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Friday, October 31, 2008

My day today is suckish. Really suckish like crazy. I'll post the photos as soon as possible... Haha. C my mood

I'm really bored...

Noone's keeping me company, which sucks because it sucks...

I watch the berry sumtin productions...

Still bored...

Watched Derrick Barry...

Still bored...

Watched people farting I even watch myself fart for heaven's sake...

Still bored...

Diana! Hw do u force fart!! I can't do it!!

Still bored...

Play guitar?

Tali putus.

Nk tulis?

Malas.

Nk update story?

Malas mcm org giler...

Haiz....

I think I'll just go bathe...

Malas ah...

Nein! Nein!

Haha. WEE DUU!!!

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5:44 PM

Monday, October 20, 2008

Hehe. Mr Pu ROCKS and not literally. He's gail man. He lets us go to blogs. I wish oders were like that. kk. Doin quiz, guten morgen :)

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9:02 AM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

2nd update of the day :) I love Diana :) EngliPISS!! WOOHOO!!

Chapter 3

"Nice job girls. Twelve dead in half and hour. Credits go to Diana and Jean. The two of you will have the honour of having dinner with us tonight." Tom said, eyeing each and every one of us that was left.

I smiled to myself before glancing over to Diana, who gave me a nod and a sweet smile.

She had long black hair but only till her shoulder. She looks decent and she always has that smile on her face that has the word sweet written all over it but I had seen the way she fought just now. It was no where near sweet.

"Well, get yourself cleaned up and we'll see you tomorrow or the day after. Depending on our mood for fun." Girly man announced before we started to leave the bloody room.

I turned my back one last time to take a good look at the room.

The room that was pure white was now tainted with red crimson splatters. The corpses decorated the room nicely. Something like hell but more decent in a way.

"Before you go."

Girly man grabbed my hand before pulling me from the door.

"Get cleaned up and meet me at the fifth floor. I'll be there and don't take too long. I'm Bill if you're wondering." He smiled before going out of the door but before he stepped out, he gave me a winked.

I just shook my head before heading back to my room where I found out that Diana had shifted to Emma's bed.

"Hi." Diana smiled as she took a sit on my bed.

"Hi." I returned her smile before wiping my face with my white towel, staining it red.

"You're really good you know that. I saw the way you fight."

"You too. Hey, listen. I need to go change. Bill wants to see me in a while." I said before standing up.

"Yeah. I think he digs you." She smirked before I turned to her and laughed, raising my right eyebrow at her.

"Haha. I wish."

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I stood in the dark corridor, tapping my feet as I waited for Bill. I studied the grey walls before my eyes set upon words in one of the corners. I cocked my head slightly before making my way slowly to that particular spot.

"B & L fur immer." I spoke softly before footsteps jerked me from my spot.

I turned and gulped at the sight of Bill's eyes.

"I'm sorry. I was just waiting and I saw this so yeah." I nervously explained before he made his way towards me, each step making my heart beat more.

Finally, after what it seems like he took a million small steps, he finally was in front of me, his breath hot on my face.

"Well then. Let's go." He smiled all of a sudden as he grabbed my hand and led me to a black door before opening it, revealing a well lit room with many clothes and accesories in it.

"Wow." Was all that managed to escaped from my mouth before I heard him chuckled.

"I knew you would like it. I figured that you might need something nice to wear for dinner later." He said before walking to a rack and taking out a dress.

It was a strapless dress, black at the top as it starts to fade and become red at the bottom. It somehow looked like a wedding dress though.

"Here. Try this. The dressing room is over there."

I nooded before taking the dress and went to the changing room.

I looked at myself in awe before stepping out, only to see Bill smiling so widely.

"Perfect." He spoke before asking me to sit on the counter.

"Close your eyes."

I closed my eyes before he started applying things on my face.

"Jean. I want you to think and reflect. Who do you want to be? A normal girl being teased and made fun of at school? Someone who died in the hands of another girl? Or the one to win this fight? You're special Jean. Remember that." He said as I absorbed each word like a sponge.

Each word that he had spoken made sense to me.

"Now open your eyes and see. You're Jeanna Stone."

I stared at the mirror, admiring what Bill had done. I looked beautiful like I was a queen.

I had made my choice...

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Diana's POV

I sat down, sharpening my knife blade before Tom came in with a package in his arms.

"Here. Wear this." He sneered before throwing the package in front of me.

I glared at him before standing up, meeting him eye to eye.

"Who are you to tell me what I have to wear. I wear what I want." I stated before the other girls stop and stared.

Most were gasping in horror for I was being rude to the Tom that had captured all of us.

"Who are you to tell me anything?" Tom shot back before grabbing my neck with his hands.

I immediately placed my knife in front of his heart and growled.

"I can do anything I want and you should learn how to be a gentleman and treat me like a human being. I'm not your animal and I'm not fighting to win your game and be you fuck slave. I'm fighting for myself and for what I believe so stop acting like you know anything." I calmly said before tracing the knife across his chest.

I could feel him loosen his grip on my neck before letting go in defeat. He took one last look at me before turning around and walked out of the door.

I stared at the package before reading the letter that was attached to it.

Wear this tonight. You are Diana Shae. You choose your own destiny and make your own history.

Tom.

I smirked at the end for it was written by Tom.

I was impressed. I guess he's not such an ass after all.

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2:47 PM

FANIAH!! WATCH THIS!! LATER ZACKY GOT SING DURING THE SECOND VERSE :)

Ok. I wanted to type about lots of things but... I malas so yeah..

Just finished with Chp 2 of the lethal story. It's short but sweet. Haha.

Butt, I'll just post the story here aite :)

Ps. I think that my next few post are just gonna be stories coz I'm not really in the mood to type what had happen. So yeah :)

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Chapter 1

I shot my eyes open, only to find myself on a soft bed.

I rubbed my sore head, trying to recall yesterday's events.... Before it hit me...

I looked around and noticed that there were twenty-four other girls around me. Each sleeping in their own comfortable beds. Dreaming about sweet things that make them smile. I just scanned my eyes among all of them before a blonde caught my eyes. Natasha.

Natasha was the preppy, beautiful, perfect blonde that every guy in school wish to fuck upside down. She makes me sick to the stomach. She thinks she's all that. Making fun of me. Playing jokes on me. Almost getting me expelled from school.

Now she's over there, breathing calmly, a smile printed on her face. How I wish to just take a knife and go kill her right now...

