My Chemical Life

moved

2010-05-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

Officially moved to
XeroxIFF.livejournal.com :)

See ya

Epic fail

2010-05-03T15:59:00.002+08:00

Attempt to understand Physics was an epic fail.
Going to cut hair my later.
Fani, come quick leh...
I'm bored :(

I'm sick

2010-05-01T21:42:00.002+08:00

I'm sick.
I'm fucking sick.

I don't want it means I don't want it.
Why can't they fucking understand?

I don't want to depend on people.
It's fucking stupid.

Why can't they just understand this once?
Is it that fucking hard?

I'd rather work for it than to just shake my fucking damn legs and open up my hands.
I'm not like you.
I work for things.
I'm not like you.

Let me repeat.
I'M fucking NOT LIKE YOU.

IDC

2010-04-29T09:32:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure if TH is still breathing our air but they were for the previous two days.

I don't care.
I'll just wait.

They're breathing our air...
No.
They were breathing our air.

Gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm relaxed :D
*takes a deep breath*

Oh my Bill...

That's it.
LJ for me :)

EG1 math

2010-04-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

Doing EG1 Math.
Might be changing blogskin.
If not, I might be switching to LJ :)

PMSing

2010-04-24T12:05:00.003+08:00

I've been PMS-ing alot, haven't I?
Well, it's that time of the month XD

I don't know.

I don't get it.
Yes, I like TH.
I like TH alot.
Though, I'm not as obsess or as crazy as before.

So?

People ask me why didn't I try to get tickets to the concert at Malaysia.
I simply answer It's at Malaysia and t's complicated.

There was even one particular girl who said I was a poser because I didn't even bother to get the tickets.

Guess what?

I did didn't bother to get the tickets.
Simply because I have no time, I don't have the money since I need it for school and do you hell think that my parents will allow me to go to Malaysia just to see TH despite knowing my love them??

So what if I'm surrounded by people who wave their tickets in front of my face?
Yes, I might feel a little jealous but who wouldn't, right?

I'm a patient girl.
I'll wait.

I've been waiting for them for two fucking years, mind you.
So it won't hurt waiting a little while more, right?

So fuck you bitches because I'm fine with missing their concert at Malaysia.
They'll come to Singapore sooner and I'll just wait for that time to come :D

Well, gotta go.
Heading to SCC's get to know you session.
Hopefully, hey don't make me sing -.-

Geil

2010-04-23T13:52:00.001+08:00
Okay.
I take back what I had said.
School ROCKS XD

lalala

2010-04-21T00:18:00.002+08:00
I think I sort of hate school.
No reason why.
Wait.
There's one but I'm not too fond of sharing -.-

Fuckedy fuck fuck.
Stop being a whiner and live with it...

I think I will.

There's much a girl can take

2010-04-17T19:26:00.003+08:00

There's only much a seventeen year old can take.

I miss Anakin Skywalkers :(
I didn't want camp to end :(

Blah blah blah

2010-04-03T23:30:00.008+08:00
At times like this, I wish I could just hit my head against the wall till my face is all disfigured to the point of beyond repair...
If that even made sense -.-

I've got this funny feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just don't know how to describe it in words.

Urgh....

Why can't I be more outgoing?
Why can't I be more friendly?
Why can't I be thinner?
Why can't I be more prettier?

Ok, let's strike out the last two.
It's stupid.

Why can't I be more outgoing?
Why can't I be more friendly?
Why can't I be thinner?
Why can't I be more prettier?

Things like that but it's the first one that bothers me.
I don't really care about my looks.
I think I look fine the way I am.

It's just....

BLEH
I think I read too much DracoMalfoy fanfiction... XP

Let me just indulge myself XD

Personally, I think this movie was the best he has ever been ;)
However, it SUCKED that he didn't get the Riley part for Eclipse ... XP
One more reason to NOT look forward to that movie XD

Ich liebe Young Draco :D
Ich liebe Older Draco :D

Did I mention that I love Draco Malfoy??
You did -.-
Oopss. I did?? Oh XD

Well, I have work tomorrow so I think I better crash XD
Yeah, you've been saying that for the past four hours...
You can't blame me.
Draco kept me up.
It's not like he forced you too -.-
But he-
Go and sleep!
But can I read just one mor-
GO AND SLEEP!
Fine, I will.
Bitch
Sucker
Muggle lover XP
You read a DM/HG fanfic...
So?
Hermione's a huaman.
So?
She's looks good with Draco.
So that means you're a muggle lover too.
No.
I'm a Draco Lover.
Who loves Hermione.
No.
In my world, it's different.
Yeah yeah. Keep dreaming bitch.
I am I am!
*dreams*
Ke Bu Ke Yi Ai Wo leh?
*drools*
That's it. She has lost it.
Good night people...

BlackBerry Bold9000

2010-03-26T18:31:00.001+08:00

I SWEAR you'll be mine
*evil grin*

Totally bored

2010-03-25T16:59:00.002+08:00

Mum and Dad are sick XD
I think it's because I was away from from for two days XD
Perasan nabget aku :P

I'm pretty bored.
There's nothing to watch on TV.
There's nothing to do on the net.
My brain's still blocked from ideas.

Yeap...

Pretty... Boring don't you think??

I might be going to the CosPlay event this Saturday at WCP.
With one condition [My parents are cured of high fever]

School's starting soon and I've been getting the same response from most of my mates and that is to get attached once they get to Poly XD

To be honest, it would be nice to have a boyfriend and I have to admit, I do want one but...
I'm not so desperate XD
I'll just wait for the right one to come by XD

Lalalalalalalalalala

Soooo siannnnnnnn......................................

Mobile Broadband

2010-03-18T00:18:00.003+08:00
All of a sudden, my sleepiness faded away.
Wanna know why?
Because I'm trying out my MobileBroadband ^^

It's quite slow but it's not THAT slow XD

Ni Ke Bu Ke Yi Ai Wo XD
Man, dream Sya DREAMMMMMMM!!!!

Bloody fuck

2010-03-11T11:21:00.002+08:00
I really think I don't care anymore.
I'm just a seventeen year old girl.
Yeah, that's a lame excuse Syafiqah.'
And you're almost seventeen but not yet.

Bloody ~~fuck~~ it then.

Brotherly love

2010-03-11T00:22:00.003+08:00
Soooo sweet!

Bill: I love you too

Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

Okay.
I'm officially a gay sissy that won't stop squeezing my guitar because of THAT XD

Won't really blog much.
I've kind of lost interest in blogging because I'm pretty much tired to do so XP

It's kind of weird because my working hours had been cut down drastically and I have more time for myself, my friends and family and my preparations for Poly BUT I'm still tired.

I think it's the stress from the Poly registrations -_-
It's bloody damn tedious...
So much idiotic things to do...

Bleh

You don't have to watch this next vid but...
IT'S BILL!!

Ai ai ai ai ai
How can you NOT resist this guy?!

*Melts....*

BeatBoxer

2010-03-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

Can't help but to blog about this guy.
He is AWESOME!!
How the hell does he do that??

Poly forms so tedious... -_-

Nothing's up. Just confessions

2010-03-05T12:10:00.003+08:00

I love Rit and I love Bel 8D
Gaune geil!!

Nothing's up.
Just confessions.

Waiting for work to start :)
Can't wait to meet my ~~manager~~ DEAREST!

I had alot to think about yesterday and I know that what I had said might make a certain someone hate me more but I sort of don't care.
~~Okay. Maybe I'm lying XP~~

I wanna start afresh.
When I look back and think about what I had done in Primary and Secondary school, I was like Fcuk? I did that?

To think that if I did't do all those things, my current situations would be different and maybe I won't be a tad too depress at some times because I can never let my past go XP

Well, I guess Poly would be a great place to start anew.

Blah blah blah
I'm SOOO EMO XD
Haha!

lala

2010-03-04T14:03:00.003+08:00

I was suppose to blog but I blanked out all of a sudden XD

Tokyo Drift

2010-02-23T20:07:00.003+08:00

Currently listening to Tokyo Drift from Slvester XD
It reminded me of when Diana and I were still in Sec 1 or 2.
We were going around screaming TOOOOKKKKYYYYOOOOOOOOOO, thinking it was lyrics to the songs XD
Damn, we were stupid back then XD

Even found a video of Diana, Fani and I, making stupid faces during free period XD
That picture above is the memory of that day XD
We were bored XD
I'll upload the video when I'm not lazy.
You can even hear Diyana's laughter in the background!

Haiz...

I'm going to work at least twice a week from next month onwards cause I figured that I needed the rest before Poly starts DX
So yeah.
Please don't ask me out.

I think I just got to the point where I started asking what had I done with my life.
I'm kind of envious of people who had achieve more than I do but that's life, right?
And I'm perfectly happy with the way things are going for me.
However, I still wished it could have been better :P

But I don't understand something.

Why do people have to take away that one second of happiness from my life?
As in, by not letting me be happy.

I don't know.
I want to let everything out here but I'm afraid that people might get offended and cry, saying "I thought you were my friend! Friends are suppose to listen to each other! They're suppose to help each other! Not break them down!" before committing suicide -_-

Man, such a typical story -_-

Well, there's work tomorrow so...
Tata!

lala

2010-02-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna crash now...
Freaking tired

andy six

2010-02-16T23:46:00.003+08:00

He's charming :D
Look at the vid :D
At 00:25, he smiled and I literally melted into a puddle of human fluid...
Ai ai ai ai ai ai XD

Hehe XD

Felt shitty just now but with Fani's help, I felt so much better :D
Thanks liebling :)

Oh!
And look at Fred dancing at the beginning :D
It's GAUNE GEIL!

So yeah :D

Gonna crash :)
Nacht!

want

2010-02-15T17:14:00.002+08:00

I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous.
I want someone who would sing to me at random moments, someone who's more goofy than romantic.
A boy who'd throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb.
Someone who'd bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win.
A guy who'd make fun of me just to hear my laugh.
He'd play with my hair all the time and surprise me with 25 cent rings.
Someone who I could share lollipops with and lay on a blanket with to count the stars.
We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other and squirt water guns at each other in the house.
But mostly, someone who would be my bestfriend and would never break my heart.

Found that on a blog that I randomly hopped to.
Sweet, isn't it?

Happy CNY :D
Vdae was awesome :)

How I wish I was spending it with him instead...

400th

2010-02-12T12:31:00.003+08:00

My 400th post XD
At least, I think it is XD

Haiz...
I feel stupid...

Really stupid.

It's that phase all over again and I hate it.
I really do.

Well, maybe it's just a phase that will wear off in a month...
Or maybe a year DX

Bill, where are you?

latest obsession

2010-02-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

My current ~~obsession~~.
Hehe XD
He looks alot like ~~him~~ XP

I like him :)
Even though he looked quite ~~ugly~~ in his other movie -_-
But who cares?
I don't XD

It's surprising that my internet's not lagging despite it being 11.39pm.

Well, gonna watch HanaYoriDango till late morning XD
Teehee

Need to charge my Ipod anyway so yeah XD
My 400 bucks officially flew away today XP

Well then, guten nacht everyone!

Jasmine

2010-02-05T12:05:00.003+08:00

It's kind of eerie how people are going away very quickly :|

Well, hope you Rest In Peace Jasmine You :)
Ich liebe dich!

It's kinda weird seeing only four instead of five now...
Oh well.
Hizaki, I'm still on my way :)

Haha

2010-02-03T11:17:00.002+08:00

I swear today's post isn't connected to the picture XD
I just like it that's all XD

Heading to the bank in 8 mins before I head to work at 2 XD
Oh, and everytime I hear the word CPF, my heart aches DX

Bleh.

I think I'm desperate...
Really really DESPERATE....

