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Friday, April 24, 2009

Sometimes, I wonder if they really care about me or are they just stepping on my fucking head like a fucking cake :P

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5:45 PM

Monday, April 20, 2009

It's frustrating.

Super frustrating.

Fucking frustrating.

Blehing frustrated.

Could have gotten 25 for Math but NO.

Stupid careless mistake caused me 9 marks and that sucks.

Oh and I'm sorry if I'm getting on your nerves.

I don't even know why I even bothered to reply when I can just ignore and delete.

My fault, I guess :P

Pfft.

So much for me trying to get to know an Alkaff.
You and your stupid obsession with this kind of families.

I said, not my fault.

Interesting what?

Getting to know prominant families like Talbar, Alkaff, Aljunied and Yamen.

Let me tell you.

IT'S FUN only when you are a nice, bubbly, so the penyabar girl like Diana.

She can strike a conversation with a person and the next thing you know, that person will be her bestfriend for life.

I'm not joking.

I admit I suck at making friends because...

Reason 1
My face is super bengis that even the Lion will not dare to eat my face.

Reason 2
I don't know what to talk about. If you shut the fuck up then I shut the fuck up as well.

Reason 3
I sometimes offend people without me, myself knowing. Like that time with Fai and some other people that I got into a fight with.

Reason 4
I have anger management. My mood swings are super bad.

Okay now I feel bad.

Bleh.

I hate myself!

Really!

And I'm super fuck careless lah!

I could have gotten so much more for Physics but NO.

I didn't read thse question properly and tried to find A when A was given in the question.

I wa suppose to find W but I didn't because my eye was like fucking cock so I got the question wrong.

Ah!

Alot of shits happening AND!

I have MT SA1 this Friday after school and it last till 6.30 so...

*screams and pulls out hair from scalp*

I'm done.

I'll update when I finish shaving my hair and my eyebrows bald...

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4:09 PM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I used to say I didn't care.

And I felt that I didn't care too.

But when it all came down to that moment.

That single moment.

Everything mattered.

The moment I stepped foot on stage, I could feel the adrenaline in my blood.

I tooked a deep breath as hundreds of eyes, including those of the judges, looked at our choir.

Then we sang.

Goosebumbs came and invaded my body.

Okay. Cut the crap. No one's interested to hear about goosebumbs or yakedy yak yak

Fine :P

So yeah.

I'll just fast forward to the results.

*clears throat*

Choir No. 14
Ang Mo Kio Secondary School...

Me and Kellie:
Omg omg omg omg omg omg. Please be a Silver. Omg omg omg omg omg omg *Squeezes hand like crazy

Choir No. 15
Bukit Batok Secondary School...

Me and Kellie:
Oh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Omg omg omg omg omg omg. AH! Fuck fuck fuck fuck. Please be a Silver... *Shuts eyes*

SILVER

Choir:
*screams and some started crying*

Me and Kellie:
OMG! Fuck yeah! Silver! *hugs*

So yeah :)

I was super elated that our hardship and efforts had paid off.

So everybody screamed and some cried.

I saw Sharon cried and I started ~~crying~~.

That Silver really meant alot to us, especially the Sec 4 leaders.

Even though ~~Germ~~ said But a Gold would be nicer. in a super 'I can so slap his face' kind of tone, I didn't get mad.

They who said that a Silver was just a Silver doesn't understand.

The pain the the Sec 4s have to go through, it's nothing compared to what the rest had done.

THAT Silver was a Gold With Honours for us.

Thank you, my family :)

I hope that the bond that we had established will stay forever :)

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So photos :)

This photo of me and Yijun was kind of unglam. We asked Suchi to take a photo of us eating Ice-Kachang and we weren't ready yet and Suchi just took our photo and it turned out nice :)

My eyes looks weird in this one...

Annual Awards Ceremony

I miss my abang terberaks... Nuff said :P

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You're reaching out
And no one hears you cry
You're freaking out again
'Cause all your fears
Remind you another dream has come undone
You feel so small and lost like you're the only one
You wanna scream 'cause you're
Desperate

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light

You're in the dark
There's no one left to call
And sleep's your only friend
but even sleep
Can't hide you from all those tears
And all the pain and all the days
You wasted pushin' them away
It's your life, it's time you face it

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands to your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
'Cause you're desperate; desperate
'Cause you're desperate; and now

You know that things have gotta change
You can't go back you'll find your way
And day by day
You start to come alive

You want somebody, just anybody
To bring some peace on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
'Cause you're desperate, desperate
'Cause you're desperate, tonight
Oh desperate, so desperate
Tonight, tonight
Desperate, desperate

I feel guilty that Bill's not on my mind anymore.