I shook my head from that thought before standing up, still dizzy after yesterday's punch,

Damn... That girl can punch like a guy...

I got out of the room and stared at the mansion, or so I think it is. It was beautiful. The walls were dark grey and there were curtains hanging on some parts. This mansion must be 5 stories tall!

I started my so called adventure as I climbed up the stairs until I reached the top.

"Now now. We wouldn't want anyone to die now would we?"

I turned at the voice, only to see the girl, only that he was a guy, smiling at me sinisterly.

"Who are you and what do you want?" I shouted only to have my hands grabbed from behind.

"Listen Jean. You're special and we wouldn't want you die first. That'll be such a shame. We're really looking forward to what you can do." A voice whispered against my cold, sweaty neck.

Before I could say anything else, everything turned pitched, cold and black.

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I woke up, squinting my eyes that was blinded by the white light. I stood up, trying my best not to lose balance before realising that the other twenty-four girls were also inside this room, some with bloody noses or mouths but I couldn't help but laugh softly to myself when I saw Natasha whimpering as she wiped her torn, tattered face with her arms. What I didn't get was that there was three others in the room.Three new faces that was not here last night.

The others were just as confused as I am until four guys came into view.

The girly man smirked at the sight of us while the other three just rolled their eyes.

I studied them one by one, taking in their features as my breathing started to increase, rage filling me slowly.

"Welcome. I see you enjoyed your first night here in our mansion but guess what?" He grinned before the guy with the dreadlocks took out a gun.

"Your sweet Hawaii trip is over." The dreads smiled evilly before pulling the trigger, aiming at the brown haired girl, the one of the three who just joined us.

"As you can see, the twenty-eight of you, minus the one that was killed, which makes it twenty-seven, are special. Your mission here is to forget that you have a life outside of these walls and fight for your lives or... Die." He pulled the trigger again, this time, at Emma, the girl who slept next to me.

"It's as simple as that. Your job is to go through the challenges that we set for you and you will fight for your lives. We're not your enemy. Those people around you are your enemies. Twenty-six girls. Now.... It'll be twenty-five."

I shivered when the gun pointed at me. I took in a deep breath, getting ready to face death as I heard the bullet being shot from the gun, heading straight for.... Nina?

Nina fell on the floor, blood trickling down her face as her eyes rolled back behind her head.

I only took in a deep breath, only to smell the splattered blood from Nina's corpsed. I was shaking before I turned my attention to the Dreads guy, confused about why he didn't shoot me.

"I told you. We believe YOU can do more. I'm Tom by the way." He replied, answering my question that was lingering in the thoughts of my brain.

"Now here's the first challenge. You're in a room filled with nothing. Just walls and a room up there, where we will get to enjoy all the action while chompping on nice buttered popcorns. You task is to kill twelve girls using whatever you have. Good luck." The brown-haired guy said before the four of them walked out.

"Before I go..." The short hair one said before pulling out another gun.

The exact same noise was heard again and another one of us fell lifeless on the floor.

"Now let the flames begin." Girly man annouced before I turned and looked at the other twenty four girls, who looked scared but there was a glimpsed of determination in their eyes.

"I'm not going to stand here but..." A black haired girl said, breaking the silence before twisting the neck of Ally, I assumed, before she dropped dead on the floor.

We looked at each other before it began.

War had begun.

Twenty-three girls are left standing.

Who will be next?

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Chapter 2

Five gone.

Seven more to go.

Sweat trickled down my forehead as the stenched of dead blood entered my nostril, making me more determine to kill the others.

I didn't know what had happened to me but somehow, I felt the urge to kill everyone that stood infront of me. I felt that I was powerful. It was scary but it was amazing.

I looked around, searching for my third victim before I realised that I hid a pocket knife in my shoes yesterday.

I mentally slapped myself in the head before taking it out and admired it's sharp blades.

Perfect... I thought before someone tackled me from behind. Natasha.

"Why you little bitch! You should be disqualified because he clearly said no weapons allowed!" She shouted before punching me in the guts.

"No. He clearly said that there is nothing in this room. He didn't say anything about not being able to use weapons. Are you dumb? Oh. Wait. You are. So buh-bye." I smirked to her before jamming my pocket knife into her stomach.

It didn't cause much damage but at least she wasn't on top of me and I can finish what I had started.

"You my dear, had manage to ruined my life and I give credit to you for that but now, look at us. I'm going to kill you and there's nothing you can do about it." I smiled sinisterly before tracing the cold blade across her neck, enjoying her whimpering voice that was begging me to stop.

"Please don't kill me." She whispered in between sobs, tears streaming down her face ad she clutched her wound.

"Yeah. I should."

I stabbed her as if there was no tomorrow. Rage had engulfed me and soon, I stared at my magnificent artwork before grabbing Natasha's hair and cut it bald.

It felt really good and soon, I was more determine to finish this game. It was fun and exciting and I wanted more. I wanted to kill more people and I wanted to win this sick and twisted game.

I stood up before scanning around the room before it landed on Natasha's so-called friend.

Sarah.

Bill's POV

I couldn't take my eyes of that Jean girl. She was extra-ordinary and amazing. We've never met anyone like that.

Before this particular group of girls, there were many of them whom we tested but in the end, we had to kill the last girl for she was not worthy of being the winner.

"I told you Jean was good. I can bet that she's the one." Tom said before pointing to Jean, who was just smiling with a glint of evil in her eyes as she slowly killed her enemies one by one.

"She's smart. She knows how to be prepared. Keeping a pocket knife in her shoe. Pure genius. I'm really curious with what she can do." Georg stated while smirking.

I think everybody agrees with thet sentence. Jean is different. She has that rage inside of her that makes her fearless and lethal.

"But we can't neglect the others. Look."

The three of us looked out the glass window, to another black-haired girl that Gustav had pointed out.

"Her name is Diana. Washington DC. As brutal as Jean." Gustav added before Diana gave a sick kick to one of the girls before stepping on her face, dismantling it like a piece of wood.

"She's sick. I think I'm going to like this season. Maybe we can have two winners instead." Georg said, before stretching his legs.

"What if we make the game more interesting." Tom suggested before looking at me in the eye.

I smiled as I too had the same idea. It was going to be fun. Let's mess with their minds a little.

I smirked before turning to guys, "Yeah. Let's make it much more interesting."

That was my last words...