Bleh.

Got into AVT in NgeeAnn ;)
LOVE IT!
My ultimate dream course!!
Even though Dad die die wanted me to take Accounting since I qualified for it XD
Sorry Daddy

Hm...
What else to write about...

Oh!

Call me insane.
Please.

Just a trophy

2010-01-30T17:25:00.002+08:00

I don't feel like a daughter.
I feel like a trophy.

A trophy.
A child whom the parents keep, just to show off to people.
A daughter, just to bring honor to the family's name.

I don't feel loved.
I don't.

Most would say when your parents scold you, it is because they love you.
I don't feel like they love me.
I feel that they're just tearing my already torn self apart.

They don't appreciate whatever I had done.
Be it my PSLE grade, my O levels grade or the fact that I'm trying my best to lighten up their burden.

Ever since I started working, besides the usual food I eat at home, I had never asked them for a single cent.
I offered to pay my own bills, thus, lightening their burden by a hundred bucks.
I pay for my own food when we go out together,as a family.

I'm tired of asking them to pay because you want to know why?
They'll just give a face, as if I asked them to buy me a ten dollar meal.

I've never disobeyed them.
I came back home at ten.
I don't smoke.
If I'm not allowed to go out, I won't.
I don't fuck guys.

And all I asked for was to accompany Irfaniah at her house and a wave of tsunami was hurled on my back, as if I went to her house to play with some guy.

Yeah.

I'm just a piece of trophy they want to keep because I'm the only idiot who can actually cover up for my stupid brothers.

Don't get me wrong.
I love my parents but I wonder...

Do they even love me at all?

I'm going to listen to Higinia...
I hope it helps me to calm down.

2010-01-18T10:32:00.002+08:00

It's 10.42am.
Just woke up XD
I'm heading back to bed after this.
I'll update soon.
I PROMISE.
I SWEAR.

Tag replies

Hikari: Trust me. He's damn hot XD Kau memang, mat saleh korek hidon pun kau suke XD
Suchi: I thought you knew?? Now I'm planning to dye the lower half of my hair blonde and leave the upper half red XD
AtikahF: Serious? It's coconut? No wonder I don't like it XD
DB: Woah. Nasib rambut kau tk terbakar XD
DB: There must be a logical resaon why lah XD Man, I wished I could go XP
Saiful: Haha XD Don't worry lah XD You're smart. You're sure to juggle studies and playtime like a pro XD
Dyra: Haha XD I see XD

I guess that's it...
Gonna crash.
My head hurts DX

I miss meine freundes...

the rev

2010-01-09T17:43:00.003+08:00

In Loving Memory Of
Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan

I know it's kind of late but I didn't have time to post this up when I found out last week XP

I'm going to miss him DX

---

Haha XD

Went to NgeeAnnPoly yesterday with Tikah :)
It's was FUN!
I got to save a patient's life, using that electric thing XD
And we got to try many things XD

I'm so totally going for AVT.
Basically, all the showcases were interesting but AVT's one was gaune geil!

It was basically GEIL 8D

Then...
There was this someone...

Hahaha XD

BUT!
Only it's only between Atikah and I XD
*squeals

Then after that, I went to JP to buy meine Humanoid but sadly, it's out of stock so I needed to reserve it DX
Getting it by Sunday DX

Then headed to Popular.
Initially, it was to buy my mum's stationary but then...
I ended up buying this...

Haha!
I think about half my pay is gone XD

Planning to buy the other two books from this series XD
PS, I read all of them in Sec 2 but it was AWESOME so I wanted to buy and keep it XD

I guess that's all...
I'm hungry and I need to bath... NOW

I like Bill :)
Nuff said :)

Lala

2010-01-04T23:52:00.002+08:00
Testing.
Testing.
I hope this works XD
If my internet lags then I'm gonna post this some other time.

Basically, I just finished bathing XD
Tired, definitely XP
Been working full shifts none stop since Friday XP
And I don't think it's going to end till Thurs or Friday cause Qiu Zi sprained her ankle DX
That really sucks for her DX
But that means more money for me :D

I don't really have much time on the comp nowadays but I'll try to blog XD
However, I doubt many will read because it's pretty boring XD

So...
Wanna know something?

Just now, at work, I went down to the Bubble Tea shop and bought myself a ChocolateMint MilkTea with Pearl.
Then, there was this EurasianGuy, about fifteen to sixteen years old.
He came to me and asked if the pearls were eggs because he wanted to buy but the eggs looked disgusting.
So I was like thinking "Eggs?? Wth!"
So I said it wasn't eggs.
Then he asked me what it was and I simply said that I didn't know.
So after a decent five minute conversation, he left and went to the Jewelry store nearby while I went to the toilet.

Here's the funny part.
Did I mention he was fucking hot??
Because he is SMOKING hot!

I was strolling out the toilet, while sipping on some of my MilkTea and I smiled when I saw that guy again.
However, my daydream turned into a nightmare when I saw him....
Scratching his butt and desperately trying to pull his underwear in public
So I choked on some MilkTea and coughed out a pearl, which was disgusting.

So moral of the story is...
AngMoh guys are as disgusting as Asian guys -_-

I think this is going to be a LONG post so feel free to not read it *winks*

Showed Mama and Papa their bags yesterday and this is the sentence I kept emphasizing to them.
If you keep on blabbing, I'm going to give this bags back.
And they simply said thanks and the subject was dropped :D
Geil!

Very happy now :D
Wanna know why??
Because in just four days, I had about 300 or more views at Quizilla XD
The number might be small but it's pretty huge to me XD
I feel so happy that people actually read and like my stories XD

Lalalalalalalalalalalalala

Seriously...
There's so many things I want to type but so little time!

Oh!
And that previous post, right.
It's not to thrash Faiziyyah :)
Seriously.
For once, it's not to thrash Fai or anything :)

Okay then...
Guten Nacht!

broken

2009-12-31T21:35:00.002+08:00
Life's great, huh?

My Dad got mad that I got my debit card.
My Dad got mad that I was out with Cindy, promoting TH.
My Dad got mad that I dyed my hair red.
My Dad got angry everytime I go out.
And now, my Dad's mad that I'm getting extensions.

I can't seem to do anything, right?

My life's pretty perfect, don't you think?
My life's pretty much a roller coaster, right?

So Faiziyyah, tell me.
Are you still jealous?

Happy New Year.

lalala

2009-12-31T15:14:00.004+08:00

That's the brochure Cindy and I did for the TH promo XD
We took around 3-4 hours doing it at MAC DX
Won't elaborate more XD

So guess what popped in my mailbox yesterday??
MY DEBIT CARD!
Gaune geil!

*squeals*
Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

I'm thinking about getting extensions.
Those in platinum blonde.
What do you think?

Lala

2009-12-29T14:06:00.002+08:00

Current status: Fucking Hot and Sweaty
Why?
~~Fucking~~ fever.

Couldn't go to work today DX
Quite sad
Wanted to tease Qiu Zi about that Jewelry guy XD
She's more of a friend than a manager, to be honest XD
She's SUPER cool!

Haha XD

Can't wait for my outing with Cindy tomorrow :D
Mum didn't help with her words.
I got angry.
Now we're okay :D
SO EXCITED!

Hmm...

Don't feel like going for the Egypt exhibition.
1) Malas
2) Money contraints

So yeah.
Sorry people.

PayDay is five days away.
Excited?
Definitely :)

Buying Daddy a leather sling bag that's about fifty bucks and buying Mummy this black bag that she wanted XD
Well, I'm buying them secretly of course so please do me a favor and shut up about it :)
Then the two monkeys, I'll be treating them to food XD

Haha XD
I guess that's my plan XD

Bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh.
I really can't wait for results XP

Guten tag!

2009-12-25T10:44:00.003+08:00

Miss those girls up there DX
Can't wait to meet them XD

Hmm...

Nothing much going on XD

Except that I got to know a new friend :D
Cindy is her name and Bill is her man XD
We're sharing him XD

She's nice :)
I met her during the THSG outing and she was the only girl that I could actually click with, besides Bel.
I miss BelaBelaSteam!
The rest were like... ~~Bitches~~.
Well, some of them anyway XD

Haha!

So we're planning this thing where we will walk around Orchard and ask people if they have ever heard of TH.
If they haven't, then, we're going to let them listen to some short chorus from their song and get them to write down their reviews on a sketch book which Cindy will decorate XD

Previously, we wanted to do a video of the interview and put it on Youtube on New Year's day but Cindy came to a conclusion that people might get a little spooked because we're filming them XD
So the sketch book idea came along :D

I'm doing the brochures and...
I LOVE IT!
Well, the cover only XD
I still have the info part to do XD

Bleh.
Just the two of us :D
I like that :D

Hopefully, if TH come next year, we'll give the sketch book to them as a special present XD
*hugs Cindy for the wonderful ideas*

I feel bad because most of the wonderful ideas were from her XD

*melts*

lucky

2009-12-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

Still love this picture :D

You want to know something?
Staring at Bill for fifteen minutes really got me thinking.
I mean, really thinking.

I mean, I rant alot, right?
And I find it sort of... Pathetic?

No.
SERIOUSLY
I really find myself pathetic.

I'm always complaining silently, being envious of people who have more than what I have.

From Atikah's amazing attitude to socialis to Faiziyyah's time with the malay guys that I can't even click with to my brother's good looks to Bel's amazing Quizilla page visits.
I'm jealous.
I definitely am.

But...

I never realised how lucky I am.

Now, I appreciate my life more and I'm certainly not envious of those around me anymore because I have the one thing that no one can have :)

MY PERFECT LIFE :D

Danke Bill :)
Danke so much for slapping some sense into my 60kilo body XD

Guten Nacht Everyone :D

haha!

2009-12-19T20:45:00.005+08:00

I would so love to touch his nipple piercing :D
I hope he allows XD
Teehee

So...

What does a girl do when she's bored?

...

...

...

...

GIRLY ONLINE MAKEOVERS OF COURSE!
I played the TH one too XD

I personally like the Demi one :D

See.
I told you Red hair rocks :D
I'm soooo dying my hair Red again :D

Blah blah blah blah

Off to write my one-shots :D

LMAROFL

2009-12-18T22:12:00.004+08:00

There's work tomorrow.
Sunday?
Working too :)

Tired?
Definitely but what can I do?
I want cash, liebe :D
Cash to fulfill my every desire :D

Currently chatting with CindyTHSG XD
GEIL

*squeals*
You can't blame him for being super cute :D

Well, for once, my internet's not lagging :D

Test run

2009-12-16T12:05:00.002+08:00
Ok ok.
Just watch World Behind My Wall and I'm speechless so I won't comment XD

Click if you want a KitKat :D

Just got home from work

2009-12-15T23:17:00.003+08:00

Just got back from work :D
I'm dead tired :D

That's Uncle Clifford and his wife, Aunt Sheryl :)
The most cutest couple I've ever met XD
Wanna know why?

Aunt Sheryl: Wah! Must tape altogether ah?
Uncle Clifford: *concentrating very hard*
Aunt Sheryl: How come must do all this one?
Uncle Clifford: Aiya. Don't disturb me. If not, later I'll BOX you.
Syafiqah: O_O..... *starts to snicker*

Haha!

Debating whether I should watch World Behind My Wall DX
But Bel says it's good XP
Maybe I should XD

Ps. Note to self: Never listen to TH when I'm working or I'll start farting like mad.

rette mich

2009-12-14T12:22:00.004+08:00

I swear I'm not jealous XD
Seriously, I'm not XD
It's understandable, right?