I don't think of him 24/7 and it scares me alot.

And...

I wonder if I should hold on...

I don't think it's worth the time but some part of me just wants to stay and wait.

Yes.

I'm desperate...

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I'm black and dark.

Really.

Look at this

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I saw Kenneth ore yesterday and he just suddenly look so white.

The Louisse told me that he never play soccer for a long time so his natural skin colour came back :P

How cool is that!

Haha.

Ok ok.

XD

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12:16 PM

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Lethargic?

Nope.

Tired?

Nope.

Moody?

Nope.

PMSing?

Nope.

Then?

I'm fine :)

Oh wait.
I have something to say...

When you put some ~~fucked~~ up Sec Four leaders with some ~~fucked~~ up Sec Three juniors, what will you get?

Easy XD

A fucked up Choir :D

I have no more comments.

I'm just singing my way through it.

I'm just don't give a fucking shit anymore...

Sorry but really.

I'm starting to hate something that I love.

Wonderful...

Fun what :D

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Had a million tests today :)

There's Math Test tomorrow :)

WEEDUU!
You don't know how excited I am :)

I haven't even completed my homework :)

Not going to... Yeah.

NOT going to.

Sentence of the Day :D
Adam's Bored Fat Pig

Yeah so I was walking to the Berth where 243W was and I was like a walking Mambang with my stupid broom hair that was due to bunning in choir and it was so crowded that I was cursing and swearing and this guy, who was standing behind me, sneezed at my face ~~on purpose~~ and didn't even have the nerve to say sorry but I shrugged it off and got up the bus and it sucked even more because I was standing beside this woman who had like three kids with her and one was crying Mama! Mama! Mama! and the mum didn't even bother because she was so engrossed in her phone conversation that was about Christiano Ronaldo and I wanted to shove her down the bus steps so badly because firstly, I was carrying a stupid and humongously huge bag that can even shove an elephant down the river and secondly, the bus was fucking crowded and that stupid woman only cared about Ronaldo so I was swearing in my head Fuck some more lah. Fuck some more lah. Make sure another ten babies pop out of that rusty vagina of yours so lesson that was learnt was that NEVER STAND BESIDE A WOMAN WHO LOOKS LIKE SHE HAS JUST FUCKED LAST NIGHT AND NEVER EVER STAND BESIDE A WOMAN WHO IS TALKING ABOUT RONALDO BECAUSE YOUR EYES WILL EVENTUALLY CORRODE AND YOU CAN'T USE THE RARE CHICKEN FROM CUBA THING AS AN EXCUSE TO YOU DOCTOR AND! NEVER EVER STAAND BESIDE AN APEK WHO HAS AN UGLY BUSH ARMPIT BECAUSE IT SMELLS LIKE ROTTEN PEE.

So yeah :)

I'm happy today :D

P(Getting that rare chicken from Cuba out of my head) = 0
P(That rare chicken from Cuba invading my thoughts) = 1
P(Me forgetting that rare chicken from Cuba) = 0

So you tell me what I should do?

Suchi's fat
Brintha's fat x 2
Syafiqah's elephant x 10

What did I do to get such fate from Diana??

Haha.

Hmmm....

SAKALAKEWAKENEK!

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8:33 PM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy Birthday to Gerard Arthur Way

I forgot to wish on Thurs.

Punch me on the head, please and thank you :D

Mio sucks.

Really.

I wanted to cut it's boobs out but the thing is...

IT HAS NO BOOBS. DUH.

Spent the whole day peeling Sotong's skin.

Then alot of shit happened but ~~malas~~ to type.

Ate Durian :)
Finally!

Going to watch my brother korek his hidung later.

I have no idea why I'm watching him.

I got into lots of trouble with my parents.
I'll kill that person and cook him/her in curry if I find out who tagged that on my blog. My ears was on the verge of corroding.

Mind you.

I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING BOYFRIEND!

And I'm happy that I don't have one.

I don't give a shit if you have one because I don't give a kahoots.

So please dear mother.

STOP FREAKING ACCUSING ME OF SUCH THINGS WHEN IT'S CLEARLY NOT TRUE!!

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So, Sya. What's your greatest fear?