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11:27 AM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Only less that 12 hours... AND I ALREADY GOT 5 MESSAGES SAYING THAT MY NEW STORY ROCKS!!!

Haha. I'm elated.

Duh.

Of course I am.

Finally.

I came up with an idea that is actually unique :)

Gail.

25 girls.

In a mansion.

Fight To Live.

Live to KILL.

Call me insane but I already have the ending for it.

Typical.

Have ending but the middle got nothing.

Haha.

Went to Youtube just now and tried searching randomly for covers and I found this cover of EN-X.

They did a cover for Apologize and it was... GOOD.

They performed at BBSS during last Weds.

Or was it Tues?

Eh.

Monday right?

Sheisse. Anything lah. :)

They're a cool band atually :)

I like their songs :)

And I find it cute when Alvin kept pointing at Diyana and she squealed and screamed. Haha. :)

I really liked the dude who played the Gibson Les Paul! :)

I mean the way he plays ok. :)

Later Bill asked for divorce I WILL die a horrible death.

He rocks! His solos rocks! WEE DUUUU!!! :)

I hope I can play like that someday. :)

One day. :)

Maybe like Brian Haner. :)

That's even better :)

Kk. Enough of me merepeking and abusing the smileys but here's the vid :)

Gail :)

My mom surprisingly likes this song and she keeps singing it. ~~WOW~~. NOT. Haha. Sorry mum!

There's also this other girl who won the Apologize cover contest and One Republic gave her a recording contract or so I think they did. :) Her name's Tamar :)

Then... Here's her song!!! It's called New Day. She's perdy!! I'm going lesbian I think but NEIN!! I'm DEVOTED to Bill and I'm NOT BI SEXUAL!! That's just like.... INCEST BABY!!!!!

Kk.

Found another vid.

Haha. They sang this that time :)

Mum's nagging.

Haha.

Im gonna continue writting Chapter 2 for Fight To Live, Live To Kill.

Gail :)

Maybe I'll do just 5 chps...

Hmmm....

Skali come out 10 sia.

Like that Destiny story.

Wanted t do 10 and in the end... There was 30 Chapters!!! OMG!!

Haha.

Kk.

Have a guten tag aite :)

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10:09 AM

Friday, October 17, 2008

YES! I have a new story and it's called... Fight To Live, Live To Kill.

I have a specific reason why I chose that tittl. Haha. Yeah. Figure that out if you want :)

It's a nice story actually. Brutal in a way but nice.

I'm kinda tired to write or update but yeah. Haha.

Kak Ira was so cool!

She told me about places where I could get Halloween stuff for my look.

DANKE DARL!!

So... Yeah.

I HAVE A NEW STORY!! WOOHOO!!

Here. Read it if you want :) I'm not forcing you too :)

||Fight To Live, Live To Kill||

Kk. Nacht :)

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11:43 PM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Came back from Vivo with my PURE CLUB girls, Diana and Brintha :)

Had alot of fun with them :)

We went to SGH to visit Brintha's aunt Get well soon aunty :)

Then we went to Vivo and ate at Burger King.

Then we made our way to Toys R Us where we search for Diana's Halloween stuff and we had fun at the Halloween section.

Diana screamed TWICE when I wore the ugly uncle face and Brintha wore the Purple Dracula face.

Let me show you some pics :)

The wigs were very PERDY

After that Diana bought a toy Husky That was freaking cute that I don't mind stealing it from her :) and a vampire teeth which fitted her funny but it's still nice :)

Looks fun rite?? Haha.

I'm going as a DEAD Goth girl :)

I hope the look works :)

Brintha might be dressing as a dead fish or dead banana :)

Aisyah is being some creepy Rapunzel with long hair :)

Diana is going as A Dead Little Red Riding Hood who became a VAMPIRE :)

I'M HELPING HER TO MAKE HER UP!!! WEEE DUUUU!!!

And I hate it when he manages to haunt my mind everyday even for only a second.

I guess it's true that first love are hard to forget :)

Ouh! And Ezabel wrote me a one-shot and it's sweet :)

It was like any other night. I was working full-shift this time, and so I had been standing for almost ten hours straight but I wasn't going to complain. It showed it my attitude.

The last customers were a group of four boys, and they came in just a minute before closing time. How appropriate.

I observed them from where I stood; one had black spiky hair, one had long dreadlocks, one had straight shoulder length brown hair and one had short blonde hair. They were four very different people, so I was glad I was amused somehow.

Spiky looked around and I thought he was ready to take his order so I went to him. "May I take your order?" I asked in a pretty dull tone. I should have just put in a bit more effort. These guys were good looking.

And then he stared at my name tag. "Sya-fee-kah?" Spiky raised his eyebrows.

"Sha-fee-kah," I stressed the first syllable. People always get that wrong around here and it sucks.

"Cool name," he nodded with a smile.

Right, I thought. "So, order?" I asked again. Dreads looked at me and grinned.

"We're not done," he said. I frowned. If they're not even going to order yet, I'm going to have to stay for at least an hour. I hope they order something simple so they won't stay too long or I'm going to have to kill them.

"Sorry," Spiky said to me. I sighed and walked away back to the counter wordlessly.

My annoying manager just made me go serve them iced water. "You know, we should really have a 'last order' system up," I snapped at him before walking to the four boys. And I served them their water.

"Thank you," Spiky said. At least he was nice, but not helping. Much.

"You're welcome," I said. And then Blondie decided he was ready to take his order. Everyone agreed.

Dreads was the last to pick. He took at least five minutes looking around the various menus before deciding on what Spiky asked me to suggest. "Are you sure it's nice?" Dreads asked.

"It's my favorite," I said, shrugging with a tiny smile. I must look dreadful after a long day. I actually only picked it because the portion of the pie was small so they'd take shorter to eat.

"That will be all then," Spiky smiled to me cheerfully. That helped a little. This boy had a wonderful smile.

I ran to the cashier and kitchen, rushing the chefs with the last order. It was almost 11.30pm and I yawned discreetly, covering my mouth. When I opened my eyes, I realized Spiky was staring at me. Hoshit. I blushed and disappeared behind the cash register, face palming myself.

After about ten minutes, the first two dishes came out for Dreads and Brownie. Blondie's and Spiky's took longer, and soon, all started eating. I was developing a tiny crush on Spiky. His smiles were just... wow. Not that I never mini-crushed on other customers before. It's part and parcel here. It keeps me going.