Rette Mich The Saga
Almost done with it :D
Not telling you what it's about XD
You'll have to find out... Next year XD

Ich liebe work :D

frust

2009-12-09T21:37:00.009+08:00

Frustrated.
Urgh XP

Things To Get Done
~~1) Get Job~~
~~2) Change Account Type~~
~~3) Get Debit Card~~
4) Get Humanoid ~~FanPack~~DeluxeEdition
5) Buying~~shipping~~ in Singapore

I guess that's my plan XP
Urgh.
I've never beeen so frustrated about this XP

Mum and Dad swore I've gone obsess with ~~BillKaulitz~~TokioHotel XD
Haha!
Nein.
I'm not obsess XD
I swear!

Bill was in the newspaper today :D
Hehe XD

work

2009-12-07T14:39:00.003+08:00

That's work XD
There's practically no one about 96% of the time XD
Great manager :D
Great colleagues :D
Simply great :D

In love with this shoes XD

Hehe XD

Nothing much to say XP
Updating for the sake of updating XD

Fani and Tikah are coming over to my house later :D
WEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
Another gathering!!!!

Rant

2009-12-04T14:59:00.004+08:00

It's just got to a point where it got me thinking about a lot of things.
Yes. This should be a ranting session.

I don't know.
Everything just starts to kick in and I'm very... Moody?
I think so.

How about the time when Diana and I fought?
Some said it was karma because we~~Diana and I~~ thrashed people back in Sec 1 XD

Karma
Hm...
Do you believe in Karma?
Nein.
I don't.
That's why I'm laughing.
Karma.
Pfft.

It amuses me what kind of secrets I find lying in the black book after O levels.
It got me thinking if everything in my secondary school life was just for show.
You know.
Just the sake of having FRIENDS to keep you accompany.
So that you won't be alone.
Not that I'm saying I'm doing that. I don't. I cherish my friends regardless of race and/or religion.

I don't know.

I feel... used in a way that I couldn't really describe it in words.

It's just frustrating everytime I think about it.
I don't know!
Urgh!

Bloody fucking bitch.

Bill's looks hot up there and I can't wait to feed him popiah basah that my mama just fed me :D

work

2009-12-01T17:46:00.000+08:00

Excited for tomorrow :D
Nuff said :D

boring life

2009-11-28T14:10:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went exceptionally well :)
Went to Wak Paini's house and had a great time :)
Even though I didn't get to bond with my cousins alot XP
Then went to Masjid Tentera and...
I MET ATIKAH!!
WEEEEE!!!

Stayed there for a while and chatted with her :D
~~I swear people were gossiping because I was the only girl who didn't wear tudung XD~~
Mum's going crazy over kambing XD

Well...
Nothing much really.
My life is pretty much a bore.

It's boring at home but I'm not really in the mood to go out.
No idea why really XP

There's going to be a JYPS reunion on 5 Dec and many are pestering me to go XD
I'll think about it, again.

I swear this is boring so don't read if you don't like boring things XD

Planning to get Humanoids by end of Dec.
Just need to find myself someone that has PayPal or get myself one, which is kind of impossible XP

Nose running.
Throat sore.
No idea why.

Blah blah blah blah blah blah.

Brain's thinking but my fingers are not moving.
They're gonna kill me XP

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Told ya this is a boring post. XP

I updated because Atikah said it was dead XD
Haha!

Tika! Come over to my house for Satay aite!

Haha

2009-11-26T15:19:00.003+08:00
I was just kidding back there XD
I wasn't emo-ing.
Just making jokes XD

Watched Paranormal Activity yesterday night :)
It was geil :D

That's all I can say XD

I better start working on my one-shots XD
~~Bel's one-shot is still stuck in my head and I'm really considering going backpacking in 2012 XD~~
Silly me XD

2009-11-25T14:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I just wish people would just shut up and keep their judgmental comments to themselves.

I don't mind if it's for me but it's a whole different story if it's for my friends, people who you call friends and/or sisters.

It's kind of bullshit, actually.
Ranting and ranting and refusing to listen to other and the continuous ranting.
Trust me.
I'll be at IMH if they don't stop.
I'll think I'll be super crazy that I get myself a nipple piercing like Bill XD

Bleh.

I just wish more people were like Atikah, Irafaniah, Ezabel and Suchi.
It would be really nice to have more of such friends :D

Nuff said :)

Fani's at my house right now and we're having LOTS of fun!!

If only Atikah was here... DX

Lala

2009-11-23T16:50:00.005+08:00
Basically, I'm bored.
But I'm updating anyways XD
Yesterday was very tiring.
My family and I headed out at 8am and we got back home at about 11pm, I think.
Maulid, Wedding and my cuzzin's ceremony.
The wedding was gaune geil :)
Theme was black and red and the deco was fantastic!
Liebe es!

Got to meet my cuzzins again!!
Wee!!
Me and Batisyia Bang-sis, had lots of fun :D
We kinda trashed one of this guy XD
Omg... I feel so bad XD
GUESS GUESS GUESS!!

Then cam-whored, not much but we still did :D Here are pictures.
I'll post the rest of them in FB, aite Butt :D

...

So I created this song just now.
~~Which took 3 hours XP~~
It was kind of inspired by this story that I'm writting XP
I'm not sure if it's good but I was hoping to let you guys have a listen to it XP
Tell me what you think.
If it sucks, just tell me :D
I promise I won't bite, I swear! Hehe
I'm not sure if I like the Lead part... Haizz...

My last words...

I CAN'T BELIEVE BILL GOT HIS NIPPLE PIERCED!!
OH MEINE GOTT!!
MY GOTT!! MY GOTT!! MY GOTT!!
OH MEINE GOTT!!
HE GOD IT DAMN FUCKING PIERCED!!
AND I'M SPEECHLESS ABOUT IT!!
HIS NIPPLE IS PIERCED!!
AHHHHHHH!!
GEIL!!!
WAIT!!
IS IT EVEN SUPPOSE TO BE GEIL?
I DON'T KNOW!!
OW OW OW OW OW OW!
JUSR THE THOUGHT OF YOUR NIPPLE BEING PIERCED...
OW!!!!!

*still speechless*

Helping

2009-11-21T13:31:00.002+08:00

Currently chatting with Rit :D
It's been a while since I talked to her.

I don't know why.
I think it's just me.

I want to help but sometimes, my words seems to screw things up.
I want to help her but I don't know how.

I care for her, even though I've never met her .
I want her to feel good, even though she's living at the other side of the world.

I want to help because I care but my words...
Urgh!
Fuck!

Nuff said...
I'll go and emo right now...

Bill's hot up there XD

Grad Prom and stars

2009-11-18T22:10:00.010+08:00

Hehehe XD
I'm back.
I hope my internet isn't lagging so that I can post this XP

So...
On the 12th of November 2009, it was the last paper for me.
Then, to celebrate, I headed over to Suchi's house for ~~Puuri Aloo~~ dinner.
But before that, we played Monopoly ~~I won XP~~ and took crazy photos XD

I swear Suchi looks like a insert appropriate word.
Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe

Then it was Prom :)

~~I swear I was so effed up with my fringe that I even rushed to the saloon to get my hair cut XD~~

Everyone looked awesome!
~~Well duh. I'm the only gundu who wore sneakers XP~~

Suchi permed her hair!
And she was wearing a DRESS!
I ~~fucking~~ DRESS I tell ya!

We had great food :)
A great DJ :)
GREAT dessert :)
I swear I didn't know what Diana meant when she asked if the dessert was savoury and I just said yes, without knowing that she was actually asking if the dessert was slightly saltish or not XD
We forgave and forget :)
We took alot of photos :D
MAGGIE WAS NOMINATED FOR PROM QUEEN!!
~~But she didn't win XP Which sucks XP~~
Basically, it was GREAT :D

Suchi kept saying I looked like Bel and I was like O_O
Maybe you guys should decide for me XD

Thank you to Suchi's mom for the ride to and from Prom :D
Hope you have fun at India!
Your food rocks!

Then after prom, me and Ifraniah caught the last 174 bus home.
HENG AH!
And we walked from Jurong Point to PioneerMall because there was no more buses XD
Which was like 100000km away...
Then had late supper and changed our clothes.
Went to find a suitable spot to sit but the field was freaking wet.
So we head to the park opposite my house.
Which was 100000km away...
Reached the place at ~~2.30am~~.
Made ourselves comfortable and we waited.

What are we waiting for?

~~That stupid meteor shower that didn't even happen.~~

So basically, we spent 2.5 hours at the park.
Me almost peeing in my pants because it's 2.30am in the morning and you know what happens during that time DX
I was shivering my ass off.
I was sleepy.
Irfaniah couldn't stop eating.
I couldn't stop farting and yawning.
And the stupid thing didn't happen XP

It's either my eyes are keceng (blur) or the newspaper's information is not credible XP

So with shattered hearts, we head over to my house and crashed at 5.16am in the morning....

Bleh.
Stupid ~~fucking~~ bleh....
BLEEEEEHHHH
Sorry Fani!

So here's pictures :)

And that's Nadhirah :)
And you know what's interesting?
I've always seen her and smiled at her since Sec 3.
Talked to her sometimes too but the thing is...
I never knew what her name was until last night XD
Silly me... XD

Haha!
Enjoy your week, liebe :D

Prom and Camp

2009-11-17T14:13:00.003+08:00

Currently getting ready for the ~~big event~~ at 2.19pm XP

My body aches.
Arms, legs, back, neck.
You name it.
It hurts XD

Camp was fun :D
And very sweet :)

Haunted treasure hunt.
Candle light dinner.
Five-star service :D
Food was AMAZING!

I'm going to miss Choir :)
~~And of course, my red hair was fucking distracting XP~~

Wished it was redder but due to difficulties, it couldn't be redder XD
But ich liebe the shade of it :)

Kind of pisssed at the same time happy.

Pissed because...

Insert fucked up reason here

Happy because...

Insert happy reason here

Hmmm....

What to write....

Speaking of CCA, I wonder what was Bel's CCA when she was in Sec school XD
It never crossed my mind to ask her XD

what else...

Oh!

And NEVER be judgemental of people.
And I mean really.

Just because you can't wear something that someone else is wearing, it doesn't give you the right to reduce that person's self-esteem.
Like eg, like judging Irfaniah.

Seriously, I'm shocked XD

I'm tired...
And I'm wondering why the school chairs are yellow and the school tables are brown.
I don't get the contrast XD

I'll elaborate more on whatever good, pleasant shit that happened in my life when I get back or something XD

Guten tag :)

The end and upcoming plans

2009-11-14T14:23:00.004+08:00

It's finally the end and I'm very excited.
Well, not really XP
I was somehow wishing that the day where we would get our results would be tomorrow XD

So now, I need to find a job.
Not sure where but I'm trying for Bata, I guess.
If not, a factory's not bad XD

Cramps.
Bleh.

I don't really have specific plans for the holidays XP
Others are flying, going on holidays and I'll most likely be stuck at home XD

Yada Yada Yada

So what are my future plans...

Dye my hair.
Work.
Work.
Spend some time with friends.
Work some more.
Results.
School.
Work part-time.
Cosplay event XD

I have an idea what I want to be for next year's Cosplay event XD
Hehehehehehe

See.
My life's pretty boring XD

Well, nothing much to update, to be honest.
I would rather write but then Bill's photo up there was so fucking hot that I couldn't resist posting a post so that his face is there XD
If that makes sense and Kana-chan is angry because I'm thinking about Bill ALOT XD
AND Tom's face is fucking priceless XD
Haha!

In love with SasuHina right now XD
The pairing is kind off weird but hey, it's nice!
Some writers in fanfic.net have AMAZING stories!

Wee!

Now I'm off to read some!
Bye!

Bleh

2009-11-09T11:39:00.011+08:00

I can't help it XD
Too sexy XD
*drools*

Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe *grins*

Today had Geog and it was okay :)
I'm happy with it :)

2 more days and I'm done :)

*thinks*

.......

