's hard for our band to work because this band is ~~not~~ wad you want. If this is want you guys want, it wouldn't be so hard to just play together. Trust me.

I'm serious and I'm not going to take this band thing so lightly because this might be the only chance for me to make my dream become a reality. Call me crazy. A bitch. An asshole. Whatever. I don't care. I want this badly.

Think about it. If this is not what you guys want, tell me. And I'll be on my way to meet my destiny. I'm sorry

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12:59 PM

Friday, May 2, 2008

Wanted to write about how bad my day was but just seeing Bill... The hatred's GONE!! Cool huh? Bt now I'm disgusted. I show you this vid where he's being interview. I have no idea what's he's saying but I LOVE his giggle between 2:05 to 2:07. That's cute!! Bt at the last part... I'm soooo sorry Bill!! I love you!! I really do but I really have to be honest with you! Please don't be angry! His dancing is.... erm hehehe. Vry the ermmm lh. Then he go touch his *ehem* *ehem* which is kinda disgusting for me. I mean you're performing in front of millions of ppl!! How could he have such the courage to do that?? haha.

I wanna make one think clear. I'm NOTlike those other girls who wish to ~~fuck~~ him or fantasises about his ~~butt~~ or ~~*ehem* *ehem*~~. I mean it's really disgusting. Really. I LOVE him but I DO NOT wish to ~~fuck~~ him. It's just sooooo WRONG!!! very very very wrong!! haha. Kk. Dunno wad to write oredi ah and the Maths paper todae...

LIKE FUCKING SHIT AH!!! IT'S LIKE SO FREAKING HARD THAT I ALMOST PEED IN MY PANTS WHEN THE TEACHER SAID "1 MORE MIN" AND WHEN SHE SAID THAT, I FINALLY KNEW HOW TO DO THE STUPID ALEVATION AND WAS SHIVERING LIKE MAD WHEN DOIN IT AND I'M SO STRESS THAT I DIN DO LIKE 2 QUES WHICH COST LIKE 20 MARKS AND THAT EVERYBODY SAY THAT THEY GOT 1 DEGREES FOR THE LAST ELEVATION QUESTION AND I'M THE STUPID FREAKING GIRL THAT GOT 37.7 SUMTING LIKE THAT!! STRESS SEH!! I'M LIKE SOOOOO GONNA FAIL THAT PAPER LIKE CRAZY!! I'M SOOOO SORRYYYYYY BILL AND TOM!! I'VE LET YOU DOWN SOOOO BADLY!!! pLZ FORGIVE ME!! URRRGGGGHHHH!!! ~~STUPID~~ MATHS PAPER!!! DU ARSHLOE!!! And I LOVE Bill Kaulitz :)

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5:01 PM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Wif my cuzins write now. Fani rite?? haha. Ok lame. Battery is looking at me with the poasitive and negative charge ends and naik-lift got jam inside her butt and Ceh-pul just playing Nitendo Ds with alot of "Cehs" cumin out of his mouth hole coz his ~~breast~~ just got exploded by a serpent and I really want to fart like a NUCLEAR bom rite now... I think if i fart rite, half-of the world population will die of the disease called Syafiqah's fart is sooo smelly, it smells like taik shit which killed almost half of the world's population and caused air pullution till all the serpents went crazy and go explode Ceh-pul's breast!! WEEE DUUUUU!!!

Kk. Crazy me. Duh.

Here's Bill!!

Cool rite!! His cheeks are chubby! Cute!!! haha. KK. Dunno wad to write oredi ah....

Haha. Better go fart summore so the other half of the world population is gona and more serpents will go crazy and attack Ceh-pul's new breast implants he got it coz his original one meletup!!! and it will explode summore!!!! WEWEEE DUUUUU!!!!

Go Ceh-pul's meletup breast!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!

Crazy crazy crazy crazy ~~crazy~~ Syapiqueh!!!

Es wird gesagt und getan
4:41 PM