There goes my nasty manager again. "Go ask them if they need anything," he said to me, shoving me away from the cash register as he started calculating the day's earnings. I groaned slightly and trudged to the table. Like I needed more orders.

"Hello, anything you might need but don't really need?" I mumbled. The four of them stared at me midway of eating their food. I blinked, embarrassed. "I... I mean if you guys need anything else." I stifled an involuntary yawn. I had to turn away to complete yawning. How embarrassing.

"Um, nothing," Brownie smiled. Spiky nodded.

"Sorry if we're making you stay too long," Spiky apologized suddenly. "You see, we've been really busy all day and we thought this was a 24-hour diner but we realized it wasn't after we ordered."

I sighed. Maybe he was lying, but I don't care. I gave him a lethargic smile. "Well, then. I hope you enjoy your meal. I need some rest," I gave a little laugh and shrug before returning to the counter, resting my head against a shelf.

After a few more orders for desserts, it was almost midnight when they were done. I groaned when my manager kicked me off my seat and made me go settle the bill.

I took a deep breath and went to the table. "Bill?" I said as I looked at Spiky and the others.

"What?" Spiky raised his eyebrow, looking at me as he wiped his mouth with the napkin. Everyone was staring at me.

"Bill?" I repeated. "Would you like to have your bill now?" And then the other three started sniggering. What the Hell was wrong with them?

"Oh," Spiky blushed. "That's... that's my name. I thought you were calling me."

His name was Bill? Wow. He sure didn't look like someone named Bill. That's typically American. Bill always reminded me of Bill Clinton. The only Bill I know. "Um, oh," I laughed awkwardly. "Sorry. So do you want your bill?" I asked.

"Sure," Bill nodded with a grin. And as I walked away, he was scribbling away on a piece of paper. Shit. The feedback form. I was definitely going to get fired.

I shook my head as I went back to get the receipt. "Your bill, Bill," I said monotonously with a straight face as I placed the black leather-like book on the table. And then he looked at me and I gave him a smirk.

"Okay," he smirked back. And he placed some cold hard cash of about $150 on the book and I thanked him and went to get his change.

When I returned his change, he passed me the feedback form. "You can show it to your boss if you want, but I think you wouldn't," Bill said to me as he got up. Wow, he was taller when I was right under his nose and he looked like an angel. What references!

"Um, okay," I gave an awkward giggle as I took the card. "Bye. Thank you."

Dreads, Brownie and Blondie waved to me and thanked me for the service, and Spiky said, "Bye, Syafiqah." And he left the restaurant.

I was at their table, and I decided to read the feedback:

Food: 5/5
Service: 2/5
Ambience: 4/5
Name of person who served you: Syafiqah :)

Name: Bill K.
Contact number: 712 887 292
Email: xletzeminutex@yahoo.com.de
Address: :)

Comments: Sha-fee-ka is a very nice girl. Sorry for failing you in service. But I admit it is our fault. You must be very tired! Hope to hear from you. Good food by the way :)

Haha.

NICE!!! Haha. Gail :)

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5:32 PM

I'm not angry by the comment that Saiful made. I get that all the time. Haha. He's looks gay or distorted or looks like a girl. I LOVE THAT GIRL!! Haha. I must be lesbain :)

Mmmmm. No school today.

It's Promotion Exercise.

I'm scared but I'm not thinking too much about it :)

Diana asked if I wanna go Vivo with her and Brintha but I haven't asked my mum yet. Haha.

I like A7X.

Who knew Zacky. MY Zacky. Haha. Macam btul je. Can actually SING and his voice is AMAZING!!

Hehe. Enjoy this vid :)

It's called SCREAM :)

Avenged Sevenfold - Scream (Live in the LBC)

Wee Duu!!

Ouh and I have to sing for that stupid poetry thing ah and I DON'T WANT!!!!! It sucks!! I wanna cry!!

Kk. Nk siap gi Vivo :)

Dah dah :)

Ich liebe Bill und Zacky Vengeance :)

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9:24 AM

Monday, October 13, 2008

It SUCKS when you have a 12 year old barbarian and a 4 year old caveman as your little brothers.

Sometimes I wished I was never born.

Sometimes I wished that my parents never had another child except for ME.

And you wanna know something?

I'm sick and tired of always following what my parents want me to do and most of the times, THEY DON'T FUCKING CARE

I always listen to them but I get NO credit for it.

Nein. Never.

If I fail to do something like getting an F9 for my maths paper. they lecture their hearts out as if I:

Smoked
Drinked beer
Had pre marital sex
Skipped school
Tried to commit suicide
Had 9 F9s

They just don't get it.

That list up there. I hate those stuffs.
Ask my friends and they'll say Yeah. She doesn't do those kinds of things becoz you why? Those things are STUPID.

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Now it's a diff thing now.

Jade made me a banner for my Letter story and it's wonderful :)

It's beautiful :)

I feel sooo honoured :)

My first banner made by a fan. Teehee.

Ezabel's wonderful!

Ritienne is my IDOL! She told me that I hav an error in my story which I didnt see and yeah!

Haha.

I love Mibba and Quizilla :)

PJ used to pronounce my name seeya-fic-ah.

Haha. I don't blame her.

At least she didn't call me shae-fee-cork like Sebastian did in Pri 5.

Haha. Here's the banner :)

Gail huh? It's PERDY!!!

Haha.

I chenged my profile abit.

I don't if it's nice yet but is it??

Ouh

FANIAH!! INVITE ME!!!

I have 62 readers at Mibba for The Letter story :)

Wee duu :)

Kk.

Going Geylang to meet Tom :) I hope. I can't contact her since her SIM still in my phone :)

I'll try to post the Raye photos but some not all.

Butt, I'll email you the photos when I have time :)

Sorry darl.

I feel like I'm abusing the smileys but wth. Haha

Kk. Byes :)

AND I MISS TOMTOM!!!!!

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3:12 PM

Friday, October 10, 2008

Just writting Chp 15 and I'm going to bat later.

I go t back my results and I'm NOT happy with it.

My body's not accepting the fact too.

My head throbbing and all I wanna do is just sleep so that I can escape the whole world.

It sucks.

But hey,

Look on the bright side.

At least I only got 1 F9 which is expected becoz I knew I lost hop in maths...

Well, I still dunno the overall yet.

Let's hope it ok...

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9:39 PM

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Din go to school today. Ran out of black spray.

Haha.