I have no idea to wear for prom XP
Need to find red hair-dye XP
Must find that stupid halal one.... XP
I didn't know it was going to be this hard XP

Yada yada yada yada

Here's some pictures XD
Feel free to laugh your heads off :D

Enjoy life, lieblings :D
Because after Os, it's gone :D

Freaking hot

2009-11-08T12:21:00.003+08:00

I swear he looks fucking hot.
I swear he looks fucking sexy.
~~I feel like pouncing on him XP~~
*farts and faints*

Lalala!

2009-11-08T11:02:00.003+08:00
Had a gathering yesterday at AMK to pray for my late Granmama DX
I got to meet my WONDERFUL retarded cousins!!!
We started quite late though XP
Because the guy who was suppose to start the prayers came late XD
Why couldn't my Dad say it?? XD

Luckily, we got to sit in the room, so we could actually fool around without making too much noise XD
Trust me.
That person reads v-e-r-y s-l-o-w-l-y... XD

The food was NICE.
The Sambal Goreng.... POWER!

Then basically, we camwhore-d... XD
Haha!
So typical of us!

Warning: This is pure-ly x-rated. Do not see if you have heart problems.

Yeah XD
I guess the retardness runs in the blood XD

Seriously.
After I get a job, I'm so buying myself a camera.
The pixels are IRRITATING!

Oh!
And Nad got excited after I told her that there is a possibility that TH is coming to S'pore next year.
I know right! EEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPP!!!

I'm so going if they're coming!!

Yeah.
I guess that's it.
I'm not really good at writting in blogs XD

Ps. Butt, gambar kat FB :)

boring life

2009-11-07T14:27:00.003+08:00

Life has been pretty boring...
REALLY boring...

Three more papers and I'm done XD
Three more papers and I'm free XD

Three more papers and it's prom and the thing is, I don't feel like going.
Really I don't.

Listening to Alien.
It's beautiful.

Almost got a cat as a pet yesterday but too bad XD
It ran away before Mama got to see it XP
It's was really cute!
t had greyish-white fur and its eyes are magnificent XD
I was playiing with it and when Mama wanted to see it, she ran away XD
Aw... There goes my one chance of having a cat XP
And Mama even considered having one XP

Well then, Ich muß gehen und Bad XP
Haben Sie einen schönen Tag!
Here's a plot for a story I thought off XD

Ich schätze, daß das Leben recht herauf manchmal gebumst wird.
Sie versuchen Ihr bestes zu bitte jeder, aber niemand scheint, Sie zu schätzen versuchend.
Sie interessieren sich für jeder, aber niemand scheint, Ihre eigenen Schreie und Vorwände zu hören.
Niemand sieht Sie, bis schließlich zu sterben…
Sie sind tot.

unreasonable

2009-11-04T16:57:00.002+08:00

Lalalalalalala

If that's the meaning of unreasonable,
then I guess life isn't so bad after all XD
It's kind of amusing, actually XD
Hehe :D

I love IRFANIAH
Nuff said :D

Meeting Bela and THSG

2009-10-31T12:51:00.002+08:00

Meeting Bela in 2.5 hours.
AHHHHHHHH!!!
~~I'm meeting Weaponswyred!!!~~

Then going to THSG Street Team :)
At 4pm.
Suppose to give an email.
And I did...
No reply...
I'm scared to shits that they didn't receive it!!

Excited excited excited

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

TH Fur Immer

Nuff said :D

I wonder if the soong's playing... XP

Automatic

2009-10-30T15:42:00.003+08:00

Gosh...
This song.
Wonderful.
Amazing.
Fantastic :D

The butterflies I'm having in my stomach right now reminds me of the first time I ever got to know of their music XD
Ich Liebe!

So excited!
Tomorrow!
Weeeee!!!
Hope Dad says yes XP

Os...
Math and English down :)

Well, I guess that's all XD
Just felt like posting because of Tokio Hotel XD

Practical

2009-10-22T17:13:00.002+08:00
Goin to make this post a simple one.
I'll update this Saturday...
I think XP

Practical.
Not bad.
At first, it was hard.
Got pretty understandable at the end.
Which was...
STUPID.

Going out with Bebeh tomorrow.
Wedding plans.
Nuff said :D

O levels...
Wow...
All the best of luck :D

Diana Afiqah Bte Mohd. J
Made up.
Friends :)

Miss Bela DX
Miss Rit DX
Miss Jade DX

Guilty as charge.
One-shots.
Too many.
But.
Slowly doing them one by one.
Only need time to post :)
Probably after Os :D

Song.
Automatic of course!
Saturday!
I PROMISE!

Hmmmm...
What else....

OH!!!

Hehehehehe...
It's a secret XD

Lalalalalalalalala

I miss nek Ru

2009-10-14T11:32:00.003+08:00

Currently at home.
Not at school though.
Nope.
I didn't take an early study leave.
Migrain.
A bad one.

Doing History.
Taking a break now.
An hour.
I guess...
Doing History later.
Social Studies.
Geography.
Math.
Bio.
Hopefully.

I miss Nek Ru.
Teddy Bear.
Nice funny hands.
I used to play with them.
She would laugh.
Haiz...

Going on hiatus.
Posting again when I feel like it.
If not.
After Os.

O levels.
Less than two weeks.
Next week.
Practical.
Sucks...

I think it's abit too late.
I'm trying.
Very hard.
Very tiring.
I want to get it badly.

I was happy yesterday :)
Very happy :D
Kaname!

I still hate the animal.
But I laughed XD
Stupid.
Pathectic.
Haha!

I miss my Oma...

Lala

2009-10-02T16:11:00.002+08:00
I have lots to say but I'll do it some other time.
However, for now, I only want to make some things clear.

It wasn't my parents's fault that she was brought to my house.

My parents didn't fight to get her to be brought to my house.

I'm sorry that she didn't want to be brought to your house.

It was HER last wish to be brought to MY house.

So shut your fucking trap and stop trashing MY parents and MY Grandmother.

You are not related to us by blood.
Remember that.
Nenek's blood flows through my veins.
Nenek's blood is in me and my cousins.
Nenek's blood is in her children's body, in my DAD's body.

Call me a fucktard.
I don't care.

A long break

2009-09-15T11:55:00.003+08:00

Sorry!
It's been a while since I blogged XD
I found my phone!
WEE!

So...
I'm sitting here.
Alone.
In the library.
It's kind of empty since school hasn't end yet.
So.
I like it :)
At least until school really ends and all the ~~pathetic~~ mats come to lepak at the library...

Just had Bio and it was do-a-ble XD
I just wish I had studied more XD

Up there, is Seven/Icha and DICK
Me, HuiYun and Mags bought ourselves a cactus each before the holidaes XD
Inspired by Fani's cactus :D
Rest in Peace aite, buddy :)

It's called Seven, Crazy, Dick respectively :)
GAIL HUH??

***

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THIS APUNENEH!
I LOVE YOU, SUCHI KALIA!!!
I hope the pizza I made was nice XD
I hope it's better than the cake XD

***

Followed Maggie to JP to get her POSB card done since she lost it XD
Then we ate and we walked around and GUESS WHAT??
We forgot to camwhore......

***

The next day, Me and Dyra went to the Army Open House
My legs are numb... Semut-semut DX

We went to war and I shot four guys dead!
Yeah! Serve them right for underestimating us, girls!
Yeah XD
Because we were the only girls in the team XD

***

Then the next day, Me and Fani headed over to Mustafa Centre XD

As you can see, I'm lazy to elaborate...
I'm a pig XD

She's desperately trying to cover up her pimple XD

Then we headed over to Galile and we ate XD
I had the Galile special while Fani had the Fish n Chips :)
We couldn''t finish it though but we made it through :D

***

Pretty much, that's it XD
I have lots more photos but judging by the pig that I am...
I'll only upload it to Facebook XD

Oh!

And isn't he hot??

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*melts*

Oh and Laden Sisters,
Here's the link :)
Tell me what you think XD
(Trust me, it's BAD)

Porn Action

Ahhh!!

2009-09-08T13:43:00.000+08:00
Ahhhh!!!!
I lost my phone!!!
IN MY HOUSE!!!

It was here a moment ago and I went to ~~berak~~!
When I came back, I can't find it!

SHIEBEHAUSEN!!

Pathetic, aren't I?

Urgh!

Sorry you guys!

I don't think I'll be able to answer to you guys if you guys called or smsed me DX

OH NO!!!!

Ps. I'll update when I have the mood DX
Pss. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUCHI KALIA!!! ICH LIEBE DICH!!!

Happy bdae bill and tom!

2009-09-01T12:46:00.001+08:00

Happy B'Dae Billa und Thomathy!

Finally!
They're 20!

Omg...
It's been two years!

All the best liebes :D

VK banner!

2009-08-30T16:22:00.002+08:00

Click to enlarge XD

Happy Belated Birthday!
You're finally sixteen which means...
You can finally donate blood!!

Thank you for being there to gossip with me :D
Thank you for being there at Jurong Point and Mcdonalds with me :D
Thank you for always accompanying me to the toilet 24/7 :D
Thank you for laughing at my super LAME jokes :D
Thank you for EVERYTHING! :D

Seriously, you guys wouldn't believe me if I said that I use to be scared of her last time XD
Ah Lian! Ah Lian!

BUT!

Now, the ~~Ah Lian~~ become a guai girl already and one of my closest friend too :D

My apologies if I made you angry or hurt you in any way DX
I'll always be here to catch you when you fall and to lend you a shoulder if you want to cry :D
Ich liebe dich aite!
*hugs*

PS. Laden sisters, want to head to Seoul Garden after Hari Raya and stuff ourselves dry?? *wink wink*

***

Exams was okay, I guess.

Math
Social Studies
History
Chemistry
Physics
Physical Geog

Not really my cup of tea but it was okay.
Just an okay.
I can't gurantee an A but I hope I can score in my Humans XD

English
Phy/Chem Practical
Biology
Human Geog

Oh God... Please save me!

***

Nothing much to update but I swear I had lots to update just a moment ago DX
Now, I just can't remember what to update XD

OH!

Me and Fani are super ready for our future!
We already planned what we're going to do next year and where we're going to go after Poly etc etc XD
Kekek XD

...

Now, I'm topic-less...
Haha XD

OH WAIT!!

What do you think? *blink blink*
Haha!
I know it's everywhere in my blog XD
Dh giler sikit ah :D

Haha XD

My first story banner!
Wee!!
For ~~TNWSIP~~ :D
Hehehehehehehe!

Now I know how hard it is to make one DX
Phew, I'm not sure if the banner above looks nice though DX

***

Looking at the pictures reminded me of the good times I had spent with her :D
Sadly, there won't be anymore good memories DX

I won't deny that it's my fault because it is.
I was angry and I didn't want to accept whatever was happening.
So that explains why I'm with Suchi (love her lots!) and Diana's with (insert name of person das Ich Hasse).
I feel guilty for hurting Diana but I think it was inevitable (Ceh... History seh XD)
Maybe I'll be friends with her again in the future? Maybe
It just surprises me that I haven't been talking to her for the past 8 weeks DX

Well, no point dwelling over what had happened :D
I always say, Friends come and go and Diana is one of those friends that, well, comes and goes.

I miss her.
I miss her to the core of the core of the Earth, if there was a core in the core of the Earth. XD

I miss laughing with her.
I miss gossiping with her.
I miss making up stupid games with her, like that finger game.
I miss imitating Spongebob and the ConShell club with her.
I miss making fun of ~~Cheekeh!~~ with her.
I miss hanging out with her at Orchard, Geyland etc.