Allah. Duh.

No no. I mean. What else are you afraid of?

Hmm... Men with alot of armpit hair.

Huh? That's ridiculous.

No really.
I'm traumatised by that bushy thing under the armpits.
Some uncles and aunties are just super disgusting.
I saw this aunty with very long ones and she was wearing sleeveless mind you.

O...Kay...

Yeah.

What are you doing right now?

Koreking my hidung.

...

No. Just joking. I'm bored...

Well, me too.

You're not helping.

Am I suppose to help?

Are you even here to help in the first place?

Huh? Did I say I was here to help?

Just shut up.

It's not my fault that you can't shut me up.

Sometimes I wonder why I even brought you up in the first place...

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Matt Hardy just turned into an ugly monster

Dear Irfaniah a.k.a Abang Consipated,

I'm deeply sorry to inform you that Matt Hardy has turned against Jeff Hardy.
The good new is, Jeff Hardy is the World Champion now but is facing his ~~stupid~~ brother at Wrestlemania.
I just want to say that Matt Hardy is kinda stupid.
No wonder Lita left him for Kane and Edge before she retired, which sucks because I miss her lots.

Ok ok.

Better not say anymore.

Later Irfan's computer will die a very tragic death.

I wonder what Bill is doing right now...

*thinks*

WOAH! 7246 TIMES!!!

It was only like 5000 last month XD

Gosh.

I feel so bad for not updating anything anymore...

I still owe about 5 one-shots to 5 people.

Bleh!!!!!!

Yakedy yak yak yak.

I love Durians so please get me Durians for my birthday :)

But I don't mind getting a packet of tissue like I did last year :D
I love that packet of tissue XD

I'm talking cock am I?

I'm sooo bored...

My inner Syafiqah is bored so she can't keep me company and it sucks....

Bleh.

I'll find something to do...

Maybe I should like shave my head or something...

Nein.

Uh...

I'm done :P

I wonder...
Hmm...
Maybe?
Maybe not?
Haha.
You're ridiculous, Sya.

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6:09 PM

Friday, April 10, 2009

I feel so much better today.

I was a wrecked cow yesterday.

Today I'm only a wrecked sheep.

Not so bad luh.

Yesterday was...

Fucking bullshit.

Really

The whole day I was like
Fuck. Eight more hours. Three more hours. Yay! School end! Fuck. Got Math remedial. Yay! Remedial end! Fuck. Got Choir. Yay! Choir end! Fuck. Must go home.

Alot of swearing here and there.

Then there was also Physics Test :P

I think I'm going to fail but I find the test quite easy since it was from TYS.

Bleh.

There was also History test but it was open book so I pretty much lifted from here and there.

I sooo hate it this year...

Stupid ~~O level~~.

I really don't know what to write for blogs anymore.

My life is so boring and uninteresting.

Bleh.

I don't even have ideas to write anymore :P

Actually, I have a plot but I don't know if I should make a story out of it or a one-shot...

Hm...

Maybe I'll give you some inside someday.

It's quite different but I'm afraid that it'll turn out shitty.

Bleh.

Kk.

I'm done

Very contradicting...
Caught me off guard for a second :P

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9:40 AM

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Well, let's go back to middle of the day that starts it all :D
I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling :D
And then the Red ones help me fly :D
And the Blue ones make me fall :D
And I think I'll blow my head against the ceiling :D
And as the fragments of my head begins to fall :D
Fall on your tongue like pixie dust :D
Just think happy thoughts :D

Well, I started the day with almost getting hit by a stupid taxi XD

NOT my fault okay.

Stupid cekopek uncle!
Don't know how to drive is it?

Then we had free period...

Blah blah blah

Let's skip school :P

Brintha finally curse and swear :D

She said BABI CINA!

Really happy for meine liebe :D

I wish I was there to hear her say that to the fat lady XD

Hm...

Just super tired.

VERY tired.

Stupid choir...

Can't wait till SYF is fucking over...

Bleh.

Oh and I realise life can be very tragic.

It's all fine and the next thing you know, it crashes and burn in front of your eyes.

I'll be here if you need me aite :D That's what Bimbotic cousins are for :D

I can't bloody wait for fudging Friday

There's a new grey cat outside my house :D

Okay.

I just have nothing to type about.

Bleh.

Have millions of homework.

Should have asked Mama if I can skip school tomorrow.

Skipping yesterday was a bad choice :P

Kk.