Wrote a one-shot and it's not about Bill and neither it is about Tom. It's about Zacky Vengence. Haha. I hope it's alright.

"Lace! Guess what? I asked Gena out."

I asked Gena out.

That sentence repeated itself like a CD in my head.

I smiled, holding back tears ad I hugged him.

"Ouh. Well, I'm happy for you."

"I knew that telling my bestfriend about it first is the right thing to do. I love you Lace!" Zacky exclaimed as he kissed my cheeks and made his way out my room, probably to tell the guys his happy news.

The door clicked before I ran to it and made sure I locked it tight before tears were streaming down my face.

No knew that I cried because they believe that the word cry doesn't exist in my dictionary. Well, of course. I never cried in front of them. Even when my late grandmother died, no tears escaped my eyes. I should get a grammy for great acting skills...

After a minute, footsteps was heard coming up the stairs before there were knocks.

"Lacey?"

His voice was worried and concerned but what I admired was the calmness that it had in it.

"Yeah?" I replied from the other side of the door, pretending to be engrossed in the book that I was reading before the door clicked open.

I felt the bed sink before a soft sigh was heard.

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah. I'm fine. No worries." I smiled, eyes still glued to the book.

What book is it anyway?

"Lacey..."

"What?" I snapped before finally averting my eyes from the book to my older brother, Brian Haner.

"Stop acting like you don't care."

That's so like Brian. The typical I'm your brother so I should make sure you're always alright kind. My one and only brother and my bestfriend too, alongside with Zacky. He was with me through thick and thin. Solid and water. Glass and wood. He is the only one who knows when I'm ok and when I'm not.

"I'm not acting. I'm really fine with it."

"Lacey, I know that you're pretending. It's obvious." Brian stated as he laid down beside me, looking at the book I was reading.

"Well, it's not obvious to him. So why should I give a fuck about it?"

"It's either it's not obvious or he's just plain stupid. Why don't you just tell him?"

"He's with Gena now. Get over it!" I rolled my eyes before getting slapped in the head.

"No. You[ get over it. You're the one that's in love with him. Not me."

"Brian?"

"Yes Lace?"

"Shut up."

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The rest of the day went by like a train.

Me and Brian were sitting watching TV when Baker shouted from the front door.

"Open up Suckers! I'm here!"

I sighed before going to the door and opening it, meeting two pairs of eyes.

"Hey Lace."

"Hey Baker. Brian's in the living room." I groaned before the both of them went in.

I was fuming. Of course I was! Who wouldn't be! This was suppose to be a me, Brian and Zacky thing but no.... He had to bring his stinky girlfriend along...

"Hello Lace." Gena spoke, her eyes glimerring under the house light.

"Ouh yeah. Hi." I smiled fakely before going to my room.

"Haner! You're not watching?" Zacky shouted from the couch ad Gena snuggled up close to him.

"No. Homework." I replied before slamming the door shut.

I didn't cry anymore because I ran dry. It was tiring to cry. Trust me.

I jumped and landed on the bed on my stomach before staring out the window.

It wasn't long before a drift of to Lazy land...

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I woke up to find that another fatass was sleeping beside me.

Must be Brian... I thought before I turned my body, only to scream and jumped out of bed, tidying up my hair and pulling my shirt down.

"Baker! What are you doing here?" I asked, shaking his shoulders.

"Mmmm..."

"Zack! What are you doing here?"

"I'm tired... Go to sleep Haner..."

I just shook my head before going out but as I passed my parents room, the heavy sound of snogging could be heard.

"Ouh Bri... You're amazing... He could never give me something like this..." The girl moaned and surprisingly, she sounded awfully familiar.

I fought over myself if I should open the door.

Finalyy, my hand made my way to the knob and slowly twist it open, revealing a hot, sweaty Brian with none other than...

"Brian! What are you doing?" I gasped at the sight of two nude people having sex on my parents bed.

The both of them got off each other immediately before Gena wrapped the blanket around herself and Brian put on his boxers.

"How could you Brian! He's up there! Sleeping and you're down here doing this? I thought she left?!"

"Yeah. I thought she did."

His voice filled the room as the tension in it grew tighter.

"Zacky... It was a-"

"Mistake?" Zacky cut Brian off before walking out.

"Zacky, wait!" I called out before following his trail till we reached the front door.

"Zacky. Wait. Listen to me."

"Ok. I'm listening."

"I'm... Sorry." I said, my head hanging and staring at the hard floor.

"Nah. It's ok... We never got serious anyway."

I looked at him, confused and in disbelief.

"Yeah. That's right. I knew you didn't like her so I never really got serious. I mean yeah, she's my girlfriend but you're my bestfriend and I love you more than I like her." Zacky said calmly, not realising that every single one of his words are making me dizzy.

I just stared at him like some idiotic fool.

Talk you idiot! Talk or say something! Tell him you love him more than just a friend!

"I love you too Zachery," I smiled but I knew he is never going to get what I really meant.

"Thanks Lace. You're the best. See you on Monday alright." He hugged me before stepping out the door.

I sighed before shooking my head and headed back to my room.

As I passed my parents room to get to mine, the exact same moans were heard.

When will you ever stop being a whore, Brian?

I laughed silently in my head before I got a message from Zacky.

And I really meant what I said. I love you ok. Don't forget that. No matter what happens, I'll still love you because you want to know why? It's because you're my bestfriend Lacey. I know this sounds chessy but I promise you no girl is going to get in between what we share.

Love, Zacky.

My body felt light for a moment before I replied to his message.

Hey. How many times must I convince you that I love you too.? I love you ok.

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Zacky's POV

Hey. How many times must I convince you that I love you too.? I love you ok.

I smiled and shook my head.

When you realise ,Lacey, that I love you more than just a bestfriend?

Well, I hope that was ok :)

Meeting Diana later so yeah. Byez :)

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11:44 AM

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

I'm on the verge of tears becoz of this one particular writer on Mibba. Her story about Lily and Jimmy from A7X is amazing. The way she wrote the stories was realistic. I can imagine it in my head. The last part was wow. I wanted to cry when I read the story.

It's called I've got your mixed tape in my walkman.

Very nice story.

Here's the link

||I've Got Your Mixed Tapes In My Walkman||

It's the most amazing A7X story I've read so far.

I admit.

I'm starting to like A7X but not alot lah. Just some songs and some stories and *cough**cough* Zacky Vengence

Haha. Gail.