Let's face it.
I fucking miss her DX

*One minute of silence*

*farts*

Well then... *coughcough*

Dankeshen for the memories :D
Dankeshen for the times that made me smile :)

I'll never forget, that's for sure :D
You're the bestest friend I've ever met and had :D
I want to thank you for reviving my trust to have a bestfriend :)
The last four years were irreplaceable (I'm not sure if I spelt that correctly XD Haha!)

All the best to you for O levels and all the best to you and your *clears throat* small little cute little chubby little baby XD

Hehehehe...
Takaya Kuran...
Sound hot XD
*slaps myself*
Dream on, Syafiqah...
Haha!

Mother tongue o level results

2009-08-19T17:48:00.000+08:00
Alhamdulillah :)
An A1 :D

Ps. I need to change my Liebes section XD
I've added someone to the list XD

Frustrations let loose

2009-08-09T14:38:00.002+08:00
For once, I'm asking myself
If I should fight on,
Or just let myself drown inside...

lalalala my birthday

2009-08-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

Where was I?

Ah!
Yes :)

19 July

Headed to Clementi to watch Kuda Kepang :)
Same group as before :)
Ich Liebe Das Group!
They're the best :D

Here's pictures since I get alot of complaints about Kuda Kepang bringing dosa or haram when watching their videos :)

21 July

Racial Harmony day was the sweetest day :)
Mainly because it's my ~~birthday~~ XD
Hehe

Everyone was wearing their traditonal costume and we all looked really colourful and vibrant XD

Received a Birthday Cup cake from Suchi :D
I swear it was a surprise from her XD
Received a book to write in by Fani and Tika XD
Also received a Doraemon CD holder by Mardiah XD
So sweet!
And there were many sweet wishes from my friends and peers XD
Dankeshen you guys!

Again... Pictures XD

Yeah so that's that :D

Just enjoy these last few unglam photos of me and my beloved, retarded friennds :)
Malas to blog anymore XD

I feel empty.
I've been trying to write and I did came up with three one-shots but somehow...
I'm not that satisfied with what I produced DX

I feel pathetic because apparently I misplaced my soul again DX
I couldn't stop hoping and wondering and praying.
I've started my intensive study and I pray more now.
I think I'm placing my hopes too high...
But somehow...
I don't know...

Someone please murder me...

a while

2009-07-28T09:59:00.000+08:00

Miss her lots! Can't wait to meet her during Raye!!

It's been a while since I've updated huh?
Haha XD
My apologies for the long wait :)
And I'm finally sixteen!
That's means I'm one year closer to death DX

I figured I would just update now since I'm using the computer :D

I have alot of things to post but I guess I'll just post them slowly since I'm not feeling that well right now and I'm doing Math XD
Ceh Ceh. Buat Math seh XD

Let's see...

17 July

Had cup noddles with HuiLaden, MagLadin, MaLadin aand SuLaden XD
It was fun!
We talked alot and recently we spent two hours talking about ghost and MaLaden was FREAKED out XD
Well, they pretty much rock my world!

Apparently I suck at resizing photos so just bear with the shitty photos XD

18 July

Hung out wth BelaSteam :D
I treated her to Mcdonalds and then we walked around, laughing and joking XD

I couldn't really generate properly because I was hanging out with WEAPONSWYRED!!!!
It felt like a dream XD

Then Bela treated to ice-cream (which was uber expensive!! Danke Bela!!) and we sat down at the new mall at Bugis which was cool, literally XD

Then we talked like no ones buisness XD
Boys, boys, TH, Sarah, Ash, Tom not being a whore, Bill turning girly by the day but I still love him XD and many more XD
Bela's just a sweet girl :)
Can't wait to hang upside down with her again XD

There's preety much moe things to blog about like my birthday and all that XD

But one things for sure...

25th of July 2009 was the best day of my LIFE :DDD

I never shed a tear when you turned your back.
Drift away, but I'll rise from the ash.

lalala

2009-07-12T13:31:00.008+08:00

Liebe Him :)

Couldn't update yesterday due to watching Naruto :D
LOVE NARUTO!
I mean the show XD

So nothing much happened during the week except for Friday.

Me and Suchi went to eat Cup Noodle at the Mama shop :)
I'll just let the picture talk :)

Then me, Fani and Fai went to study at Mac which was fun :D
We stayed until 8.30pm before heading home :)
It was really comforting because they were really supportive if me :)
Teliing me so what if I lost a friend or two :)
FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN
Planning to make it a weekly routine :)

Ps. Fai was obssess with the idea of taking pictures with a beauty contest smile XD

The spent 2 hours watching Naruto yesterday :)
Apparently my eyes were glued to Neji XD
SOOO HAWT...
And Orochimaru really looks like Bill at some point :D
Ich wie! Ich wie!

Seriously, it took me forever to resize the photos using GIMP...
But it was worth it XD

I'm sneezing.
I still haven't complete my Math paper.
I wondering if Mum's gonna make Ondeh ondeh.
I'm off to watch Naruto!

BYE!!!

alaal

2009-07-04T17:14:00.002+08:00

Feeling better than just now.
My apologies for the outburst XD
I'm really having a bad day.
From horrible Malay O level oral to friends to brothers and to parents...
I guess it's just a hell of a BAD week for me XD
But you can read the previous post if you want.
I don't really see the point in deleting what I've posted.

Isn't Kakashi cute!!!
Gosh!

This guy NEVER fails to make me smile lke crazy XD
He's SOOOO CUTE when he was little XD
And the fourth Hokage looks hot but DUH.
Kakashi is WAY hotter XD

Hehehehehehehehehehehe.

2009-07-04T14:34:00.003+08:00

This few days is just one of those fucked up days...
I'm tired of dealing with people that fucks my life up.

Sometimes I wonder what's the true definition of FRIENDS.

It just irritates me to pieces.
So go fuck yourself dry with PORN since you want to watch it so ~~fucking~~ much.

Then you have some people who just has the word POSER hanging on their necks.

I don't mean those people who suddenly like MJ after his death.
You people are perfectly fine.
No sarcasm added :D

I just fucking LOATHE people who fucking critised him when he was still alive.
You say he's a molester, a raper, a fucking asshole, a fucking gay.
You tormented him with your fucking words and now you act like you're MJ's NUMBER 1 fan after he freaking passed away.
You're a fucking poser.

You act like you know every single shit about Michael but the truth is, you fucking don't.
You act like you're fucking into 'Beat It' and 'Thriller' but last time, you rolled your fucking damn eyes when everyone else was talking about him or his songs.
And now, you just mean nothing to me.

I'm fucking tired of always closing one eye and forgiving you for you shit doings.

FINE

You want Diana so much?
You can fucking have her.

I'm not really in the mood to fucking talk so whatever, POSER.
Go fuck yourself up with MJ's songs.

R.I.P

2009-06-27T16:51:00.010+08:00

Rest In Peace
Michael Joseph Jackson
Mikaeel Jackson
1958-2009

You'll be in my heart forever

Bummed that I don't have the time to watch Selasih Putih at West Coast...
I wonder if ~~he's~~ there...

lalalala kuda kepang at west coast

2009-06-24T13:00:00.003+08:00

Previous intentions
- Update photos and blog about last week...

Current intention
- Just update what I want cause I'm tired...

Yeah...
Just going to update about the Kuda Kepang that I watched last Sunday.
I'm not sure about the name though but one girl from Youtube suggested that it's Satrio Perkoso.
However, I kind of doubt that it's Satrio Perkoso.
I remembered Cik Man telling me it's another group XP

It's entertaining, I must say.
This is the second time I've watch this and this time, I was standing quite close to them.
Not afraid, of course.
It's was definitely entertaining.

Some ate the burning wood.
Some ate the glass tube.
Some danced on broken glasses.
One hit his head on the broken glass and cut his head.
Some climbed the tree.
There was even romance between two of the possesed people XD
Cute sia!! Sehati sejiwa XD

I didn't manage to record all because it was tiring so I just recorded the parts that I find interesting, that's all.

Hope that was entertaining :D

Didn't record the night performance though...
It was definitely MORE entertaining :)

The seniors menurun and they were more aggresive.
Garuda Emas was also there and in the end, a fight sparked between them.
It was gail lah :)

Going back this Saturday to watch Selasih Putih.
I think I'm interested in this culture BUT I'm not thinking of joining.
Finding out more about this culture? Yes.
Joining? NEIN.

Ai ai ai.

I'm just angry but I won't say why.

Well, that's all.
Wanna watch Naruto XD

lalala

2009-06-16T19:05:00.007+08:00

My apologies for not updating.
It's been a week plus and much had definately happened.

Me and Brintha got into good terms.
The post was NEVER meant to ~~trash~~ our friendship.
I just wanted to tell her that I hated the new Brintha.
I miss the old Brintha.

Then there was the Resilience workshop.
It has really opened up my eyes.
I never realise how fortunate I was.
So I want to thank Melvin :)

In case it's still unknown, I'm summarising XD

Then messed around with Audacity.
Watched Naruto.
Did CIP at CC XD
I miss Kak Fateematul :)

Did CIP at Creative Thinkers today :D

I LOVE IT!!!

I love the kids there!
Ms Sida was very nice to me :)

And there was this teacher too and her name is Ms Nas.
AND GUESS WHAT???
She freaking looks like EZABEL DOMINIQUE SIEK!!!

When I saw Ms Nas, I was like "Oh my! Bel!!!! Yay!!!"
But then I stopped to ponder, "Bel works here?? So far meh?"
Then I look at Ms Nas again, "Oh ceh. Not Bela Steam. Not Bela Steam." XD

I LOVE THE KIDS!!!
Especially Finnigan :)

I was taking the N2 class and it was amazing :)
No I know why Bel loves kids XD

The class consists of...
I can't really remember all though XD

Finnigan French.
No really. His last name is French XD

Hamzah and Haydar, the twins :D
Haydar din really talk but he was running around.
Hamzah just kept quiet and just smile and smile and smile and smile XD

Hannah.
Her green dress was beautiful :)

Pranav.
Really tak tahu diam. Stress aku XD

Joanna.
The kakak of the class XP

Kyu Ri.
Couldn't stop sticking out her tongue that has chewed food on it XD

Lauren Stefence.
No offense but totally mute XD And drool kept dripping out of her mouth! Haha! Even Ms Suda called her ~~Selekah~~ XD

Ming Chang (If I'm not wrong XD)
Hyper active. Doesn't really listen to instructions BUT doesn't disturb people.

Zoha (If I'm not wrong again also XD)
Joanna's sidekick XD

It was relatively fun.
I'm thinking about going back again next week XD

Help to cut masks and stick it on hardboard.
Got my hands all sticky and messy with paint.
Dance and sing with them.
Help the LaoShi with the papaer owls.
Alot of work but I like it :)

Ms Sakinah's TOTALLY like Mr Latiff :D
Their daughter, Aishah, is 12 but taller than Suchi, who is taller than me and Diana XD
TALL RIGHT??

Then went to library with Ed.
He was late by... 75 mins XD
So I did Bio.
Then he came and he did Math.
Then we ate at KFC.
Then we went home :)

And now, here I am :)

Heading to Kak Nana's house tomorrow.
Sleeping over.
YAY!

Internet's lagging...
Blah blah blah blah blah.....

I'm a boring person and I'm bored so I decided to do something bored which ended up making me feeling more bored as I sat on my boring chair and stone boredly at the boring white wall with boring patterns that made me bored like boring hell...

just things XD

2009-06-06T14:03:00.004+08:00

Currently chatting with Dyra and Ed XD

Fun :)

Dyra just agreed to be bassist and bleached her hair!
Gail I tell you!
G.A.I.L!!!
So nice!!!
Maybe I should do that :D

Ed just got back from camp XD
That fat pig.
He already ate 3 packets of Maggi and he's still hungry XD
But he's still as skinny as a stick, I tell you!