Guten Ahbend :D

Oh oh!

Read this :D

Sound is your sixth sense. You're probably not surprised since you might be found rockin' a pair of headphones at anytime. So how does this relate to your inner voice? A person gifted with clairaudio (clear hearing) is someone very in-tune with sounds. Often a clairaudio "hears" their inner voice or gut feeling. For example, if you were about to do something you might regret (like, hooking up with your best friend's sweetie), you might hear a voice telling you to watch out or reevaluate your choice. You might also hear music at odd times or someone speaking even when no one is around (or when you dream). According to some, you might even be able to hear voices when someone is passing or has died. Now, we probably wouldn't advertise the fact that you hear voices, but you have to admit, it's pretty cool...

So that explains the weird sounds at night :P

Yes.

There were times when I was about to go to sleep and someone said my name very loudly and it wasn't any one of my family members XD

I have nothing to say...

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5:54 PM

Sunday, April 5, 2009

I don't know whether I should laugh.

I don't know whether I should just keep quiet and still laugh silently.

Haha.

It's expected.

All guys are the same.

The ~~Ezzat~~ species, you call it.
Oklah. Not Ezzat species. More like uh... MoonDog species. Haha XD

Why do I say this?

Haha.

You know, it's was an amusing story that it cured my headache :D

Nvm.

I'll just keep it to myself.

Haha.

Can use it to make me laugh when I'm bored and in need of a cure for headache :D

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Okay.

Different topic now.

Okay.

Now got no topic anymore :P

Haha.

Had maulid.

Blah blah blah.

Got to know that there's this German Sheik near one Bugis mosque.

Need to check him out :)

Haha.

Ai ai ai.

Srill amused.

Haha.

Nevermind.

I'll be nice.
I hope I can XD

Haha.

Kk.

Guten Tag.

Why must you be so far...
Bleh.
It sucks waiting.
I still am waiting.

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5:51 PM

Saturday, April 4, 2009

I'm going to ~~complain~~ later :D

Too happy talking to Atikah :)

Haha.

Miss her loots.

Haha.

She's meine Twinny-Toot.

Haha.

Don't sad aite liebe :) I'll be here to die with you if anything to happens :D

Okay...

Now back to ~~complaining~~.

I'm kind of frustrated.
I'm actually considering quitting SYF.
Today's practise was very stupid in my point of view.
I've never been so angry at Choir.
Firstly, the leaders are just putting loads and loads of stones behind my backs.
I know they're tired too but everyone is different.
They scold us because one by one, people are starting to fall sick.
But it's not like we want to fall sick.
I'm saying this in my point of view.
I'm not trying to offend anyone.
I'm just typing.
I think that the morning practices are abundant.
At least, it is to me.
I have to come early from Tuesday to Friday because of Choir and TAF.
I rarely have sleep at night and I have to wake up at 5am every morning so that I can reach school on time.
In the morning, not everyone has the voice to sing.
Thus, they force and this will lead to people having sore throat.
Just because you're down with sore throat, it doesn't mean that you had eaten sweets the day before.
I don't know about you people.
I actually agree with the seniors now.
I think that our batch is ~~bad~~.
We had more than six months to prove to them that we're worthy of being leaders but we failed.
I don't see the point in trying so hard anymore.
I also hate the fact that sectionals are dragged when clearly many people are down and out.
I don't see the point in pushing people so hard.
You'll just wear them down and on the SYF day, it'll be over.
I don't know.
I just fucking hate Choir right now.
And then you have Rosel.
The most wonderful person in the world wide world.
I'm done

I'm done :D

Haha.

I have pictures to upload but I'm lazy so some other time aite :)

I miss ATIKAH, IRFANIAH, FAIZIYYAH and SYUHADAH!!!!

Still waiting
very nervous

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4:07 PM

Friday, April 3, 2009

Nothing much to update now.

Very drained.

Um...

Extremely nervous right now :)

Fai wrote me a story.

Okay.

Not a story but somewhat an MSN conversation with me and (insert name).

It was nice :D

If only it will come true.
Yeah. Dream on Syafiqah...

Very drained and sick lately.

Been getting into bed by 8pm.

Yeah yeah.

I'll update again because right now, I'm still lost XP.

I'm slowly breaking out of my shell
But I'm worried for what you might say
I'venever done this before but...
Now that I'm slowly doing it,
I'm finally realise how good it feels like to chase after something that you desire.

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3:20 PM