Now there's Bill, Frank and now... ZACHARY JAMES BAKER!!!!

Too bad he has a girlfriend... Gena.... Bleh. Haha. At least I still have Bill :)

Kk. I'm sleepy. Guten Nacht :)

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11:35 PM

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Was suppose to go out with parents today but tk jadi last minute so went to hang out with the Pure Club instead. It was fun.

Haha. Watch movies, played twister, played Truth or Dare, just talk and yeah. Alot more.

Haha. I got a message from Ritienne and she said she loves my recent update. She even dedicated an update to me. Haha. I feel sooo HONOURED. Haha.

But really. I think the ONLY reason I update is because of Ritienne. She motivates me to write more and I... Don't know. She's like my idol.

But really, I think she's the only one who actually reads and appreciates my writtings besides some fellow liebes who I think I sometimes force to read. Haha. Sorry bout that.

Haha.

I'm updating on Chp 14 right now and I've got ideas to make it longer and abit more stupider I think. Haha.

Kk.

I'm actually really sleepy and I want to sleep but I have this amazing idea that I have in my head and I swear that I'll lose that idea if I go sleep but I'll go sleep when I'm done.

Haha.

Kk.

Nacht aite people.

Ps. To my friends. I appreciate your care and concern about what's been going on and I thank you liebes for always being there for me. I know the ~~Brenda~~ thing had gone from bad to worse and some things had been going on with you know who but I learnt to accept everything and move on.

I'm really ok.

I've got my wonderful families, friends and Tokio Hotel.

Bill's quote keeps me alive
Live The Second

His tatto keeps me alive
Freiheit 89

I get butterflies when I see his tattoo photos.

Haha.

I'm fine. I really am.

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9:15 PM

Monday, October 6, 2008

Was bored so I decided to do a quiz that I found on this person's Mibba account. Haha. I'm updating Chp 13 and yay! I hav idea!

Relationship Quiz

01.Single, taken, naked or flirt?
Single. Duh...

02.Are you happy with that ?
Yup. Really really happy with it :) If there's Bill then I'll be elated :)

03.Would you still kiss your ex ?
Nein. Never. He's not worth my kissing unless Bill is my ex then... Hehe. Mepek je aku nie...

04.Have you ever had your heart broken ?
Yes. Many many times.

05.Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay ?
No. Cheating on someone else is utterly disgusting and foul. It's just so wrong.

06.Have you ever talked about marriage ?
Yes. You don't know how much I'd imagine about my marriage with.... BILL KAULITZ!!!

07.Do you want children ?
Yes.

08.How many?
2. Boy twins. Khairil und Khairul :)

09.If someone like you right now , would you want them to tell you ?
I don't know. Maybe? Maybe not?

10.Do you want someone you cant have ?
Isn't it VERY obvious??

11.Have you ever been in love ?
Ja.

12.Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries ?
Yes. I mean if the relationship means something.

13.What would you say about your most recent ex ?
Nice. Stupid but still nice... BUT BILL BETTER!!

14.Does your ex still have feelings for you ?
Don't know. Don't care. Don't want to care actually...

15.Do you believe in long distance relationships ?
Nein.

16.Do you believe in love at first sight ?
Yes. Ever heard of soulmates??

Truths about me

01.Are you perfect ?
Nein. You'll puke when you see me.

02.Are you tall ?
Is 1.63m considered tall or short??

03.Are you short ?
....

04.Are you in your pajamas ?
Nein. I don't own pyjamas. I find it stupid somehow...

LAST

01.Last friend you saw ?

Diana and Brintha.

02.Last talked to on the phone ?
Suchi Kalia.

03.Last person to text you ?
Mrs. Hottie Hot Hot, Brintha Dass

FAVOURITES
01.Number ?
19

02.Colour ?
Alot but mostly red, black und white :)

03.Food ?
That Char Kway at Geylang!! I'm going to miss you sayang!! Sampai ketemu tahun depan!!

Questions and answers

Q1 : What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up ?
Open my eyes and rubbed it clean.

Q2 : Do you have anything bother you ?
Yes.... But it's not on my mind right now... I wonder where it is...

Q3 : What's the last movie you watched in theatres ?
Congkak

Q4 : Where is the last place you went ?
Toilet bowl to berak. The taik was... Keras...

05 : Do you smile a lot ?
I don't know. Do I?

Q6 : Do you wish upon stars ?
Nein. Never. Syirik tau! Nanti kat kubur kene tanye nanti mampos seh!!

Q7 : Are you a friendly person ?
I'm friendly at times but if you piss me off then that's a diff story...

Q8 : Where did you sleep last night ?
Room and bed. Then where? Jamban??

Q9 : When was the last time you cried?
Can't rember. Trying to build back my uncrying record...

Q10 : What was your last thought before going to bed ?
How much I love Bill and my friends and families and if I were to die tomorrow, I hope that no one would be sad.

Q11 : Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
I don't rate my life. I love it the way it is. Even though it's sucky or good at times, I'll still love it no matter wad :)

Q12 : What do you hear right now ?
Mum screaming to my brother something about the Malay thing...

Q13 : Does anything hurt you right now ?
Nein. But my eyes hurt though...

Q14 : What's your favourite month?
I can't decide between July and September...

EMOTIONS

01.Are you missing someone right now ?
Yes. I think most of you know who he is.

02.Are you tired ?
Abit.

03.Are your parents still married ?
Yes. Let me ask you something, are you stupid??

BASICS

01.Real name ?
Nursyafiqah 'Amirah Bte Riduan Bin Pasir Bin Wariatekerama

02.Eye colour ?
Dunno actually so I'm saying... BLACK!!

03.Male or female ?
I'm a transvertite gone wrong. Adik kepade transvertite gondrong

04.Crushing ?
Yes....

05.Hair colour ?
Black with some highlights...

06.Sweats or jeans ?
NAKED!! Nein nein. Jeans.

07.Phone or Camera ?
Phone.

08.Health freak ?
Dunno.

09.Righty or Lefty ?
Right

10.Smoke or drink ?
None. Both sucks becoz they're just effing stupid.

FIRST

01.First best friend ?
Angeline Han Jun Lin

02.First enemy ?
Can't remember...

03.First Vacation ?
My toilet bowl in the middle of the night, alone, when I was... 7!!

CURRENTLY

01.Eating ?
Nein

02.Drinking ?
Nein.