Nothing much to type about, though.

Ok.

I'm just abit pissed.
At someone.

I didn't know your grandmother has such control over your personal life.
Wow.
Are you sure she's your grandmother because based on my knowledge, grandmothers are suppose to be kind AND understanding XD
I'm shocked that your grandmother will get mad and scold you if you don't turn up for some family gathering due to school reasons XD
A very amusing grandmother indeed XD

I really can't believe that I wasted my saliva telling you the truth at Suchi's house.
For once, I'm actually putting you before myself and did what a good friend should do.
I am concerned about you but your attitude, it's just foul.
No wait.
It's worse than foul.
I think it's beyond rotten XD

I'm really tired.
I'm sick, I'm tired and my nose is running.
Stop whining and complaining.
Everyone has problems, Brintha.
But you don't hear us whining like some sick dog who wants attention.

I admit that I'm a coward for not telling you this in your damn buju face.
Well, I AM a coward and I'm not afraid to say that I am one.

This blog is the only place where I can clear my thoughts and type what I feel is right.
No point confronting you because then, my 'friend' senses will kick in and I won't have the guts to curse at you.
No really.
Call me perasan but I'm nice and caring girl.
I don't like hurting people with the words that I say.

However, that doesn't mean that I'm not brave enough to type what I want.

Read my posts.
You'll see how many times I've said what I want to people.
To Diana, Dyra, Brenda and even Suchi.

You're really selfish.
What me, Suchi and Diana went through on Monday just proves how much of a selfish person you are.

Diana was in trouble and you thought it was a joke.
Then you blame me and Diana.
See lah. Fool me some more. Now I don't even know how whether you guys are in real trouble or not.

Then you lied.
You said you called Diana and she answered the phone, saying that she was fine.
How dumb do you think I am?
Then you claimed that you called her parents but I checked with her Mother and guess what?
You didn't even bothered dialing her house number.

Stop lying, Brintha.

I'm really tired of always tolerating the lies that you throw at us.
I'm tired of your Grandmother excuses.
I'm tired of your menstruation excuses.
I'm tired of you pleading and begging Mr Latiff to pass to you for Lit when you clearly didn't the deserve the marks or the pass at all.
I'm tired of you using my bestfriend, Diana.
I'm tired of you always complaining about Suchi.
I'm tired of you always acting so smart.

I still remember during the exams.
You act all smart and kept shooting me questions.
Guess what?
You did make me feel stupid because I couldn't answer those questions right away.

What ticked me off was during Bio exam.
You clearly knew that I didn't study at all and you threw me a million and one questions instead of throwing them to Diana or Suchi.
I was eating my Roti Prata in peace, mind you.
You made me feel inferior.
Well, now look where we stand.
Where are you and where am I?

Aren't you sick of lying and acting all big?
I'm sick of all that.
I'm sick of always waiting for some miracle, hoping that you will change.

Where did the old Brintha went to?
Did she died?
Or did you kill her?

I don't get you at all and I still don't get why I'm still hanging out with you.

You want to try to fit in just because we know more about sex than you do.
So you wanted to watch porn just to fit in?
That's ridiculous, Brintha.

I hate your atitude now.
I loathe you now.

Now, we have to redo the damn video because it was pathetic.
Why was it pathetic?
Because you kept cutting everyone.
And.
You said you had to rush home.

I'm just pissed and angry at you for everything.

EVERY SINGLE THING, BRINTHA

I'm tired.
I'm jealous.

Duh.

Of course I am.

I've been friends with Diana since sec 1 and you came in all of a sudden and act like you knew her since she was born.
You wanted to sit beside her.
You wanted to walk beside her.
You wanted to be with her.
YOU WANTED TO BE HER.

And what's up with the Oh, if anything happens to Diana, she'll SURELY call me first.

I'm paranoid and annoyed everytime you say that.
What are you trying to do?
I thought I told you how I felt when we fought at the beginning of the year but I guess you just ignored it.

You're SELFISH
SELFISH.

You want Dirtbag all for yourself and you even thought about telling Akshaya's mother about their relationship just so that they'll break up and you can Dirtbag all to yourself.

And guess what?

It's because of you that more people are hating Diana.
More people look down on us because of you.
We stood up for you when you needed help and WE paid the price for you.

When we needed you, you made excuses.
Pathetic excuses.

You begged us to wait for you.
You begged us to help you.

BUT

When we needed help, you ran away.
When we needed you to wait for us, you just say you have plans and walked away.

You're just using us to save your skin and flesh.
You're just using us to get a name.
You're just using us for your own benefit.

Do you think we're dumb?

Hello.

We're pure express people.
We didn't get transfered from NA or NT.
We know the tricks and detours to survive the Express route.
So don't think you can cheat us or step on our heads because we know what you're doing.

There's just a million and one things I wanna write but I'm tired.

I'm tired of you making the three of us change our plans just because you're going on holiday on the 3rd week of June to a H1N1 infected country.

Then you blamed your parents.

You're just glad that they didn't scold their heads out after you got last in level.

I'm not exactly going to be surprised if you end up getting some pathetic mark for O levels.

We told you from the start that you're way behind.
Take this post as a message from me.
I want you to realise that wat you're doing is plain pathetic and disgusting.
I pity your grandomther for always getting the blame.

You told Suchi that you don't want to make enemies.
Well, me too.

So it's up to you if you think I'm throwing daggers at you through this post.

Don't bother making exucses for this Brintha.
I'm tired of your fucking excuses.

just my day

2009-06-04T14:51:00.002+08:00

I actually wrote an extremely long post yesterday but decided to abandon it when Diana called to chat XD

Siao sia that fat pig XD

Well, nothing much to say.

We only had 2 hours of school today.
Just English and Bio.
Then had lunch at Mac and got my Mum the purple glass she wanted.
Ps. She's angry that she didn't get the blue one and she's asking me to buy more of the purple one *coughTOMORROWcough*

I guess that all.

I think I saw Ramadhan just now but I'm not sure.
If it was him, he's Tall.
VERY TALL.
He likes to figid alot though while he waited for the bus in front of me.
Kindofannoyingbutwhattheheck XD

Muhaimin's at camp so I'm pretty much alone at nights now XP

Bleh.
I don't miss him.
We made a deal XD

Stupid, whell chair Ed XD

Kk.

Hayley's hot :)
I know myself better :)
And I know who my heart belongs to know :)
I'm just happy, I guess XD

Oh and what do you call and Indian wearing a white belt?
Not a racist joke. Trust me. I love all races XD I'm even good friends with Brintha, and Indian :)

David cook

2009-05-30T17:34:00.001+08:00

Love him.

Such a wonderful guy :D

Thinking about writting a one-shot based on him.
Maybe a tribute to Adam Cook who recently passed away.
Rest In Peace, Adam.

Nothing much to say.

Nothing to say about PTM.
Nothing to say about CIP.
Nothing to say about H1N1.
Nothing to say about my results.

BUT

I have something to say about this...

I could only wish he was looking at me like that XD

Fuck.
Stop acting like you're a fucking hero.
First, you delayed CIP.
Then, you made all of us change our plans just because you're fucking travelline.
To make things worse, it's in a country infected with H1N1.
And to think that you're stil travelling even after getting LAST level.
And you make an excuse saying that your parents already book the damn tickets.
If others can postpone their trip, then why can't your parents??
I don't fucking get you.
Then the CIP is just way over the top.
Fine, since you want to be the fucking hero.
I'll let you be the fucking hero.
Don't even expect me to contibute any ideas.
I've done my part o ask Mr Latiff so my job is fucking done.
Oh and how long did it take you to get us a CIP job?
Let's see...
Two months?
And how long did it take me to get us a job?
Hm...
Well, 20 fuking seconds.
Don't lie your way out.
Nak bohong dengan kaki pemohong.
Macam mane nk menang ini siak.
Get a life.
Or maybe just die in that life of yours.
I'm sick of your attitude.

2009

2009-05-30T17:33:00.002+08:00

January February March April May June July August September October November

2008

2009-05-30T17:32:00.001+08:00

||January 2008||
||February 2008||
||March 2008||
||April 2008||
||May 2008||
||June 2008||
||July 2008||
||August 2008||
||September 2008||
||October 2008||
||November 2008||
||December 2008||

2007

2009-05-30T16:58:00.004+08:00

||November 2007||
||December 2007||

Just results.

2009-05-27T20:14:00.002+08:00
I'm fine.
I guess.

Got Top 10.
Weee!
But not Top 5.
Aw....

Haha.
But was satisfied.
I deproved.
I swear it's because of Bio.
I mean from a B4, I dropped to an E8.
WTF right?

MT intensive was fun.
Had lots of fun Atikah.
We are like partners in crime, fooling people XD

I'm tired to elaborate though...

Well, I'm kind of piss off.
Not much. Just a little XD

I mean, I'm not hungry so stop forcing me to eat.
Just because I didn't or don't want to eat, it DOESN'T mean I'm going on a freaking ~~diet~~.

And the you have my Dad who's warning me Kau jangan main main. Kau diet kau. Berani diet diet.
So I was like Huh? Since when I was in a diet??

No really.
I don't feel like eating, so I won't eat.

People just irritates me alot.

When I eat, they complain saying that I always eat alot. Hence, I'm fat.
Then, the same person does this.
When I don't eat, she'll complain and say I'll die or something if I don't eat so I was forced to eat.

WHAT DO YOU PEOPLE WANT FROM A FAT PIG LIKE ME?????????????
I'M CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*
I understand people are reading my blog but that doesn't stop me from writting what I want to write.

I'm sick and tired.

I always say that but somehow, I managed to push everything away and make things normal again.

BUT

Your attitude is just sick.

Who do you think you are?
Tatiana??

Just because you're bloody rich, you can just push people like me around.

People like me are not freaking doormats.

You find me when you have problems or have no friends.

However, that's not the case when you have friends, huh?

Blah blah blah.

I'm just freaking tired of always having to pick up your freaking shit.

You think I'm a stupid fool, don't you?

Well, guess what?

I won't bother anymore.

Really.

Read my words.

I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE

Now that's said and done...

Goodbye!

lalala

2009-05-26T17:22:00.003+08:00
I guess today was fine.
I'm liking Mother Tongue intensive alot XD
I mean, who wouldn't?
You have a wonderful teacher, a wonderful air-condition room to study in and wonderful friends that you spent 8 hours with goofing off XD
I like that :D
Surprisingly.

Got back my results and I was quite elated even though I scored C6 for three subkects, I think.

I got a pathetic E8 for Math and Bio XP
I scored about 42 for each subjects.
Not bad but I hate the E8.
So that means more than 20 for L1R5 and PTM for meine parents this friday XD
I just hope I get Top 10 or better still, Top 5 XP
Branganlah kau, Syafiqah...

Lalalalalala.

I donn't know what to write actually...

The music's beautiful.
I love the deep encarved lyrics that David Cook wrote for his brother.

I don't know.

~~Sad~~?
~~Angry~~?
~~Paranoid~~?
Empty?

Yeah...
Well.
That's that.
I'm boring and lame.
I know.

||Guten Abend everyone||

I've always been permanent.
For years, I'm still here.
It's amazing huh?
But the irony of it all...
I'm sorry

lalal

2009-05-23T16:15:00.002+08:00
Results are back.

Not bad but I'm not satisfied.

Only ~~failed~~ 2 subjects.

I passed the rest but it's just a good pass but not good enough XP

I'm happy for my Malay P1, English P1 and my History.

Lalalalalalalalalala.

Reunion in June.

Can't wait.

Addicted to Neopets XP

Trying to make millions XD

Bel's also playing Neopets XD
She got me addcited back to Neopets.

I'm tired.

MT intensive next week :P

Lalalalalalalallalalalala.

I think it sucks a little because I always wanted things to go may way and in the end, it turns out being horrific and ugly.
Like in Pri 6, I kept writting about the possibilities that could happen but I never thought that it really happened.
I think it was my fault though XP

Two days ago was my grandmother's 4th year death anniversary.
I still miss your touch. I miss your delicous cooking. No one can ever beat you in cooking. You're the best. Why did you have to leave so soon? I wanted you to see my wedding but I guess Allah loves you more. Four years seems so fast... Haiz...

Nothing much.

Just doing a blog for my one-shots so I can read it with ease.

I'm just lethargic, I think.

Going to do notes later XD

Well, that's that, I guess...

lalala

2009-05-15T09:53:00.002+08:00

MYEs officially over :D

I'm so glad!
But...
I'm going to miss the short hours of school and the light bags XD

I hope I did well for MYEs.
Need to get at least 18 points for SA1 XD

Met Izyan yesterday :)
Yes, the Izyan IZYAN!!

My bestfriend in Primary 1 :)
Wow. I'm still surprised that we'd been keeping in touch for 9 years XD

Went to the library and helped her with her Physics.
Then we ate at Long John Silver before walking around for a while :D

SHE LOOKS HOT BABE!!

The both of us planning on 1G reunion during June but we need confirmation from people.

Haha.

Can't wait XD

Here's some pictures.
I'm kind of dry to write :P

Oh andI forgot to mention that she bought for me a blue rose :D Danke liebe!

Haha.

That's that XD

I'll update soon aite XD

Lala

2009-05-09T15:36:00.003+08:00

Ai...

History was gail :D I love it :)

Haha.

Spent 6 hours on the internet yesterday.

Watching porn XD

Haha XD

Kidding.

I was reading this Harry Potter Fan-fic.
I never liked the book :P

It was AMAZING!

The best one I've ever read!
Especially the part where Aidyn and Harry were in love :P
It was sooooo sweet.
Haha XD

You should read it but you must register first :)

Here.

||Her Exsistence||

I'm in love with Harry Potter now XD

NOT the movie Harry Potter but the Harry Potter from the fan-fic XD

Haha.

Call me crazy please!

I admire the author :D

Her writting skills are amazing :)

I hope to have a millions reading my fan-fics one day XD
Dream on, Sya...

Haiz...

I'm bored...

Haha.

Happy Mother's Day, liebes :D

heavily broken

2009-05-07T17:48:00.002+08:00

Yada yada yada.
Listening to the instrumental version of Heavily Broken.
Hey, Di. Let's head over to my house one day and make a cover of this XD I miss singing with you, Pig!

So yeah.
Exams...
MYE...

Hmm...

Let's start.

SS was okay, I guess.
Didn't finished the last essay which was worth 13 marks.
It was okay.
I wasn't pissed.
Okay.
Maybe abit XP
But hey, I knew how to do the other questions so yeah :D
I'm fine :)

English was kind of nerve wrecking.
I think I got the format for the letter, or is it a proposal, wrong XP
I wasted four pieces of paper before writting the composition.
I couldn't decide on which topic to write.
It's either Talk about your ideal life partner. which I ~~thought~~ was easy BUT it was too common for me.
You know, like Eg...

Everyone thinks a life partner is someone who's attractive and perfect. The looks are everything in their but for me, I do not really care. What matters to me is the inside...

Okay.
I'm blank :P
Then there's Promises, which I thought would be fun to write.
So yeah, I wasted five pieces of paper, writting, scribbling and cancelling my work till I needed a new piece of paper to work on :P
It turned out, I guess.
A mixture of promises, love, betrayal, insanity and last but not least, murder XD
I hope Mr Latiff doesn't write EEK all over my paper.
I don't think it's offensive at all so good luck to me XD

Then there's Chemistry.
I was expecting it to be hard and I was half dead by the time the paper had started but guess what?
~~I find it fudging easy and I was so happy that I can do all the question so throw a Pig at me if you think I'm very the hidung tinggi. XD~~

~~Physics~~...
Hmmm...
Do I really need to talk about it?

Math was my bestfriend during paper 1 and 2 XD
I love the paper so much that I wanted to hug it XD

Geography was okay, I guess too.
Didn't finish the last essay yet again... but I hope the other questions that I've attempted will pull me through :P

Aite aite.

So far that's that.

Watching some girls screamo-ing (meine new word) :D
Dang!
I want to scream those high-pitch one XD
But!
I haven't been screaming so yeah...
Parents never go out anymore so there's always someone at home XD
So I don't really have any privacy to scream.
Haha.

Ai ai ai.

Aite aite.

Good luck for tomorrow's paper people!

Bill Kaulitz

2009-05-03T14:46:00.002+08:00

I want to thank Allah for bringing this man back into my life.

The ~~Awad~~ phase is offically OVER!

He looks so...

Perfect

Just perfect :D

MIA

2009-05-02T13:15:00.003+08:00
SA1
I'll be back soon, I promise.

Good luck for MYE aite :D

Ich liebe dich fur immer!

Ps. Dear Brenda, yes. You are a hypocrite.

Pss. Dear Brenda, yes. I DON'T have a sense of style because THAT style is my OWN style.

Psss. Dear Brenda, yes. I don't know how to make myself up. That's why people look at me weirdly for having black racoon eyes.

Pssss. Dear Brenda, stop trying to replace me when I'm not present because face it, you can NEVER replace me.

Psssss. Dear Brenda, Stop saying sorry because your 'sorry's are nothing to me.

Pssssss. Dear Brenda, GET A LIFE.

Maybe I am starting to move on...

care

2009-04-24T17:45:00.002+08:00
Sometimes, I wonder if they really care about me or are they just stepping on my fucking head like a fucking cake :P

2009-04-20T16:09:00.002+08:00
It's frustrating.

Super frustrating.

Fucking frustrating.

Blehing frustrated.

Could have gotten 25 for Math but NO.

Stupid careless mistake caused me 9 marks and that sucks.

Oh and I'm sorry if I'm getting on your nerves.

I don't even know why I even bothered to reply when I can just ignore and delete.

My fault, I guess :P

Pfft.

So much for me trying to get to know an Alkaff.
You and your stupid obsession with this kind of families.

I said, not my fault.

Interesting what?

Getting to know prominant families like Talbar, Alkaff, Aljunied and Yamen.

Let me tell you.

IT'S FUN only when you are a nice, bubbly, so the penyabar girl like Diana.

She can strike a conversation with a person and the next thing you know, that person will be her bestfriend for life.

I'm not joking.

I admit I suck at making friends because...

Reason 1
My face is super bengis that even the Lion will not dare to eat my face.

Reason 2
I don't know what to talk about. If you shut the fuck up then I shut the fuck up as well.

Reason 3
I sometimes offend people without me, myself knowing. Like that time with Fai and some other people that I got into a fight with.

Reason 4
I have anger management. My mood swings are super bad.

Okay now I feel bad.

Bleh.

I hate myself!

Really!

And I'm super fuck careless lah!

I could have gotten so much more for Physics but NO.

I didn't read thse question properly and tried to find A when A was given in the question.

I wa suppose to find W but I didn't because my eye was like fucking cock so I got the question wrong.

Ah!

Alot of shits happening AND!

I have MT SA1 this Friday after school and it last till 6.30 so...

*screams and pulls out hair from scalp*

I'm done.

I'll update when I finish shaving my hair and my eyebrows bald...

choir a silver one

2009-04-18T12:16:00.006+08:00
I used to say I didn't care.

And I felt that I didn't care too.

But when it all came down to that moment.

That single moment.

Everything mattered.

The moment I stepped foot on stage, I could feel the adrenaline in my blood.

I tooked a deep breath as hundreds of eyes, including those of the judges, looked at our choir.

Then we sang.

Goosebumbs came and invaded my body.

Okay. Cut the crap. No one's interested to hear about goosebumbs or yakedy yak yak

Fine :P

So yeah.

I'll just fast forward to the results.

*clears throat*

Choir No. 14
Ang Mo Kio Secondary School...

Me and Kellie:
Omg omg omg omg omg omg. Please be a Silver. Omg omg omg omg omg omg *Squeezes hand like crazy

Choir No. 15
Bukit Batok Secondary School...

Me and Kellie:
Oh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Omg omg omg omg omg omg. AH! Fuck fuck fuck fuck. Please be a Silver... *Shuts eyes*

SILVER

Choir:
*screams and some started crying*

Me and Kellie:
OMG! Fuck yeah! Silver! *hugs*

So yeah :)

I was super elated that our hardship and efforts had paid off.

So everybody screamed and some cried.

I saw Sharon cried and I started ~~crying~~.

That Silver really meant alot to us, especially the Sec 4 leaders.

Even though ~~Germ~~ said But a Gold would be nicer. in a super 'I can so slap his face' kind of tone, I didn't get mad.

They who said that a Silver was just a Silver doesn't understand.

The pain the the Sec 4s have to go through, it's nothing compared to what the rest had done.

THAT Silver was a Gold With Honours for us.

Thank you, my family :)

I hope that the bond that we had established will stay forever :)

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So photos :)

This photo of me and Yijun was kind of unglam. We asked Suchi to take a photo of us eating Ice-Kachang and we weren't ready yet and Suchi just took our photo and it turned out nice :)

My eyes looks weird in this one...

Annual Awards Ceremony

I miss my abang terberaks... Nuff said :P

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You're reaching out
And no one hears you cry
You're freaking out again
'Cause all your fears
Remind you another dream has come undone
You feel so small and lost like you're the only one
You wanna scream 'cause you're
Desperate

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light

You're in the dark
There's no one left to call
And sleep's your only friend
but even sleep
Can't hide you from all those tears
And all the pain and all the days
You wasted pushin' them away
It's your life, it's time you face it

You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands to your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
'Cause you're desperate; desperate
'Cause you're desperate; and now

You know that things have gotta change
You can't go back you'll find your way
And day by day
You start to come alive

You want somebody, just anybody
To bring some peace on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
You want somebody, just anybody
To lay their hands on your soul tonight
You want a reason to keep believin'
That someday you're gonna see the light
'Cause you're desperate, desperate
'Cause you're desperate, tonight
Oh desperate, so desperate
Tonight, tonight
Desperate, desperate

I feel guilty that Bill's not on my mind anymore.

I don't think of him 24/7 and it scares me alot.

And...

I wonder if I should hold on...

I don't think it's worth the time but some part of me just wants to stay and wait.

Yes.

I'm desperate...

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I'm black and dark.

Really.

Look at this

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I saw Kenneth ore yesterday and he just suddenly look so white.

The Louisse told me that he never play soccer for a long time so his natural skin colour came back :P

How cool is that!

Haha.

Ok ok.

XD

Fucked up choir

2009-04-14T20:33:00.002+08:00
Lethargic?

Nope.

Tired?

Nope.

Moody?

Nope.

PMSing?

Nope.

Then?

I'm fine :)

Oh wait.
I have something to say...

When you put some ~~fucked~~ up Sec Four leaders with some ~~fucked~~ up Sec Three juniors, what will you get?

Easy XD

A fucked up Choir :D

I have no more comments.

I'm just singing my way through it.

I'm just don't give a fucking shit anymore...

Sorry but really.

I'm starting to hate something that I love.

Wonderful...

Fun what :D

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Had a million tests today :)

There's Math Test tomorrow :)

WEEDUU!
You don't know how excited I am :)

I haven't even completed my homework :)

Not going to... Yeah.

NOT going to.