03.Listening to ?
My own breathing

04.Plans for tmr ?
Outing

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER

01.Lips or eyes ?
Eyes... Ah...

02.Shorter or taller ?
Taller. He's 180++ for heaven's sake!!

03.Romantic or Spontaneous ?
I don't mind both. Hehe

04.Sensitive or Loud ?
Um... Sensitive tapi jangan over sensitive ah... But both is nice but... I prefer loud. :)

05.Hook-up or in a relasionship ?
Relationship. I don't believe in hook-ups...

HAVE YOU EVER

01.Drank hard drinks ?
Never did. Never will. My dad say that if we drink, our ibadah for 40 days will not be counted, regardless of how many good deeds we do.

02.Lost glasses/contacts ?
Nein.

03.Ran away from home ?
Nein.

04.Broken someone's heart ?
I don't know. Maybe?

05.Been arrested ?
Nein. Never. I hope I don't get arrested in the future...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

01.Do you like someone ?
Of course! But I'll say LOVE

02.Are you seriously happy with where you are in life ?
Yup but I still wish I could have more though...

Ok... That's done. So fudging long... Haiz... Kk. Need to continue with my story... Guten nacht!!

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9:49 PM

Today was Bio Paper 1.

Not easy.

Not difficult as well.

Bill's hand tatoo got me through that bitchy state and I thanked him for that.

Finished the paper 30mins before time and wrote things at the back of the paper.

A Frank story.

I like the way it's going.

I'm gonna continue with it.

I had English oral too after that.

It was the BEST English oral I've ever had for the past 15 years.

It was damn gail!!

During the bio paper, I was like praying that maybe Mrs Phua would ask question about what I love doing and my activities all that and she did!

It was gail!

First she asked was something that I do or something like that and I just told her about my studies and how proud and shocked I was about my SA1 results.

Then my favourite part :), she asked, do activities make you feel a sense of satisfactory or something like that and that's when I started all my random shit that I love!

I talked about how I love music and I love playing the guitar. How long I've been playing it. How I wannna show the world that not ONLY guys can play beautiful riffs and play amazing solos. Girls can too.

Then she asked about who my role model was and BAM!!.

I said... This might sound weird but I look up to this singer in this band called Tokio Hotel. Then I talked about how he Bill and Tom dropped out of school so that they could pursuit their dreams and about they amazing results which is a 4.1 or a 4.2 and yeah.

Then she asked about whether charity begins at home and I said yes, it does begin at home and all other questions. :)

It was G-A-I-L!!!!!!

Haha. Call me insane but yeah.

Ouh read this, it's by Ezabel. The Singapore girl that I was talking about :)

It's called Just One Kiss. Gave me goose bumps... Hehe

"Oh my God," I groaned. "No, please."

"Yes, please!" my friend Sophie begged, teasing me at the same time. "They're really cute guys, trust me!"

"Who did you say they were again?" I asked.

"This cool band, called Tokio Hotel," she answered. "They're Benjamin's friends and Ben's out for a while so they're staying for a bit. Come on!"

And I was led up to Benjamin's room. Sophie is his younger sister and the both of us were best friends since forever. I entered the room to four faces. "Laugh out loud," I snorted.

Sophie rolled her eyes at me. And she grinned at the guys. "This is Dan, the one I was talking about. My best friend." And she pulled me to sit beside her. "That's Georg, Gustav, Bill and Tom."

So there were four guys; two looked normal. One looked confused... Okay, two looked confused. One was trying to be a girl while the other was trying to be a rapper. White boys so shouldn't try to act ghetto because, well, they're just not!

Everyone exchanged hellos and I sighed.

"Check out the size of those pants," I muttered. And everyone looked at me.

"Whose?" the androgynous one asked.

"Both," I smirked. He gave a little laugh, uneasy about it. I can't believe a little girl bonding time turned out to be babysitting time.

Then I spinned the bottle in the middle of the circle we were seated around. For some reason, I was unanimously selected as the first to go. I didn't want either of the two confused people. I didn't even want to play this game.

"Tom!" Sophie grinned. She nudged me and whispered. "Oh, you're going to get so lucky, Dan!"

I widened my eyes. What was that supposed to mean? "Pssh," I rolled my eyes and looked at Tom. "So?" I asked. Tom was going to be so lucky if he even gets to kiss me.

Tom looked at me and licked his lip ring. I had a thing for lip rings, unfortunately, but I have never kissed a guy with one. This white boy rapper was going to be my first. Lucky him. "Yeah," he said simply and he leaned in.

Everyone was watching excitedly as our lips touched. I was really spontaneous, just so you know. Just a peck and I was done. I was surprised when he got into it and his tongue was midway out.

"He expects more," Georg said. I looked at Georg, amused.

"Say what?" I said. And I stared at Sophie. "Is this a game?" I asked. And then I realized it technically was, but that wasn't my exact question. "Oh, forget it. You want more? We'll play Seven Minutes In Heaven."

All five of the others agreed. Especially Tom. "If you dare," he smirked.

Bill then spoke. "My brother is really good at that," he said.

"Your brother?" I asked. The weirdos were related?

"They're twins," Sophie grinned. And she nudged me again before I gave her a look. No wonder they're so weird. But damn, dreadlocks guy has that lip ring. So good.

"Fine," I shrugged. "It's not like you're going to get lucky with me again." And I received a smirk from Tom. He should really stop teasing me.

Sophie took an empty pillowcase and we were each numbered. And there were six numbered Uno cards in the case and this time, Tom was picked to go first. This better be good. Or not. I was half-hoping I didn't get him, and half-hoping I did get him.

"3," he said, showing the card. I shut my eyes immediately.

Sophie laughed. "Danny, this is fate," she giggled. I looked at her, bemused.

"Seven minutes!" Bill laughed and pushed Tom.

"Not seven hours," Georg smirked. "Tom always forgets that."

What were these guys on, seriously? They're making Tom sound like some extremely good kisser... like I was going to get stuck with him in the closet forever. "Not like he's a hell of a kisser," I joked.

Tom got up and I got up with him. I didn't look at him at all but I saw his smirk from the corner of my eyes. I went into the bathroom as instructed since we didn't have a closet. Tom spontaneously locked the door and received a stare from me.

"What?" Tom asked, leaning against it.

"Nothing," I said. I hate to admit, but I was getting really nervous. What if he's really a good kisser?