Sentence of the Day :D
Adam's Bored Fat Pig

Yeah so I was walking to the Berth where 243W was and I was like a walking Mambang with my stupid broom hair that was due to bunning in choir and it was so crowded that I was cursing and swearing and this guy, who was standing behind me, sneezed at my face ~~on purpose~~ and didn't even have the nerve to say sorry but I shrugged it off and got up the bus and it sucked even more because I was standing beside this woman who had like three kids with her and one was crying Mama! Mama! Mama! and the mum didn't even bother because she was so engrossed in her phone conversation that was about Christiano Ronaldo and I wanted to shove her down the bus steps so badly because firstly, I was carrying a stupid and humongously huge bag that can even shove an elephant down the river and secondly, the bus was fucking crowded and that stupid woman only cared about Ronaldo so I was swearing in my head Fuck some more lah. Fuck some more lah. Make sure another ten babies pop out of that rusty vagina of yours so lesson that was learnt was that NEVER STAND BESIDE A WOMAN WHO LOOKS LIKE SHE HAS JUST FUCKED LAST NIGHT AND NEVER EVER STAND BESIDE A WOMAN WHO IS TALKING ABOUT RONALDO BECAUSE YOUR EYES WILL EVENTUALLY CORRODE AND YOU CAN'T USE THE RARE CHICKEN FROM CUBA THING AS AN EXCUSE TO YOU DOCTOR AND! NEVER EVER STAAND BESIDE AN APEK WHO HAS AN UGLY BUSH ARMPIT BECAUSE IT SMELLS LIKE ROTTEN PEE.

So yeah :)

I'm happy today :D

P(Getting that rare chicken from Cuba out of my head) = 0
P(That rare chicken from Cuba invading my thoughts) = 1
P(Me forgetting that rare chicken from Cuba) = 0

So you tell me what I should do?

Suchi's fat
Brintha's fat x 2
Syafiqah's elephant x 10

What did I do to get such fate from Diana??

Haha.

Hmmm....

SAKALAKEWAKENEK!

Yakedy

2009-04-11T18:09:00.002+08:00
Happy Birthday to Gerard Arthur Way

I forgot to wish on Thurs.

Punch me on the head, please and thank you :D

Mio sucks.

Really.

I wanted to cut it's boobs out but the thing is...

IT HAS NO BOOBS. DUH.

Spent the whole day peeling Sotong's skin.

Then alot of shit happened but ~~malas~~ to type.

Ate Durian :)
Finally!

Going to watch my brother korek his hidung later.

I have no idea why I'm watching him.

I got into lots of trouble with my parents.
I'll kill that person and cook him/her in curry if I find out who tagged that on my blog. My ears was on the verge of corroding.

Mind you.

I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING BOYFRIEND!

And I'm happy that I don't have one.

I don't give a shit if you have one because I don't give a kahoots.

So please dear mother.

STOP FREAKING ACCUSING ME OF SUCH THINGS WHEN IT'S CLEARLY NOT TRUE!!

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So, Sya. What's your greatest fear?

Allah. Duh.

No no. I mean. What else are you afraid of?

Hmm... Men with alot of armpit hair.

Huh? That's ridiculous.

No really.
I'm traumatised by that bushy thing under the armpits.
Some uncles and aunties are just super disgusting.
I saw this aunty with very long ones and she was wearing sleeveless mind you.

O...Kay...

Yeah.

What are you doing right now?

Koreking my hidung.

...

No. Just joking. I'm bored...

Well, me too.

You're not helping.

Am I suppose to help?

Are you even here to help in the first place?

Huh? Did I say I was here to help?

Just shut up.

It's not my fault that you can't shut me up.

Sometimes I wonder why I even brought you up in the first place...

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Matt Hardy just turned into an ugly monster

Dear Irfaniah a.k.a Abang Consipated,

I'm deeply sorry to inform you that Matt Hardy has turned against Jeff Hardy.
The good new is, Jeff Hardy is the World Champion now but is facing his ~~stupid~~ brother at Wrestlemania.
I just want to say that Matt Hardy is kinda stupid.
No wonder Lita left him for Kane and Edge before she retired, which sucks because I miss her lots.

Ok ok.

Better not say anymore.

Later Irfan's computer will die a very tragic death.

I wonder what Bill is doing right now...

*thinks*

WOAH! 7246 TIMES!!!

It was only like 5000 last month XD

Gosh.

I feel so bad for not updating anything anymore...

I still owe about 5 one-shots to 5 people.

Bleh!!!!!!

Yakedy yak yak yak.

I love Durians so please get me Durians for my birthday :)

But I don't mind getting a packet of tissue like I did last year :D
I love that packet of tissue XD

I'm talking cock am I?

I'm sooo bored...

My inner Syafiqah is bored so she can't keep me company and it sucks....

Bleh.

I'll find something to do...

Maybe I should like shave my head or something...

Nein.

Uh...

I'm done :P

I wonder...
Hmm...
Maybe?
Maybe not?
Haha.
You're ridiculous, Sya.

so much better

2009-04-10T09:40:00.002+08:00
I feel so much better today.

I was a wrecked cow yesterday.

Today I'm only a wrecked sheep.

Not so bad luh.

Yesterday was...

Fucking bullshit.

Really

The whole day I was like
Fuck. Eight more hours. Three more hours. Yay! School end! Fuck. Got Math remedial. Yay! Remedial end! Fuck. Got Choir. Yay! Choir end! Fuck. Must go home.

Alot of swearing here and there.

Then there was also Physics Test :P

I think I'm going to fail but I find the test quite easy since it was from TYS.

Bleh.

There was also History test but it was open book so I pretty much lifted from here and there.

I sooo hate it this year...

Stupid ~~O level~~.

I really don't know what to write for blogs anymore.

My life is so boring and uninteresting.

Bleh.

I don't even have ideas to write anymore :P

Actually, I have a plot but I don't know if I should make a story out of it or a one-shot...

Hm...

Maybe I'll give you some inside someday.

It's quite different but I'm afraid that it'll turn out shitty.

Bleh.

Kk.

I'm done

Very contradicting...
Caught me off guard for a second :P

haha

2009-04-08T17:54:00.004+08:00
Well, let's go back to middle of the day that starts it all :D
I can't begin to let you know just what I'm feeling :D
And then the Red ones help me fly :D
And the Blue ones make me fall :D
And I think I'll blow my head against the ceiling :D
And as the fragments of my head begins to fall :D
Fall on your tongue like pixie dust :D
Just think happy thoughts :D

Well, I started the day with almost getting hit by a stupid taxi XD

NOT my fault okay.

Stupid cekopek uncle!
Don't know how to drive is it?

Then we had free period...

Blah blah blah

Let's skip school :P

Brintha finally curse and swear :D

She said BABI CINA!

Really happy for meine liebe :D

I wish I was there to hear her say that to the fat lady XD

Hm...

Just super tired.

VERY tired.

Stupid choir...

Can't wait till SYF is fucking over...

Bleh.

Oh and I realise life can be very tragic.

It's all fine and the next thing you know, it crashes and burn in front of your eyes.

I'll be here if you need me aite :D That's what Bimbotic cousins are for :D

I can't bloody wait for fudging Friday

There's a new grey cat outside my house :D

Okay.

I just have nothing to type about.

Bleh.

Have millions of homework.

Should have asked Mama if I can skip school tomorrow.

Skipping yesterday was a bad choice :P

Kk.

Guten Ahbend :D

Oh oh!

Read this :D

Sound is your sixth sense. You're probably not surprised since you might be found rockin' a pair of headphones at anytime. So how does this relate to your inner voice? A person gifted with clairaudio (clear hearing) is someone very in-tune with sounds. Often a clairaudio "hears" their inner voice or gut feeling. For example, if you were about to do something you might regret (like, hooking up with your best friend's sweetie), you might hear a voice telling you to watch out or reevaluate your choice. You might also hear music at odd times or someone speaking even when no one is around (or when you dream). According to some, you might even be able to hear voices when someone is passing or has died. Now, we probably wouldn't advertise the fact that you hear voices, but you have to admit, it's pretty cool...

So that explains the weird sounds at night :P

Yes.

There were times when I was about to go to sleep and someone said my name very loudly and it wasn't any one of my family members XD

I have nothing to say...

Haha

2009-04-05T17:51:00.002+08:00
I don't know whether I should laugh.

I don't know whether I should just keep quiet and still laugh silently.

Haha.

It's expected.

All guys are the same.

The ~~Ezzat~~ species, you call it.
Oklah. Not Ezzat species. More like uh... MoonDog species. Haha XD

Why do I say this?

Haha.

You know, it's was an amusing story that it cured my headache :D

Nvm.

I'll just keep it to myself.

Haha.

Can use it to make me laugh when I'm bored and in need of a cure for headache :D

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Okay.

Different topic now.

Okay.

Now got no topic anymore :P

Haha.

Had maulid.

Blah blah blah.

Got to know that there's this German Sheik near one Bugis mosque.

Need to check him out :)

Haha.

Ai ai ai.

Srill amused.

Haha.

Nevermind.

I'll be nice.
I hope I can XD

Haha.

Kk.

Guten Tag.

Why must you be so far...
Bleh.
It sucks waiting.
I still am waiting.

Lalala happy but frus

2009-04-04T16:07:00.003+08:00
I'm going to ~~complain~~ later :D

Too happy talking to Atikah :)

Haha.

Miss her loots.

Haha.

She's meine Twinny-Toot.

Haha.

Don't sad aite liebe :) I'll be here to die with you if anything to happens :D

Okay...

Now back to ~~complaining~~.

I'm kind of frustrated.
I'm actually considering quitting SYF.
Today's practise was very stupid in my point of view.
I've never been so angry at Choir.
Firstly, the leaders are just putting loads and loads of stones behind my backs.
I know they're tired too but everyone is different.
They scold us because one by one, people are starting to fall sick.
But it's not like we want to fall sick.
I'm saying this in my point of view.
I'm not trying to offend anyone.
I'm just typing.
I think that the morning practices are abundant.
At least, it is to me.
I have to come early from Tuesday to Friday because of Choir and TAF.
I rarely have sleep at night and I have to wake up at 5am every morning so that I can reach school on time.
In the morning, not everyone has the voice to sing.
Thus, they force and this will lead to people having sore throat.
Just because you're down with sore throat, it doesn't mean that you had eaten sweets the day before.
I don't know about you people.
I actually agree with the seniors now.
I think that our batch is ~~bad~~.
We had more than six months to prove to them that we're worthy of being leaders but we failed.
I don't see the point in trying so hard anymore.
I also hate the fact that sectionals are dragged when clearly many people are down and out.
I don't see the point in pushing people so hard.
You'll just wear them down and on the SYF day, it'll be over.
I don't know.
I just fucking hate Choir right now.
And then you have Rosel.
The most wonderful person in the world wide world.
I'm done

I'm done :D

Haha.

I have pictures to upload but I'm lazy so some other time aite :)

I miss ATIKAH, IRFANIAH, FAIZIYYAH and SYUHADAH!!!!

Still waiting
very nervous

nervous

2009-04-03T15:20:00.002+08:00
Nothing much to update now.

Very drained.

Um...

Extremely nervous right now :)

Fai wrote me a story.

Okay.

Not a story but somewhat an MSN conversation with me and (insert name).

It was nice :D

If only it will come true.
Yeah. Dream on Syafiqah...

Very drained and sick lately.

Been getting into bed by 8pm.

Yeah yeah.

I'll update again because right now, I'm still lost XP.

I'm slowly breaking out of my shell
But I'm worried for what you might say
I'venever done this before but...
Now that I'm slowly doing it,
I'm finally realise how good it feels like to chase after something that you desire.