"Wanna?" he asked. I shrugged and pulled him down to my lips. Gradually, our kiss deepened and he let his tongue slip into my mouth. I gave out a tiny gasp through it, and he hugged me closer.

The next few minutes, we were still kissing. Frenching. Or if you'd rather, Germaning. I could hear our breathing, and it hitched up as each second passed and he carried me and put me on the bathroom counter, pressing himself against me. His crotch was in between my legs that pulled him tightly against me. Damn this boy. I was even wondering, would seven hours be enough?

His hands reached under my hoody and up my back but then a knock came at he door. "Time's up," Bill piped. Tom paused for a second before continuing to kiss me. Not that I minded. I was used to the lip ring already, feeling like it should be there all the time on my lip.

A minute later, and we were still at it. I couldn't breathe and so I pulled back and we looked at each other. "Shit," I mumbled.

"What?" Tom asked, half-laughing.

"I couldn't breathe," I took a deep breath and licked my lips.

Tom smirked. "So, did I prove you wrong?" he asked.

I looked at him and couldn't help but let a stupid smile escape. "Yeah," I shrugged, pushing him away coyly and jumping off the counter.

"Hey, time's up- Oh, finally," Bill laughed when I got out. Tom followed behind and I saw him smirk at his friends.

"See?" Georg said. "You guys took seven hours."

"Not yet," I smirked back to the irresistibly good Tom. We weren't even close.

Tom gave a normal sigh and smiled back as he watched me spin the bottle. It pointed to him in the end.

Just one kiss. One kiss can change it all. Again.

Haha. Kk. I dunno wad to do here anymore coz I have no ideas for any stories so yeah.

I think I'm gona blog hop a little and yeah.

Bye bye liebes!!

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6:13 PM

Sunday, October 5, 2008

I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH FRANK IERO!!!! OH MY GOD!!! HE'S HOT!!!! HAHA :)

Ouh and I miss Priya alot... I really do...

I don't talk much about her here but I think about her every single minute. It hurts when I thought about that day when she came back but she didn't tell me. Yeah. It hurt alot but I learnt to accept that she doesn't care about me anymore...

What can I say?

Friends come and go.

Isn't that what I always live by?

Yeah...

I must be used to it right?

Haiz....

I hope you're happy over there Priya...

Just to let you know, I've never stopped thinking about you and I never stopped loving you becoz you're the best thing that has ever happened to me...

Call me a lesbian but I don't give a fuck actually...

Guten Nacht poeple :)

Good luck for tmrw's Bio paper :)

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9:39 PM

I dun noe if I had put up a post about this guy be he rocks :)

His name is Declan Galbraith. His voice is amazing :) Especially the song Tell Me Why. It's really gail :)

This was when he was young. Not sure how old but he's 17 this year.

There's more though but I don't really like the songs but his voice is still amazing.

He's from Germany and he reminds me of Bill. You wanna know why?

Becoz Bill can sing like him when he was that age and it's awesome :)

I can't even sing like that luh.

Hear Rette Mich and you'll understand why :)

I was pissed yesterday.

Yup.

And I'm sorry Diana if you had to listen to my complainings.

I really am.

It kinda sucks.

I mean I'm not dumb.

So stop acting like you know everything.

I know stuff too but I'm not so dumb till I don't know anithing.

How stupid do you think I am?

I'm pissed.

I feel like my private space is invaded.

It sucks.

Fudgedy fudge fudge.

I mean stop being such a big ass.

I know you have a BIG one so you don't need to act big.

Urggghhhh....

People these days.

They're so typical.

Only act.

Then when another one comes by.

They'll leave this one alone and go suck up to that one.

I mean.

If you love it,

then stick to it like fudging glue lah.

Not going around like a fudging bastard.

Talking so big like fudging bastard.

Then act as if you know every single thing about it like a big fudging bastard.

I know theres alot of swearing and I know theres a million and one people reading like my cuzins but if you were me, you'll be pissed.

Urggghhh.... Fudgedy fudge fudge.

Irritating fudging person...

Again.

My apologies for the swearing.

Fudge.

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3:17 PM

Friday, October 3, 2008

Just now was Paper 1 for Combined Science.

It was ok.

Physics was like chicken feet to me but I cannot over confident.

Hey, at least it's easier than Chem.

Chem was abit hard.

I tikam almost the whole question in one page.

I hope I did well.

When I finished the paper, I still had like about 15 mins.

So I wasted my time by writting a one-shot at the back of my paper.

It's not good.

I admit it's not.

I'll put it here though.

But I'll edit it before posting it up at Quizilla and Mibba.

I'm very bored.

I don't know what to do with the internet nowadays.

Only left Bio paper 1 on Monday.

Meeting Diana for breakfast before going to school.

Hari Raya was the BOM

It was fun.

I'll post the photos when I have the time.

So yeah.

Almost of you have heard about Tokio Hotel. Let alone about its lead singer, Bill Kaulitz.

The girls adore him. I mean, who wouldn't? His brown majestic eyes. His flawless skin. His amazing smile. It's heavenly and deadly at the same time.

I fell into his trap a long time ago and I know millions of girls had fallen for him too.

Every night, you dream of meeting him face to face. You wish you were together with him, just like I do.

Dreams and hopes that many girls like me hold on to, even though deep in our hearts, we know that we will never be with him.

How creul can fate be.

Nevertheless, fate is unreadable. It's moves are secret and it could be twisted all around.

And BAM!

Fate is not so cruel anymore.

Well at least to me.

Many girls hate me.

Hate me, adore me, envy me.

But I don't bother the fame or fortune because it means nothing to me.

Mosun Koete played on my fone, disrupting me from my thoughts before I picked it up.

"Hello?" I answeres, combing my hair with my fingers.

"Hey. Open the door."

"Ummm... Ok?" I slurredm abit confused before making my way to the front door.

I opened it and a smile formed on my face.

"Hello liebe. I missed you." He greeted as his brown magnificent eyes met mine.

The same exact eyes that I fell for a long time ago.

"Hey. I missed you too." I replied before embracing him.

See. I told you.

Fate IS a mystery.

Told you it sucked.

It really does.

I don't have any ideas for any stories nowadays.

And I feel like I'm abandoning my other stories.

Gosh.

I'm very the dumb...

No ideas still...

Haiz...

What to do now?

Um... Alah.

Just suft the net like crazy lah.

Kk.

Guten Nacht aite :)

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9:32 PM